someone says he like me
someone says i like him..
hmph.. craps craps..
no ah... rumours arent real..
hahaz..
i was supposed to remain faithful. and i will
though i'm not really faithful..
but i'll still try hard..
=)
dun worry too much.. if thats wad you know, the rumour i mean...
i've never taken it for real, so you also ya?
hmm.. i just treat you as a nice and good senior who helped me..
=) and ya..
one who is veyr caring..
thats all i can say..

hmm.. holidays come le..
so fast.. sigh..
hmph..
went skol early today..
like at 10 plus.. shooo cool..
then diligently did my math tut..
good k... i spent only 4 hours finishing tut1r..
hmph..
after maths. met baby at jurong..
then went to creative to fix my damn MP3
then we walked over to imm for dinner..
hmph..
wasnt easy walking..
baby had to walk my pace..
cos my leg hurt like hell..
had the temptation to but my hair..
but in the end never..
hmph..
had sad news..
but wun blogged it out here..
but i can only say. no matter wad.. no one can break us up..
luv my baby!!!
=]

hmm.. just returned from malaysia..
hmph.. in summary. i like the trip to malaysai.
but i dun like the hike up.
sigh..
i was sooooo scared.
nearly fell to my death at the steepest end. guess those with me knew wad i was saying
thanks to my fellow odac mates. they held on to me.
sigh.. that caused me to be really scared.. i cried.. really cried..
then mummy, kristine and son helped me up to the summit..
besides them still got others who helped me.. like daniel, soon hwee, yixian.
they helped me up the hill..
then at the first summit. i couldnt take it le..
nearly dropped on the floor..
cos before that i already felt fainty.
hmm.. then rest a while before continuing to the next summit.
hmm. at the 2nd summit.. saw leeches..
hahz.. finally i know how it looks like.
and i've learnt that there are 2 kinds of leech
ok..
then climbing downhill..
thats when all the probs start arriving..
not only fear..
but also injuries..
hmm.. left knee and ankle, right knee and muscle..
its damn terrible man..
hmm..
but tats where the fun part comes.. while climbing down.. alvin, wen yang, yuan xiao helped me..
yuan xiao helped siew li also..
hazh..
hmmm.. alvin piggy backed me most of the journey..
hahz.. its so funny. cos both of us were very sweaty. so when he carried me, i keep sliding down. so he keep say " 1,2,3 up" then cos he carrying me, cannot wipe his sweat. then he asked shu han to clean his sweat at first.. then shu han cleaned his whole face..
then a while later. he asked me to help him also.. i also did the same thing..
cannot see wad. hahz..
=]
but the scary part came..
when we're nearing..
he suddenly slipped and fell.. then i nothing wrong.. but he hurt his right elbow .. lucky he dint hurt his knee. cos he fall and land on his knee.
hmm. so dint want him to carry anymore. so i limbed all the way back.
when we finally reached..
alvin brought me to the stream to wash up..
then returned to the tent then go to the back stream to play water for a while..
then had o change..
but after i changed.. it rained.. so wet again..
thru out the ride back to singapore. was veyr evry cold.. at the restaurant, i dint have any appetite to eat..
hmm.. while i was sleeping in the bus, i heard dunno who said i was too shock/scared the whole day. so now too tired le..
hm.. true la..
very very scared.. even now when i close my eyes, i could replay that incident..
hmm.. sigh.. but ya!!! i made it back alive..
=]

am i suay or wad?? last day of skol and i cant attend..
cos of stoopid tummy ache and sudden cramps..
shit man..
mm.. now i gotta prepare myself to go see doctor and spend money!!!
argh.. dun my stomach know that i'm in need of money???
errr... this is not the first time i'm getting such bad stomachache le..
toopid!!!!!
hmph.. now i'm rotting at home. trying to find all my homework..
but somehow they disappeared..
shucks la..
later going back skol to get all my homework and my gp notes..
TMR IS GP PAPER!!! I'M NOT PREPARED!!!!

oh.. thru rainbow, i've learnt a new jap word..
kitto katsu
means sure win!!! =)

hmm... i've kinda made up my mind..
and i already told them my decision..
they know the reason cos i wrote it down.
sorry.. i may seem selfish... but his is how i feel and i dun like to be treated this way
cos i had enough of it for 10 years..
the reason i hated my sec skol soooo much was cos of that
i thought coming to jc, life will be totally different..
thought pple wil grow up and be more mature, sensible in wad they do..
but i was wrong..
they proved me wrong..
sigh.. anyway... jie made me cry today after econs lect..
jie, you're the first person in pjc that made me cry.
i'm not saying you're taking my job.. but i just wanna thank you so much for doing them all for me..
as i've said b4.. i'm not a good cm..
cehmeh.. ahz..
you said i should keep my secret, adn should share within the 6 of us..
but i dun feel that they are sharing their secrets..
on the other hand.. i feel that you guys are keeping something from me.. like i'm not supposed to know something..
in that case i'm not obliged to tell you guys my secrets..
and i'm used to keep my real feelings within me..
honestly.. i wanna be on neutral ground..
at least i can do my job as cm more efficiently..
cos i'll be more observant to my whole class instead of clique..
then pple wun say i'm biased towards my clique and not others..
sigh..

i'm not happy.. really not..
slowly sinking into depression

hmm.. spa today!!!!
whee!!! shiok man...
never felt so good abt chem pract b4...
thanks mrs tay!!!
you're the best!!
hazh..
but ya..
had some defaults here and there..
first is the pumper thingy..
keep pressin then no liquid absorbed..
so changed..
then next is the clipper..
hazh..
not tight enough
so all my KMnO4 went down the basin..
then change again..
this time change le..
but i cannot control the flow of the liquid..
sigh..
so first reading went over abit..
hazh..
thankfully its still within the +0.1cm3 la..
heng man..
hazh.. hmm..
so did my calculation..
cool..
i got quite nice answer..
similar to alot of pple..
whee!!!
shoo cool..
hazh
then worse part is here..
cos my first draft was so messy.. i rewrote it..
then i stoopidly put my new written script on a wet patch on the table..
in the end the top merged..
canot see the equation
sigh..
how stoopid can i get man..
but nvm..
day's not bad today!!!
had fun la.. but also quite sian..

mrs tan talked to me today at 1pm..
she asked why i dint join council.. then told her i dint get into the first round..
but then i became cm, so its ok..
then she asked wad cca i was in..
when she knew i'm in odac. she said"oh odac! very time consuming!but it is fun right???"
hm.. VERY FUN MAN!!!..
love all odacians.. hard gays and les.. here we are!!!
surprisingly mrs tan still remember after that time baby introed me to her..
so scary and paiseh la..

hmm.. haven been in the right mood these days..
hmm.. think its the class..
its making me really upset
my clique too..
now i dun feel comfortable in it anymore..
cos of someone.. wun say too much on it..
but whenever i see her.. i dun wanna stay with the clique..
sigh..
you think i liek it this way???
no lor..
she like to dao me. then dao lor..
gossip all you like.. i dun really bother.. but just that i dun feel comfortable with you around le..
i know its like ambiguous to say all these..
cos you may not mean it..
but i'm just sensitive to friendships.. maybe cos you dunno me and my bg well enough compared to the rest..

hm.. ok.. as for exco mem.. i dint get in.. but i'm not totally sad over it.. if i can still smile.. you think i'm sad??? those who thinksi was sad.. dun be ya???
hazhi'm fine.. just that i was already sad and moody even b4 all these agm stuffs
so naturally during agm i will try to be happy..
but if you see me really happy, i wasnt..
but i've got no choice..
cos its the farewell..
when it was my turn to make the speech..
i was very nervous..
but also.. its a fear in me.. cos i can never make good speeches... even if i had an experts helping me..
at times i asked myself if i'm really cut out to be a leader..
cos i cant lead them well..
maybe i'm just another failure in life..
i cant lead well.. even though i really try my best..
wad i said turned to deaf ears..
my peers dun respect me as a cm. why???
they dun respect yet dun voice their comments..
wad on earth do they wan from me????
sigh.. if i have a choice i wanna leave..
i never wanted to come in the first place..
but cos of filiel piety, i decided to come..
odac made me feel at home.. with all the heart warming people..
i just wished the hg and lessi are in one class..
=)
cos we're one big family..
oh well..

okok
introduce our new committe members..
president aka boss: weiliang
vice president: siew huai
project head:alina
secretary:miao xia
logistic: ming hao
survival ic: xiang xuan

i ddunno how many people actually come to my blog.. but its ok..
hmm.. i think i fail as a cm..
abit cheymeh la..
hm. thats the sad thing abt it..
i cant even do a simple thing like bond the class together..
is it cos the distance of individual cliques is too far apart??? sigh..
i'm really very sad cos of it..
guys.. i really dun like it..
think you all also dun like right??/
who dun wish for a bonded class whereby everyone are good friends wih one anohter..
we're in jc lei.. not longer pri skol kids..
at times i really wanna cry le..
but who knows me well enough to care for me???
only a handful..
its really tiring..
sigh.. forget it..
i guess i just have to keep everything to myself

i'm sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad
just cant understand why i cant do well for stoopid GSC
how???
mid year's in like 2 weeks..
argh...
i really wanna drop it now...
ARGH!!!
not in a good mood.. stop pissing me off!!!!
argh..

hmm.. chem test is in like 2.5 hours..
hmm. am i prepared???
not really la..
tys dun really know how to do..
but i dunno why i can teach others when i'm not even sure myself.. hmph...

hm... finished odac..
hmm.. today was quite slack at first..
but cos of all hte mistakes and attitute, we had punishment..
hhmmm. here goes..
first we had post mortem..
then individual nominating form for our next committee. then gather..
helmi, amous and wen liang talked to us..
blah blah blah
we lose 6 pegs, never zip log 2 first aid, and 15 other things,.. think it took 15 sec to gather.. and attitute..
so 23 rounds round the track.
plus 5 sets of 40 statics..

so we run 5 rounds then do 1 set consisting of dips, crunches, inverse crunches, flippers, jumping jacks.
then break and another 5 rounds.
then statics again,..
by the time i finished 10 rounds.. the pain's back..
so they had to let me rest.
had a cup of hot milo.. it became better.. hmm...
ok.. then when they finihsed 23 rounds..
michelle and xiang jie announce the top 10 running for odac exco..
hm... i onloy rememered a few..
me, wei lianhg, miao xia, siew huai, ming hao,
hahz..
out of 10, 4's from forces..
hmm. have to prepare a 5 min speech for wed's agm... scary..
whee..
okok.. odacians.. vote for me!!! and i will do my best for you guys..

ok.. i'm back from a terrible induction camp..
hahz..
not terrible la.. but its something i've never experience before..
hazh..
ok.. so here goes..

fri 28th april
reported to skol at 7..
but FOURs met at 5..
then we watched the rugby match in skol..
hazh..then at 7, we all fall in..
we were made to do a recheck of our stuffs..
so we took out all our stuffs from our bags,put in a garbage bag, then pack our stuffs in as the seniors read the camp list..
then.. we put our bags in straight lines outside odac room..
then took out the candles, getting ready for candle war..
hmm..damn fun.. but ya... my candle got blown off so many times and sprayed with water so many times..
but!!!!!it dint extinguish.. hahz.. shows how strong my candle is, like me sia..
hazh
ok.. then dunno at wad time, the shahrin told us some ghost stories that happened in pjc..
damn scary.. in the end i got so scared esp during the solo night..
hmm.. i was placed at the concourse.. supposed to be a good place to sleep.. but i couldnt..

sat 29th april
ok.. we were supposed to wake up at 6am... but at 4am, the whistle was blown..
whistle woke me up.. but made my head realy pain..
then we had morning pt at 4 plus..
then had a short 10 min wash up before leaving for "ubin"
when we board the bus, happily thought we're gonna sit until we reach ubin.
but they dropped us at bishan J8 , and we were supposed to use our map reading skills to hike from J8 until changi village.
hazh..
the hike started out with lots of enthusiasm..
with cheers and songs
then it got stiff as we had to pace faster to catch up oliver and wei jin
wonder why they can walk so fast
hah. miao xia also.. walk so fast!!!!she's like the fastest and i'm the slowest..
hmm... guessed thru out the camp i'm like super exhausted ba.. whenever there's time to rest. i will be sleeping..
ahzh.. when we hike until tampinese, it was like 11 plus 12 le..
so we took a bus 29 to changi village.. the ride was like 1/2 hr.. so we slept..
ahzh..then at changi.v we hike until the near basketball court then settle down for lunch..
then.. we continued hiking to our sleeping area..
hmm saw SAJC odacians..
hmm...
saw cheryl too. dunno if she's in sa or not..
ohwells. had games at various places.. one of them was the blindfold game. .
i was one of the 3 blindfolded. then i was the ultimate robot.. got hit and teased by other 2 blinded pple and seniors.. then while tracking back, a wild boar suddenly ran past. hmm.i was stunned for a moment. that night had camp fire
then the night walk. abit short though, but its quite ok.. =)

sun 30th april
woke up at 5am. then packed everything. then when we went back to the basketball for breakfast.. =) spent a long time there. so we played 7 up, how what huh, damn funny..
hmm.. then took a bus back, thinking we have to hike back to skol. but when i woke up from my sleep, we'd reach PJ.
cool

hmm... now i feel more bonded to hte seniors and fellow J1
thanks guys for being such great pple..

FORCES! are you ready?
hi-eye captain
is a 1?
noooooooo
is it a 2?
err.. noooooooooooooo
is it a 3?
errrrrr. maybe but still nooooooooooo
is it a 4??
YESSSSSSS
wad have you got?
FORCES
wad have you got?
FORCES
lets show them all (boom!!!)
F-ORCES forces that wad we're called
S-TEADY steady is wad we're called
M-IGHTY might thats wad we are
gooooooooooo FORCES!!!

wann esp thank my gp members, consisting of
wei liang, ming hao, miao xia, soon hwee, satish,chung lai
cool man!!! thanks guys!!! you guys simply rawk..
=)

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