Monday, May 07, 2012 Y 1:50 PM
someone tagged on my tag board on 24th dec 2010 asking me how are things with zyang.
mm... prob now that i've seen that tag, i'll reply here..
i dunno.. maybe there fate but not a 100%
saw this phase before. if your heart is big enough, it is possible to love 2 guys.
LOL... but reality is no one accepts the fact that you can even think of loving 2 person... wads more abt the practicality part?
LIFE SUX.... and i can blame no one but myself for ruining my own life in 2009.
eversince 2009, everything in life is just going downhill.. even my psychological and emotional state.
i was once the happiest gal in the world. optimistic and out-going.
now i'm the most pessimistic gal, who doesnt wish to interact with others accept with my family and that small handful of friends.
i did try to revert things back.. i did try to chase the things i've lost back... but no matter how hard i tried, i've failed.
it came to a point, i no longer wish to try anymore.
now that many more things happened, it only convinced me one thing... that i should even be born into this world. it made me feel that i should make my own move by disappearing from this world.
Saturday, September 24, 2011 Y 1:59 PM
been really long since i came in here to blog about my life..
mm... life has been good yet health aint really good..
i have alot to say in life.. but i dun think i'll have the chance..
right now... i think i should concentrate in my studies since i dun wanna fail the same 2 subjects another time..
i'm missing someone... really...
Tuesday, January 04, 2011 Y 1:16 AM
ok... it took me quite a while to find out how to get back in here... since now blogger is based by google and my email aint a google account...
hais... i'm troubled... guess i shouldnt write in here ba... cos the whole world will be able to see this...
off to study!!!! gotta stop thinking..
Friday, August 13, 2010 Y 12:40 PM
i dint write about wad happened to bash...
bad stuffs man...
i dint go for bash..
scalded myself with oil that very day..
now..
bad scars...
=(
i no longer have a pretty pair of hands..
to the extend i dun even wanna see my own hand..
haix.
why on earth should i get angry that day and cooked???
dumb ass..
Y 12:33 PM
been playing with tumblr that i forgot about my blog...
mmm... life's not bad..
been working, mjing, malaysia, playing...
but more of working..
crazy hours..
still adjusting myself to the weird times.
mm... things changed alot..
sometimes... its like you know some pple are just close to you. but you know things cant go further.
maybe its your own personal restrictions.
maybe its wad you really think of it.
for me.. mx kept saying that there's someone else in my life.. that can make me happy and can bring me happiness.
but i know clearly.. its not gonna happen..
not cos i know... but cos i know i'm not gonna give it a try.
yup. sucks. but too bad.
i wanna patch.. but there's just too many things to consider.
i dun wanna be on and off in a relationship le.
not healthy and confusing.
dunno la..
work first ba..
think earning the money is more impt. need it for school fees... if i can, dun wanna trouble my uncle.
hahaz... (=
life can be complicating. and i guess i made it even more complicated than wad it originally was..
so maybe not bothering about everything will simplify things. (=
thought of a few pple these days.
but yea... sometimes thinking makes you yearn to see that person so much.
but how long was it that i really last saw him? last went out with him? and last talked to him?
haix.
i'm just glad he sent an encouraging sms back then..
lg... its hard to forget you .
Thursday, July 22, 2010 Y 2:57 PM
whee!!!! had mj session the past 2 days...
omg...
won money but never take it... lost more money and paid all out...
=(
sadded...
but yea.. i had fun and it was really tiring for overnight mj session..
ahhahz... today's the bash...
i wonder how much fun i'm gonna have today..
hope for the best...
hahaz... bu think about it... its like everything that had happened 1 year ago...
just that this time my og dint meet up often for tau huay and pool and starbucks.. or even steamboat...
hahz...
kinda miss the good old times..
(=
so tonight we're prob gonna reminisce the past a little.. gonna have supper tonight..
which means... no matter wad i gotta stay through out..
so... i should try enjoying myself tonight...
Monday, July 19, 2010 Y 1:39 PM
lots of happy things... unhappy things occurring...
i'm pretty confused at times... yet other times.. i really know wad i want...
WTH???
is it the pms? or PMS?
i'm supposed to be happy in my salvaged relationship.
but somehow... happy but emptiness...
more of i'm starting to wonder.. we're both trying really hard...
but there are times that we really dunno wad to say to each other..
we're like a boring couple. yet not boring.
things i really wanna do, we cant.
things i really wanna get for either myself or for him, i cant.
in the end... i decided to purchase facial tix for mum, him and me... in the end after buying then i realised its only for females..
argh!!!!
fucked up day
Friday, July 09, 2010 Y 11:08 AM
mm... yest had an awesome day with my OG26 freshies..
its like more than expected turned up...
hahahz...
really damn happy...
(=
mm... took quite a bit of pics... the rest is with zhi yun... hahahz...
whee!!! (= will upload mine soon
