mm.... a few days never go online le..
ahzh.. (=
ok.. buddy stay at my house 2nd day le..
today we brought her out..
we= study kakias..
hahz... exception of siew ting..
hahz.. so pple who went were me, ying, marcus, kel, guo zheng, kun tat, edwin, jolene, xiang ling, ai ling, diana, candice, fu jing and jiang ming
a total of 14 pple..
hazh. initially wanted to go k box..
then after signing up for the membership and got the room le.. we ran off..
ahzh..
bet the pple there sian 1/2
hazh.. then we went to 5th floor to see got wad show.
ahzh... all the shows we wanna watch were either filling fast with no seats tgt..
if not sold out..
hazh.. sian..
so we decided to go party world ktv..
but before that we went to take neos..
ahzh... so fun..
after we took gp neo... me and jiang ming took neo card..
ahzh..
we made the guys jealous..
cos they all wanna take wiht her..
hazh(=
i'm so glad my buddy is so sweet, adorable and cute..
ahzh..
ok..then we went to taka to eat..
buy those finger food...thenw e ate by the fountain..
ahzh(=
then dint eat like that before..
so its an experience for them..
hazh..(=
after we brought them ot see the night life of singapore..
hazh..
then trans and all the hookers..
hazh..
it kinda scare them alot???
can see from fu jing's face..
chill gal..
we wanna show you gals these so that you all will not learn yea???
mm.... after which it was kinda late le..
so we walked a bit then go home le..
hazh... and now i'm here blogging while jiang ming's bathing..
heex..
today's a wonderful day wiht the exception that my legs are hurting..
hazh...
tmr will be another fun day..
whee!!!!
mum's bringing us out..
hopefully she will be happy..
ahzh..
took a few videos today..
(=
hopefully all will be able to copy to the com..
whee... ahppy is the gal name pearly.. (=

mm... today finuished skol at 1am... then went home to watch vampire show for an hour.. hten sleep.. heex..(=
brian keep disturbing my sleep la...
your fault..
hazh..(=
ok.. .hten over slept...
so kinda rushed...
in bathing and eveyrhting..
ahzh.. was kinda hungry \. so when i reached novena, went to buy some fries from burger king..
heex..
mm... they took cab down..
ahzh.. okok... the training was kinda a blur one..
ahzh.. (=
ohwells..
ok.. after hte thingy, we went ot velocity...
i thought brian said the physic thingy..
hahz.. until when i saw the shopping centre is called velocity..
ahzh... went to drink teh bing and eat ice cream..
hazh..(=
saw soon and zang there..
hahz.. funny..
but yea.... dint talk ot them..
hahz..
mm... then me and brian took mrt to orchard to take 190 home..
azhh... thru out i dunno say how many times " i'm sleepy.. wannan sleep liao"
hazh.. .then yea lor... keep poking him... wanna know some answers to hte ques i pose..
hahz.. but as usual his answer is just" you wan wad answer then is awd lor..."
sian.hmph... was trying to find the nortth star ... but today's star strength is super weak..
hahz..
hmph.. ok... brian, pamela and darren found out my weakness... then they keep bullying me...
haix...
at the mrt also..
nearly banged into pple..
hahz.. so paiseh can???
then cos i scared... so screamed..
ahzh.. (=
then pple looked...
oops...
but yea... today's really a relaxed day fer me..(=
mm... looking forward to tmr...
cos jiang ming staying my house over the weekends...
better start keeping my stuffs..
ahzh (=
whee!!!!!!!
pearly's a happy gal today... (=
cos she replenished her sleep in skol and home..heex...
(=

yea... talked to you awhile..
hazh... you really listen to me lei... cos i scared miss my bus...
so yea...
dunno wad time you will stay until ... but thanks for being able to stay up today..(=
missing you..
your fault lor... =(

today was odac trial.. hahz..
mm... not veyr good on overall....
as in enthusiasm..
mm... ok la...
i was in charge of endurence with chit ye..
hahz.. (=
he is damn soft to damn...
ahzh..(= so i always play the devil role..
hahahz..
(=
mm....ok la... some prominant ple has left a deep impression on me..
my fav junior in my heart not in pjc le...
haix..
ahzh... that person's the only j1 junior whom i remmeber by the nick name.
ahzh.. (=
ok..
life's happy today....
he promised me and he did it..
hahz..
he's also concern abt my cca and wad i do..
ahzh..
mm.. i think i injure myself..
hazh...
thanks boy... for being so concern to me... luv ya

mm... today's jiang ming's first official lesson wiht us..
hazh.. and its kidna suay cos its a super long day for her..(=
ahzh..
mm... but we all managed to pull thru...
and first time i dint sleep in any tut(=
whee!!!!!!!!!
though i nearly feel asleep for maths..
hazh..
got back some results..
mm...
under performed...
but yea..
GSC- E
GP-S
chem- E
sigh...
all E & S???
where's my A and B???
haix..
my chem deproved...
gp need 1 mark to get E. GSC need 2 marks to get D?
haix...
but i improved for GSC?
in terms of compre..
hahz...
mm... thinking of playing a song for them on thurs..
but i scared i cannot play by next week..
haix..
howhowhow???
this song is really very veyr meaningful..
heard b4" that's wad friends are for" ???
its a nice piece...
mm.. but i play rather slowly lei..
haix...
maybe shall ask lao po for advice..
hahz..
lao po... like the gift ma???
hazh... finally saw it
dun you find that we're a perfect couple? hazh
based on wads written..
hazh... i gila gila liao.
ahzh..
anyway.. pe.. ran 8 rounds today...
somehow my face was super dammmmmmn hot... not face sorri but cheeks..
damn damn damn hot..
hazh..
and yea..
my tummy was kinda pain..
so on my last round.. i really ran with my might... not my fastest though to the finishing line... then chionged up to the toilet..
ahzh.. (=
sorry mr ang... couldnt tell you in time..(=
heex..
omg!!!!! jiang ming has super good stamina..
she ran all 8 rounds w/o stopping and maintained at the same pace thru out..
like wad daddy said... she's an all rounder..
ahzh(=
ok... i'm rearranging a piece now... modifying it (=
hopefully after modification, it will be easier and sounds ok???
hahz.. first time i'm doing it.. (=
i cant do rearrangment by adding varification..
sad to say..(=
but yea. i can compose my own tune ... whee!!!
but cant write them down???
sad hor..
wad kinda g8 8 student is this lor..
ahzhh(=

tmr was really fun and exciting.,..
hahz.. in the mornign when i told mr yap i had to leave at 830..
he got a shocked to find out i'm inovlved in the scholars thingy..
ahzh.. (= anywya...
my buddy is called jiang ming..
she's a super cute cute gal..
pretty too
ahzh.. (= mm...
ok.. basically i was afriad i couldnt communicate well with her..
hahz.. cos they say my chinese soudns weird
but jiang ming assured me that i sounded ok..
(=
i'm so glad..
she's a super nice gal..
ok.. i had fun taking videos today..
hazh.. (=
hmph... morning we played wacko wiht them...
ahzh.. had a hard time remembering all their names..
(=
then cos many of us dunno hteir name...
so we just huh here huh there... but on overall was veyr veyr fun... (=
ok..
whee..
ok... after "oreitnation", we brought them around skol... then 11am...
skol bell rang..
and skol's over..(=whee... but we had lessons at 1130.. maths.
hahz.. mm... maths ct was damn damn damn damn damn X 1000000 times bad..
ahzh.. my class dint do well..
only 1 person got above 55 marks..
and the rest all below. haix...
ok... anywya... after that brought jiang ming to buy bubble tea..
heex..
(=
she brought strawberry ice blended..
wahh... thankfully she bought something to eat..
hazhaz..
ok... we dint eat lunch..
hazh.. (=
mm... ok.. then went to clark quay to meet jo, tiff and jo's buddy.
then we figured our way to the white bridge after much asking around..
ahzh(=
so malu can.. s'poreans bringing china students yet we cant find our location.. ok.. then meet kel, mars, siew and kun tat..
then we walked towards mind's cafe..
ahzh... had a lot of fun... esp during the forfeit..
(=
i filmed them all down..
but i wonder hwo to transfer to com.
hazh.. (=
there was this group of 4s there...
then one of the forfeit was to perform for the pple..
kuntat zhong that..
(=
funny..
marcus had to call ahlee to say some mushy stuffs..
then jo also had to say something which made her laugh alot alot..
jo's buddy had to do one legged hop.
and kun tat had 2 forfeit.. 1 is to perform for the gp of 4s.
the other is to do fun dance at the door of mind's cafe..
so for fun dance... me siew tiff jo and kuntat did... we accompanied him..
at the same time let the 2 buddys see our skol's fun dance.. (=
really veyr veyr fun.. (=

jie kor said if i wan it to work out, i gotta try really hard.
assurance is the word right now?
i really wan everyhting to work out well..
but am i really able ot prove??
am i really able to do it??
i'm lacking it le... can only cry by my bedside everynight.
missing sooo much..
but wad can i do? hardly see him online le...
haix..
will it jus fly and poof like that???
dearie... dn yea?


kimi ga watashi no daijina no hito

mm... am i just a foolish one that doesnt know if my friends are cheating and lying to me until when i find out its just too late???
mm... friends... you guys should knwo i hate pple who lie...
i never forgive pple who lie or accuse me. betrayed me too!!!
if you all dunno... i really hate all these pple..
not becos of anyhting but cos of my childhood memories..
in my life... i can never stand those who lied , backstabed, betrayed, accused or even those slap me..
i did mention b4 i have a veyr bad childhood? or rather tong nian hui yi..
and this is why i'm not really that close to my family members... including some extended..
and which is why i'm so attached to my friends..
marcus knew b4 wad makes me really happy..
hmph..
i just found out 2 things today...
over the same person i supposed involving a 3rd person too..
mm.... i dunno wad that 3rd person's up to...
haix...
but oh wells... maybe my friendship with this person is detoriating fast???
wonder why that person must lie to me???
ok... not lie... but not speak de truth?
in this world there's not such thing as you gain everything...
you gain something yet will also lose some..
i know cos i've definetely many of such encounters..
mm... nvm.. i'm just emo-ing..
had a long talk wiht daddy...
mm... he liek the same church song as me!!!!
hazh... and thanks daddy!!! for your compliment..
ahzh. maybe next time we should have a duet..
hmm... but are you speaking da truth??? hazh..
cos peggy always shun me when i start singing..
hahz... like i sing like ghost like that,..
hazh... you na me cha ma???
hahz... (=
mm... i was sad.... upset and angry...
but no one knows... daddy also dint..
but after talking to dee... i feel muchh better..
(=


everyone has their sad story..
i've mine, you???
are yours as bad as mine?
think about it..
i've nothing much left except for friends..
are you gonna try your tricks to get them to stand by you?
i'm sure friends who are really true to me will always stand by me...
no matter how jiang we got, no matter how much we dun talk each other now..
or even best those who are always wiht me, by me. those who never look down on me..
(=

friends you make me happy
bring sunshine to my life
the light of hope you always are
standing by me near and far
lending me your shoulder
when i need ot cry
you're part of my life friends
forever in my heart..

this song above really portrays my feelings towards all my friends, true ones i mean..
so if you know you're not true to me... just shooo... cos i can still live w/o.
who cares if you're always with me or not... who cares if we were once close or not..
i've gotten used to friends who come and go..
ultimately... i might become a loner like i used to..
those who befriended me then were after my money... after my brains..
hahz... (=
you guys dunno the true me..
how dull i am tryign to bring colours into my life..
life just sucked so much with you man!!!
yea you... you knwo who you are...

i've made a dream... a dream in a land of only 2 of us..
will spare the details...
but somehow.. i dint wanna wake up in that dreamy land..
however... when i'm back into reality...
things seem to be otherwise...
why????
really hate to say it...
i think i'm being overly sensitive..
ahzh.. (=
ciao baby.... i should be even more understanding huh?
i will de...
i am right??? always to you??? hahz..
maybe i'm just thinking too much...
anticipating things too much...
hahz... (=
i'll believe you and wad you sms me (=
cheer boy... jia you too!!!! remember i'm supposrting you all the way...
aitai to aishiteru

wahh... ah jiong so shuang kuai... just say i waan borrow his video cam for 2 weeks... tthen he just said ok ask me when i wan..
whee!!!!
so cool.... i've such nice uncle... heex... now i can do my video peacefully... without having to fret no video cam.. (=
whee!!! ok... peeps.. i'm sooooo looking forward to tmr..
TOMORROW WILL BE A DAMN GOOD DAY
why, you may ask?
1st
skol ends at 11am...
heard from the tchr that we end at 11am due to the good A level results..
hahz.. htis reminds me of times in sngs when we did well our year with good O level results, good sports achievements and good SYF achievements, thus we gave our juniors 3 days of holiday!!! (=

2nd.
my buddy's coming
its the skol's exchange programme for the students..
and i'm involved... so tmr i will be released at 830am from class...
whee!!!!!

3rd.
tmr we're gonna go mind's cafe!!!!
whee.... kakias and i gonna go have fun!!!!!
plus me and jo's buddy,
there will be 11!!!!!
hopefully you guys willl reply me asap!!!!
esp kel lor...
hahz...
ying, marcus, jolene, tiffant, kuntat, edwin, kelv, siew ting, me and 2 china gals.
maybe peggy coming too!!!!
whee!!!!! (=
i'm sooooo looking forward to it..

ok... so many things happening tmr... of course it will be a good day yea?
ahzh.. mm... ok... i'm currently packing my room... cos fri my buddy's staying at my house..
so interesting!!!!!
maybe i should have some gathering at my house... ask my friends ton over???
sounds interesting yea?
hahz... later kena whack by mama..
ahzh... (=
ok la...
thinking of wai can give my buddy...
wanan make somehting for her..
heex... ying knows i love to make stuffs..
esp puzzle yea???
but i cant make a puzzle for her..
maybe shall make her somehting which i used for my business last time.. (=
whee!!!! hopefully she will like it.. (=

wodner if mum's gonna bring me out tonight for dinner??? or will she just sleep till tmr..
ahzh.. (= hmph.. gonna go ah jiong's house tonight to collect the video cam fromhim..
hopefully i can see ben.. see his botak look..
ahzh... (= cos he dun wanna let me see him... hahz...
i'll sure make you take neos with me de.. (=
maybe we can ask jude and fredrick out..
let all hte botak guys laugh at each other..
ahzh... (=
then me and hannah jie will see them laugh..
hazh... (= go iceskating of course... our usual hangout... besides pooling..
whee jie... arent you looking forward to that day where we can reminise the past and enjoy each other's company like b4 again??? (=

oh.... i just realised that i've blogged for 29months...
horray!!! (=
1 more month to 30.
these many months accompanied my happiness and saddness..
but yea... to refrain from spams due to over sad stuffs or over some pple, i did not blog much in here but in my other.. (=
whee!!! bloggie... happy 29months bdae!!! (=
(=

i'm home!!!
actually came bacjk at 6 plus.
but then went ot play badminto with peggy..
hahz(=
cool..
she said her bro always say play wiht her not fun..
but i like playing wiht her..
cos both of us got win and lose..
(= ahzh.. anwyay..
just bathed...
feel so refreshed..
hahz(=
whee!!!!
its a long day.. but wonderfully spent..
at least i made 3 new friend..
alan, winnie, and i forgot the other name.. oops..
(=
they're all from YFC.
YFC= youth for christ..
nto KFC ah..
hahz(=
yea... so cool ...
and yea... most of YFC thingy is organise for youths?? and its volunteerism..
so yea.. i'm sooooo interested..
so winnie emailed me the details..
i'm interested in alot..
but i cant spent to much time on it now..
cos of As...
yup... but i'll consider a few... alr got a few in mind.. (= whee!!!
thanks winnie..
mm... ok... this afternoon went to saint andrew cath... for this ester musical.. (=
somehow... it touched me..
kinda made me feel guily for not going abck church..
but somehow... i dunno how to say..
i love shalom, chc and calvary alot..
but i dunno whcih to go back too..
maybe not chc.. cos its too rock..
mm... anw... the musical was really damn good..
(= i dint knwo it was open to public..
ahzh... mm... at there.. we saw jason and xuan hui..
ahzh.. so funny..
and then the funniest thing happened..
winnie asked if me and marcus are tgt..
hazh.. greatest joke man...
but she's not the only who asked... hazh... cos me and daddy too close le ah???
hahz.. too bad lor.. (= we're close ma.. hazhh..
but!!! no feelings for each other... muahahz..
our taste are too good le... so we're too good for each other..
muahahz..
crap sia..
mm... then we went to thai express to eat..
wah.. there... memories... thankfully we never sit at the same old place.. hahz..
mm... me and daddy drank their thai ice tea...
it tastes liek teh bing plus coconut and some dunno wad leaves..
hazh..
veyr veyr unique..
then uncle and the other friend ate mango rice..
while winnie order some nice tasting spring rolls..
ahzh..
cool..
ok.. then after that..
daddy gotta leave to give tuition..
so we all zao home le..
i went to somerset to take bus..
today orchard got some youth thingy at youth park..
damn happening..
(=
heex..
this includes raping, breakdancing and street hiphop.
cool man... i wish i could stay longer..
but it feels weird..
ahzh..
okkkk... at the youth park, i saw some youngsters doing the graffiti art..
the way they spray was nice... effect was cool...
(=
this particular guy was spraying some cartoon/ yet look like human's face..
it was dammmnnnn nice... you guys should go there look one day..
saw him spraying colours on for one of the guy's hat..
wah... i'm damn impressed..
really too good to be true man..
should have taken pics..
ahzh..
ok.. after that i took a bus home... then met peggy for badminton le..
from then you guys know wad happen le hor.. (=
and here i am now.. online...
(= whee!!!! i love toda sooooo much... wonder tmr got wad activities...
ahzh... wanna go kayaking lei.... but who knows how to kayak.. and wanna kayak??
ahzh..

ok. i'm kinda bored.
going out in a while's time.. but now i dun feel like going out le.. cos he's online.
argh!!!
ok... since i told daddy le... think better go ba.. if not later we quarrel again.
hahz..
must wear nicenice sia.. dunno wa dto wear man..
due to some circumstances, i cant wear halter.
haix. sigh sigh..
wad to wear..
hate to think of all these lei..
haix...
ok going out le..
shall blog tonight ba
ciao...

CIAO MY BELLA!! (=

missing you much much.
but i dunno how to describe?
you know ma??
am i normal??

mm.... woke up super late today... sigh.. rushed all the way to skol jsut for meeting.
ok, i sure be guai and write as daddy wan me to. (= be glad yea? cos i'm not really used to writing in this manner. okay, like i said woke up super late. rushed myself all the way to skol just to know i'm in charge of logistics this induction camp, or mayeb just trials? hahz. (= wonder wad does the logistics pple supposed to do. (= then rot in skol, ate my lunch before going for another meeting. this meeting is regarding the china experitial programme de. so yea. the venue was at MPR5. but i dint know where MPR5 was. initially walked all the way to MPR3, thinking that MPR5's at the grandstand. who knows it wasnt. so i went to odac room to ask eve. and she told me MPR5's above the tchr's staff room.. so i kinda rushed there. and found out that the one i thought was MPR5 is actually MPR4. argh!!! ok... saw the choir pple outside this place. then saw MPR5. thought those choir pple was involved.. hazh. saw the schedule, looks interesting!!! (=
and yea... peep!!! mon we're gonna have half day off due to the good results we received frm our seniors. so we'll dismiss @11am on mon!!!!!! i'm sooooo happy... means we will go mind's cafe that day instead.. but i got a prob now. that is that voucher is only entitled to 10 people. but we seem to ahve more than 11 le.. haix.. how?

omg... you guys should try this man...
it really work... (=
hazh... its just amazing how i can work out sooooo well..
hahz..
crush calculator

i'm feeling so bored now..
sian.... all my kakiaz all mugging for physics... except me and kelv..
but ya... kel and i not that close le... so we never go out..
=(
mm... anywya...
anyway... i just realised pple can be so wu liao to spam other blogs even when those pple are making observations and yea...
those who dunno them really hor... just talking a loathe of crap lei..
haix..
=(
aiya... also dunno..
i've done my hw for the day to check the prices.. and map..
wahhh.... ex ex ex...
wad else can i say besides that???

did work to collate the time available from mon- thurs..
most prob mon or thurs ba...
where the latest we end is 5pm.
mind's cafe closes at 11pm.. (=
so should be ok yea?
kakias... tell your mama dun cook k..
in case you dunno who you are.. i shall list your names..
you better be honoured ah.. (=
there goes:
-jie ying
-marcus
-edwin
-siew ting
-kun tat
- tiffany
-jolene
- my china gal
-jolene's china gal
-myself

10 pple...if you all see this... respond by telling me which day (mon/thur) you're ok k...
then we'll final confirm it.. (=
whee!!!!
cant wait for this outing tgt... (=oh.... in case you guys dunno...
i shall into..
the above 7 pple, excluding the 2 china gals and myself... are my study kakias... (=
oh... not forgetting our dearest uncle= kelvin
he's supposed to be my korkor... but dunno why when i know him.. i already called him uncle...
now even marcus(his daddy, our daddy) calls him uncle... hahz....
i'm really please to knwo them...
and to be super close with them..
cos the amazing thing abt this clique is that we all come from diff classes..
(= its really amazing how we become friends thru friends..
adn became so close..
this feeling of warmth from within is much happier than being with my classmates..
not saying that my dear lao po is not good..
but she's part of us too!!!
just that she's not that close to this gp?
but!!!
i'm glad to be in S06...
cos thats where i know her, joyce, chie hong, walter, steffi, chu.. and the many other pple who are relatively close ot me..
(=
argh...
still..
i prefer my dong li jiao ta che clique..
its expanding!!! (=
but we're a happy family..
(=
having great friends.. is something which brought joy ot me..
marcus say that rewarding himself with somehting everyweek is something which make him happy..
for me... being with my good friends... everyday of frequently is wad brings me happiness..
cos basically i'm not a veyr happy gal.. (=
its all these good friends of mine that brings joy to me.. and allow me to know wad being happy is all about
(=
but if you were to ask me, when was my happiest years..
i will still say pri 6,,
its a year free of burdens, stressfree for me..
no bgrs no friendship probs..
i get along well with all my classmates..
all recognised me for my abilities and wa di can do for my class..
(=
though not many of us still keep in touch..
hving the thoughts of them is enough to make me happy..
cos i once spent an enjoyable time in that class..
when we all had our crushes on our seniors..
and wanna be like that... so outstanding..
becoming a leader in our sec skol in everyway we can.
(=
of course... i've followed my seniors' footstep of becoming a student leader in sec skol...
no post no anything. but tchrs recognised me for my ability to lead..
whcih was why i could be involved in pri5 and sec 1 orientation when i was in upper sec..
though i couldnt do it when i was in sec 3 due the china trip..
(=
sngs really gave me alot alot of opp to excel and shine..
but in pjc..
i just feel restricted... but finally my chance to shine a little is here..the china experitial programme..
really wanna thank god..
wanna be given more opps..
in pjc... to shine.. first we gotta prove academically..
its somehting i most likely wun be able to do so..
cos i'm not doing so well... haix..
i just wish i'm smart enough, so that i can be offered more chances..
=(
as for cca... i feel that my fellow mates have more responsibility than me...
more role to play in than me..
maybe i'm not a good leader..
at least i'm a good follower???
hopefully la..
oh man...
long-winded entry...
wad to do??? i'm just feeling super super super bored

i'm proud to announce..
pearly is free from now... (=
for a couple of days..
(= heexx...
after that one week of slacked moments... i've finally gotten my pace back..
back on track..
am glad that i did study hard except for maths..
(=
so i know roughly where i stand for each sub le..
maths...
die la..
somehow... wad i saw this morning.. all came out..
but!!!! i forgotten how to do..
sigh... so there goes maths..
mm... we shall see..
my expected grade based on wad i've done...
fail 2 h2..
we shall see if i'm correct k..
econs-U
maths-U near to S?
chem-D/C
gp-S-D
gsc-S-E
chinese- B
quite lousy hor...
sigh... probably i'll be asked to retain?
but i tried my best and i know i got study..
but haix... ya lor...
ok... anyway..
now that i'm free..
i've planned many things le..

things to achieve:
1) plan the mind's cafe thingy.. gotta settle this by next week.. if not it'll be wasted..
2)plan the china's gals thingy.
3)pack my room by thisweek
4check the hotel prices for june.
5do chem and econ hw

wahhh... so many things to do... sian..
mm.. ok la... shant procastinate...
after all... most of them is nice and ought to be happy to do de.. (=
whee!!!!

whee!! long time never write to you le.(=
missing you still.
thinking of me also ma?
you were as understanding as you said i was. (=
thanks.

taken aback...
by many news..
mm... 1st... saw erika..
wahhh... she changed!!!! (=
and with her was chui's ex... wahhh..;. are they tgt???
2nd.. margie is in aussie le..
wahhh... why ah???
so many pple go aussie even though they got promoted???
haix..
mm..
ok... "mummy" dun wanna lend me his papers... haix..
since when did he change so much?
always thought he's by me even though lg left..
=(
mm... but glad other friends from other skols lending me..
(=
bestie, didi, xinlei, (=
hazh... mm..
somehow i dun feel comfortable talking to bestie le..
maybe cos he rather spend the time wiht his gf ba..
somehow... i envied him... but i should be glad... cos i started with the first move..
mm... many wun understand wadi'm talking abt..
but those who does.. you'll understand ba..
(=
i still believe i'm one who will give up anyhting for friend's happiness.. (=
so ya.. (=
bestie's a gd prove... hazh shhhhhh... better not say too much.. (=

mm... chinese was ok today..
kinda expected wad to appear..
hazh... similar..
hazh..
hmph..ok ... went with daddy for lunch..
ahhz... (= the food we both first time eat..
ahzh.. anw.. went home then go out to wld lib..
wahh... first time i study until sian..
dint study in fact..
did ajc's paper... a few ques and i fell asleep..
hahz..
(=
tmr'a paper just pia liao... yay!!! last paper... then i can go prepare for my china thingy le...
and can start planning for malaysia trip... whee!!!
i'm so glad... and looking forward!!!!!

left 2 papers..
phew..
all the terrible ones have passed...
hahz..
hmph... i slogged in mcuh of my time for them..
but yea... i supposed i wun do well for econs..
based on the fact that i dint finsih..
mm... ok... first time during my exams. i have the time to sleep in the afternoon..
(=
slept till 5.. then went with mum to people's park for dinner..
then i go wheellock to study with de..
thanks gal... and help me thank your mum too!!!
for the lift.. (=
hazh..
constructive..
read most of the chaps... except for the last one...
(=
hahz... i got a free teh bing..
hazh whee!!!!!1 thats my reward from de..
and i've rewarded myself with that book i'm looking for!!!
whee!!!!

ok... today nearly break down in skol..
sigh... thankfully i dint..
i got a shocked instead when i saw the paper..
gotta thank zz for giving me his paper last time
hazh.. kinda similar.. (=
phew..
hmph..
wanna thank him too... cos he knew i was veyr scared...
but his sms calmed me down.. even though i only received his sms after my paper..
never fails to help me when i need him around..
thanks...
just wanna do something for you... but i'm not sure wad i can do to help you in your academic..
sigh..
hmph...
ok... i'm kinda sad..
to hear from peggy that jo's grandma= mrs tan's mum passed away last week..
sigh...
he's my ex... i treated her as my grandma too..
but why is it that i know this news so late and not from him???
but thru someone from skol???
sigh... jo... haix... hope you arent sad le... though i'm a week late..
i know nothin i say will ever help right???
so no point..
mm... one more paper down..
left the terrible econs, chinese and math..
after tmr... i'm totally free!!!
whee... cos i dun have to worry much abt my chinese and maths le.. heex!!!!!! (=

mm.... today quite sian.. esp in the morning..
left house at 7 plus just to reach bv at 850am..
then when i reach je.. jj called to say tuition change to 10 am..
wah... sian 1/2. so met karen at clementi for breakfast... wahh... she nice man..
see me eat..
hazh.. (=
thought jj coming.. in the end he say he not coming for breakfast..
haix..
okok... met him at bv..
slept in class today..
we all super tired..
cos yest night tuition then thsi morning tuition again.
ahzh..
ok...
then caused too tired le..
so couldnt go teach cedric..
so cancelled tuition..
tmr gotta go teach him..
(=
hmm... ok... then go rp to meet marcus and siew..
was damn tired..
but pulled myself up..
until siew went for chc and not long later kel came..
then i studied until 625... bui tahan liao... slept until 645..
(=
ok la... i felt as if i slept for hours.. (=
so had the energy to contiue studying chem..
did 3 chaps at one go... simultaneously..
(=
then after i woke up...
did the chem mock..
wahhh..
so tough lor..
i haven even finish..
(=
hahz..
oh wells...
at least now i understnad better after studying my inorganic chem,.. (=
whee!!!!
day's well spent i supposed..
at least i knwo i've got the spirit to stduy le...
though a little late..
but its ok..
(=
hmph..
wanted to take neos with daddy just now..after we eat dinner..
but... =( the aunty say close le...
sigh... just love taking neos with daddy..
hazh.. (=
he loves taking wiht me too!!! cos we both zi-lian king and queen... ahzh..
we took quite a number of pics at rp today..
but all in his fone..
hazh... (=
hazh
he kena sun burnt....
bu mei le!!! hazh...

nice day spent..
worked hard... but i still think of you..

Ben go army le..
Sigh… dunno for how long no one to play with..
Cannot play pool.. cannot train on pool too..
Haix..
Hmph… ok … just came home from econs tuition not long ago..
Was at bishan lor..
So far right??? Sianx diao lor..
Thankfully simon send us to bukit batok mrt..
(=
at least we dun have to travel the far journey..
heex…
thanks..
heex… hmm… watching anime now… but internet got some prob… sigh… dunno wad happened to it..
sigh…
I guess I shouldn’t procastinate le…. Left 2 days… sigh…
Slap me pls..
haix

am i foolish?
why i got coaxed so easily???
sigh... just one sentence... and i'll be on cloud nine... sighhhhh

mm... ok.. woke up late..
only to find out that i haven submitted my DRQ to simon..
so yea... here i am typing..
terok lei..
ahz..
i supposed i lef tone ques undone ba..
gonna send him soon..
aghhhhh
sigh..
mm..
ok...
somehow i've got a bit of the studying force again..
hazh(=
thanks to someone.. i'm affected by that persson's mood lor..
hahz..
(=
but nevertheless... we helped each other jia you!!!
heex.. whee!!!!
mm.. ok... i'm feeling tired and sleepy..
but i cant sleep now..
cos got alot of work left undone..
and mon's test le..
sighhhhhhhh
i need miracle..
haix..
god, pls guide me thru this.
guide me thru the path you planned for me.

actually indirectly, someone else has affected me alot alot..
somehow.. maybe my emotions seem to care alot abt him..
ahzh...
eh... i seriously think i dun live for myself only..
my life revolves around alot of pple who mean alot alot to me..
maybe cos i dun have a good childhood life?
life was quite dull for me???
god made plans and allow them to be part of my life..
and brighten it up with colours..
(=
the gal you see now..
is emotional.
scared to lose any of her super good friends..
afraid to fall for a guy she really likes..
cos she knew some outcome..
rememebr she has the psychic powers of thinking wad other's thinking at times..
has the power to even control the card during cny..
(=
cos she knew, she's afraid..
rejections, break ups, or even guys esp who treats her super good when she hardly know them..
hahz..

ok... stop hte crap..
now shooo.... back to skol life..
life's dull..
but i'm just glad to have them..
i mentioned delia gave me that prezzie right???
really love it..
but i supposed a thank you will neve rbe enough..
(=
i must really think of wad i can give her in return..
maybe show her my drawings..
something which no one saw except for me sec skol tchrs and mum..
(=
hmm....
oh wells..
i'm glad to have him by my side too... though we dun see each other that often..
but his words and concern really encourages me and push me on..
mmmmmmmm....
of course my daddy la..
hahz..
dun say i only call " dearie" but never call you ah..
i got lor..
hazh... and oh wells...
we both must have felt that super sadness and moodless that time..
so sorry..
first time i ever got so fed up with you and also first time i ever feel sooooo sad after quarrelling wiht you..
but i'm really glad we're kinda the same in that aspect...
forget after a while..
(=
so i'm still glad you're still my closest and dearest daddy!!!
imagine me without you... to be there to "slap" me and crap all the nonsensical stuffs... (=
thanks daddy...

to him... my blog song is specially for you... you know chinese right??? hazh...
specially dedicated to you " zhuan shu tian shi"

eveyr min, every sec.
you steal my heart away!!!

hahz... okok... random random.
ok... so glad ot see delia in skol!!!
my lover!!!!
caio!!!
azh... she got me this thing damn cute!!!
when i opened it just a while ago..
i nearly cried..
i'm sooooo glad lover thought of me at cambodia..
ahzh..
drew somehting for her on my foolscap just now..
she said i can draw well..
hazh(=
thanks gal.. (=
i'm sooooo happy..
but its time to get back on track to mug hard!!!
lotsa time had been wasted...

hmph... just came back from rp..
ahzh...
today totally own.
studied alone at one-stop centre.
while marcus and kel at lib there..
hahz..
we ok liao..
hahz.. (=
so childish hor..
today dun friend you but tmr you're my good friend again.
hahz.
ok... 5 plus they all shift to one stop centre..
while kun tat and siew joined us too..
hazh.. (=
mm.... ok... i should say i'm quite well prepared for maths le.... besides vectors and abit on complex..
haven revise those 3 chaps.
sigh...
chem!!! dying..
started earlier than others... but cant complete cos i slacked too much..
tmr wun be studying much too... cos got training..
sighhhhhhh
i need 48hrs
haix...

see my idol!!! omg!!!
i'm soooo in love with him can???
ahhz...
see his pouting face really makes me wanna laugh..
mm..
ok... kinda quarelled wiht marcus today..
pissed la..
thats all i could say..
gave up going to mind's cafe..
cosi cant enjoy myself if i'm angry..
hmph..
stomped myself away of rp to wld lib..
sad case la..
but yea..
experience of studying alone for 2 hrs..
i have alot i wanna say..
all fustrations... but forget since i'm ok now... (=
heex..
omg!!!!
i'm so glad he was there for me...
thanks..
thanks ying too
hmph.... when i was angry... i just stared at my fone..
see his pouting look... i smiled again..
so sha right???
just by staring at my idol's face, i'm happy!!! (=

專屬天使 - TANK
我不會怪你　對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽　而妳纖細善良
怎能讓妳為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌　厚厚的溫暖　
妳總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想　透過妳的眼光　
我才看見它原來在前方

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使　
唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上　
擁有一個專屬天使　
我哪裡還需要別的願望

小小的手掌　大大的力量　
我一定也會像妳一樣飛翔
妳想去的地方　就是我的方向　
有我保護笑容儘管燦爛

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使
唯我能獨佔沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使　
我哪裡還需要別的願望

要不是妳出現　我一定還在沉睡　
絕望的以為　生命只有黑夜

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使　
唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望

wah..
sei bei sian...
i think got 4 days never studying intensively le..
and now.. i slacken off soooo much..
argh!!!!!
today totally no mood..
dint win for competition too..
sigh.... =(

yay!!!! i'm home..
had bbq!!!
wahlau.. i bui song one small boy la..
not even sec 4 but got black nails and smoke...
eeeeee...
somemore act so ah beng..
in front of my cousins..
lucky my cousin not bothered... if not he die sia..
mm..
supposed to go out play wiht them...
but dunno why got cancelled..
sian..
but tis ok la..
(=
tmr got competition..
sigh... (=

hmm... ok... i'm at ben's hosue blogging again..
heex..
staying till tonight..
hahz... got bbq..
hazh(=
sorry marucs.... ps you for chc again.
hahz... (=
i seemt o be always doing that hor..
will make up to you next time k??
heex..
anw..
yest was meiling darling's bdae!!!
gosh..
i totally forgot....!!!! =(
sorry dear!!!
must make it up to you..
sigh..
hmph...
now i must worry abt when oyq's bdae!!!
and kenneth's too!!!
our 4 flower 1 shit gang..
heex..
hmph..
okok...
stressing over my common test..
got good news yet a bad one too

1st..
i got a CP for IRP test..
CP=clear pass!!!
means next time no need to go for the remedial le..
unless requested..
yay!!!!

2nd..
i might be given the chance to retake my chinese..
but!!!!!
it all depends on my common test..
sigh..
so this test is dammit impt to me..
sigh..
stressed..
haix...
anw... watched finish hua yang shao nian shao nu..
hahz..
爱情的力量是多么的伟大啊！
heex.... (=
wanna be like ella!!!hahz.. (=
be the source that gives him strength..
and fulfil wad was once impossible ot her.. (=
ganbatte reiko chan!!! (=

2nd day of common test..
hmph
he asked how my paper was..
cant tell him the truth..
but it was a killer to me as usual..
but somehow i had more confidence than b4..
hmph..
why ah???
why must he place such an impt role in my life???
hearing that he's troubled, i really feel sad..
just wanna be there for him..
but i cant..
somehow maybe wad i said may not be effective in consoling others ba...
haix..
hopefully he will be himself again..
wanna see his smile and laughter,,
hmph..
ok... dint study again.
ps study group..
esp ying..
cos is i ask you go study de..
sorry..
watched shao nian shao nu..
tooo ru shen le ba..
(=
heex... OMG!!!!
that QUAN is so shuai!!!
i like to imagine things hor..
thus naturally think if i'm in ella's shoes..
wahhhh....
i supposed i wun have such a courage to do such a thing..
but who knows..
who knows if that happens on me... i will be like her???
hahz..
ok... i gila le... (=
ciao.... blogging at ben's house,,,
ahzh... OMG!!! can he faster play finish his CO???
i wanna go home lei!!! =(((

missing you much.

dint study today...
not becos i know my work well... but i just cant bring myself to study.. (=
hph... ok... keep checking my fone every hour..
haix...
just wanting to see if that person got sms..
sigh.... reply that stop halfway de..
sigh...
why i pin so much ah??

just came home..
hazh... went to orchard to study with daddy
wahhh.. his fone so kuku la..
ahzh.. (=
can throw away le..
cannot hear him.. neither can he talk thru it..
hazh.. (=
hmph... ok... before meeting him..
went to lot one to meet ben to play pool..
wahlau...
skills deprove...
kena hit so many times cos i keep missing the ball.. =(
sian... ok la... but my slicing wasnt so bad afterall..
at least within 5 trys, i get to slice the ball into hte poket on my 2nd try..
whee!!!!
so mean lor...
out of 4 games... i neva won any..
sigh...
lousy me
ok... back to studies.
saw germ and her ahem i think...
saw anthea too!!!
(=
hmph... ok. .then we go to the building beside orchard hotel to eat..
then see the night life of orchard..
wah... dint know thos enight life is like that..
O.o

missing can really drive someone mad
sigh...

mm... took pe test today,..
wahlau... passed... but so kuku la..
ahzh..
anwyay..
mr kum dint come so a relief tchr took over..
wah...
dunno why the class kept laughing..
ubt oh wells..
he teach the method damn short lei..
ahzh(=
hahz...
he's quite shuai!!! (=
but I DUN LIKE!!!
muahahz...
wad to do when i'm SUCH A FAITHFUL gal.
(=
hmph.. ok... LS la..
sian... played badminton wiht peggy and her bro..
wahhh... play until 810pm..
then tummy cmi..
so rushed home..
sigh... sad sad...
=(
ok.... not feeling well... but i think i shoudl force myself to study......
dun wanna relax a little bit..
kel.. thanks for reviving your blog hur??? you MIA damn long le...
hazh... faster reply me la....
you knwo i kpo de... hazh... (=
and MR... you still working sia??
pls concentrate in As lor...
haixxxx.... ciao

suddenly i felt the gush.. miss someone...
argh!!!
y arh???
omg!!!
tmr is chem spa la... sigh... cant rememebr everything..
haix..
missing.
haix...

sigh... dunno if her part of post was for me or whoever??
but yea...
i mentioned i cried when i got my results right?
mm.... i guessed for this issue ... i misunderstood her??
cos i saw her giving the diao look..
misunderstood..
haix..
actually hor..
ca someone tell me wad happened to me and her??
why are we sudenly like that like strangers??
seriously why??
i still treat her as a friend..
but somehow... we distanted from previous incident which i dunno wad happened..
haix..
shou xi de mo sheng ren?
haix..
was there a misunderstanding between us?
or is it cos of ahem ahem?
haix.. marcus asked if i still wanted to be friends with her..
of course la.. i never hated her nor was she to be blamed lor..
but it just happened..
excuses again right?
haix..
anw.. studied at wld lib again lor..
but today saw her..
said hi to her..
but we dint sit with each other..
instead i sat somewhere else...
cos need ot chop sits for kun tat, marcus and siew ting..
but i did attempted to talk ot her..
but sad to say... our convers is damn short..
ques & reply.
thats all..
sianx la.. aiya.. dun wanna talk abt it le..
studying mood..
dint do much today... so quite guilty...
=(

wheee!!!! i've got good news n nice news to say!!!
hahz..

#1.
i went down to driving skol to register the thingy!!!!
and i'm gonna take my FIRST basic theory test on the 2nd may!!!
ahzh...
its long long way more..
but cool.!!!! 1 step to touching the car officially!!
ahzh.. but my test time zai man!!!
8-9pm!!
ahzh... its self choose de..
dun ask why i choose so late for an obvious reason..
got skol and cca la..
cos i dunno next term wad time skol will end normally, except wed and fri..
so choose thsoe days to play safe!!
ahzh...
so cool.. ok.. i'm under private candidate de la..
so which means... i gotta get my private pract tchr soon..
gosh... must call daddy up le..
sianx..

#2
watched follow the law tonight....
945-1140pm.
but!!!!
cos i will not be able to catch the last bus... left cinema early..
haix...
dunno wads the ending..
ahzh..
mm.... watched with my deary daddy aka marcus!!!
hazhh.. ahhz. damn funny la..
we both got so excited that we were gonna watch movie tgt for the first time...
and the show damn lame la..
swop souls?
hahz.. okok...
daddy came lib only at 738pm???
then study until 9pm when lib closed..
then go buy tix and eat dinner..
wahhh.. i'm broke le...
super super broke..
sianx...

#3.
really wanna thank those who were there to comfort me yest..
i'm feeling better le...
at least i'm back to normal..
just that whenever i do things now...
i dun dare to confirm an answer...
scared i dun do well/ get wrong answers...
=(
apparently... i only got a pass for oral...
i supposed this was wad pulled me all the way down,..
cos pple who got merit still ogt a C. but i only got a pass and i got a C too!!!=(
oh wells.... means my written wasnt that bad...
sigh.. but still...
i'm sad... might have to waste the extra time i have..
sianx..

ok... said wad i wanna say!!!
studied 3 chaps of chem today..
hopefully tmr will getg better...
no more time to waste..
SAY NO TO TV AND COM SOON!!!!
hahz...
to those who couldnt get use to me being a mute for that day,..
rest assure yea??? my voice is back..
or rather coming back...
cos i wouldnt knwo if it will be gona again tmr.. (=
whee!!!! i'm still the talkative me...
cannot talk still got so much to talk abt..
heex.. i'm jus a chatterbox by nature..
hahz... and ya la...
as usual cant pronounce things properly..
so i said something that really sounds so wrong just now...
marcus just kept laughing lor..
sigh..
he said he's gonna tell leon..
gosh... its gonna start spreading..
haix..
ahzh.. took the last bus home..
and here i am blogging now..
miss the blog so much!!!!!
heex..
admiring my pass!!! hahz... hopefully i wun lost it..
muackz passie..
(=

much to say.
less time to express.
feel by the heart.

finally my connection's ok again...
waited sooo long
sigh... many days never blog...
many things to say.. but dunno where to start..
maybe i should just forget abt the past and blog abt today..
many things happened today..
sigh..
the feeling and confidence that i lost last year... has came back to haunt me..
once again... i lost it..
haix..
you guys know today we get back our MT results..
so yea lor... dint do well..
but seniors (05/06) has done PJC proud..
cos the results were damn good..
thus it impose a new level of stress to us..
haix..
ok..
anwayy... during assembly today..
skol invited saf drama club to perform acapella for us..
wahhh.... their singing is SUP!!!
the bipboxing too!!!! hahz..
omg!!! wanna learn it man!!! ahz..
ok.... odac time...
was study time..
until 7 pm..
sianx.... feel asleep for abt 10 min... haix...
ok... hte day's over....
i'm still sick..
LOST MY VOICE!!!
poor peggy...
had a hard time trying to figure wad i was saying..
sorry and thanks!!
dearie... dun cry le hor...
i cried, but dun have to cry wiht me..
but nevertheless.... thanks for being there for me..
htanks to delia, steffi, chu peng, wang xuan..
thanks a lot..
those whom i'm not exactly close are there for me... besides delia and peggy..
but those who knew i was super upset... dint even give a damn...
thanks again..
(=

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