hmm.... saw his post le right???
i was being nice to him by givign him the massage lor.. (=
hm... see him like that , i xin tong...
ahzh.. so decided to help him by massaging his neck.. with the famous hitting... (=
hmm... he wanna see wad i type... so i off teh monitor screen and continue typing... hopefully i dint typr wrongly...
heex...
hmm... ok... since his neck got prob... he cant see the screen...
so i can type in peace..... (=
hmm.... ya..i was pigging in my bed this morning until 3 pm...
azhh.... then decided to go see him since his neck and right arm injured...
(=
see i so nice lor... help you buy food some more.. (=
heex...
okok...
played maple at his house a while... helped him lvl... (=
then a while later his parent come home..
hazh..
found some similarities today...
his mum and sis are like me....
all blur blur de... (=
heex... veyr funny..
i'm glad we all can get along... (=

lolx.. this is the first time i'm appearing at this page.
mm.. wonder how i shld start..
haha nvm.. impromptu.
ha.. today can say is a disasterous day for mi...
start up with..
a stiff/sprained neck upon waking up.
lolx
how bad can it be...
veri BAD...
almost like paralysed like tat la.. cannot even turn my head.. but luckily.. she is there to 'help' mi..
well she did la... at least she is there to 'massage' my neck..
ha
y do i use inverted commas..
ha
coz... she finds it fun and entertaining to hit my neck... as a massage.. ha.. literally hitting without force..
ha.. but it wasnt tat painful... I THINK..
ha... it takes out to be rather helpful... lolx...
so its ok..
anyway... why would i mind.. ha.. she happy can le la... lolx
k la k la... i shall not say further.. if not she is gonna hit harder on my neck... buaizzz.


~tooty~ her bf..

dreams.... nice and fantasizing.. (=
hm.... mine was sweet, weird and funny..
after mapling for the past week...
i'm sorta hooked onto maple's red birthday present quest..
(=
hence even whne sleeping,,, i dreamt of monsters.
ok... my dreams goes like this..
2 nights ago...
i dreamt of myself in my mage attire. killing monsters...
then my whole family went to malaysia for a shopping spee..
after mum bought wad she wanted to buy..
i realised i forgot to buy stationary for exams...
so asked mum for permission to buy......
she told me i only got 10 min....
so rushed like hell.... but the queue was damn damn damn damn long..
like got 1000 plus pple queuing..
then i saw cedric in the queue..
so we tried cutting queue..
after we successfully got in and reached the cashier, my stationary all became weapons... and also screw driver...
upon leaving the shop, we starte dhitting monsters again..
haix..

ok... 2nd dream...
was a letter i received from jo..
hmm....
i dreamt that jo finally wrote me 2 letteers...
and it was passed thru my friend..
hmm.. one is the normal one..
then the other one..
when my friend told me he got another letter for me... i was thrilled... cos long time since i received from him..
(+
but that moment... my friend handed me a rice pot... when the message written on it..
but i'm really happy abt the contents of the pot..
as for the letter... i dint managed to read it in my dreams... hopefully one day i'll get it..
hmm...

i'm happy with my life now..
though we always quarrel.
but at tiems its sian..
but i'm happy
though at times i really miss jo alot.. (=
natural right???

tired,... really tired..
its getting nowhere..
getting more childish...
just wish a break at times..
pissed..
u know you get angry for stoopid reasons with i really cannot comprehand at times..
and each time you get angry, you keep silent... not thrashing things out..
and expects me to give you time..
yea. you have all the time in the word to keel cool.
but ever feel how i will feel at that time?
when you get angry i'm upset.... and then the more i think abt it, the more i get angry with you...
but then... when you cool down... i'm not..
ever wonder why this is always the case?
cos we arent even gonna try thrash things out..
i knwo you have me at heart...
but seriously... i'm pearly for a reason..
cos i wanna be who i am.... and not change a diff gal jsut cos i'm wiht you..
i'm independant and thats never gonna change...
when i say dun send me home... i seriously mean it...
but not allowing me to go home myself... i dun feel that respect of you allowing me to be me..
and you should know the reason why i dint wan you to send me home since i WAS deciding to study at pam's hosue till quite late..
i did say abt maple... i did say i wanna play maple... but i dint say when..
yea.. you said i need rest... true enough i needed... and i wun play till 4am...
but that doesnt mean that i'll start playign the moment i'm home right?
i'm not a maple freak like you guys...
talkgin abt maple the moment you guys meet...
you say i dominates maple more than you???
then think abt how i felt back then...
i wanted you to spend time talking to me and your other friends abt things besides maple and skol work... but its always maple...
at my house... i played maple, you said you felt alone... i wanted to spend time wiht you.... wanting to quit after i get the present..
when i dint get after a long time... i felt bad for wasting the time you spent time coming...
so i quit... i felt bad... that the time spent was lesser....
but think abt this... i have seen you almost the whole day... that whole day tgt wasnt enough to make up for the small loss of time???
i duno... i'm jsut loss and pissed and wadsoever..

"no man's worth your tears, the one who's worth your tear wun make you cry"
do you think you're worth my tears>???
i really hope so...
but each time you made me upset...
how many times have you made me cry???
seriously... though i only had 2 ex, none of them made me so miserable...
sad to say... i've had the happiest moments with you... but i've had the worse moments with you too...
i'm tired...
not that not happy...
i'm not angry le... but really tired...
if relationship is alwasy that smooth sailing... i'll be the first to thank god..
when its smooth... break-ups's fast..
when its not... it always seems to drag on and on... cos one person's always giving in..
maybe we shoudl think abt the cycles we always quarrelled on..
and its just minor issues...
wad abt majors??? are we gonna have dog and cat fight... with pam and darren as middle man???
i envy them for being able to put up with us... all the little nonsense..
i envy them for always trying to help us patch... and always giving us individual talking..
i envy them being able to solve all those ques by themsleves and us needing others to maintain the relatiosnhip..
a relationship is based on 2 factors and not 4..
i know i'm at fault too...
but you are too..
why cant we just thrash things out... and not need middlemans...
we cool at different timings... you htink its a good time to thrash after you cool???
me??? it doesnt mean by you cooling down means i must be cooled too..
forget it...
you're sad, and i'm tired...
prob we shall settle it only after mids..
but i dun wish the couple to be the middleman...
pam i know you will read it either today or tmr... or soon..
sigh

today's paper was omg!!!!!
1hr10 min for paper 1 and 2hr15min for paper 2..
hand and neck died...
hmph.. but i'm proud... first time i write so much...
and first time i feel as if i got something to crap about..
hmph... but i still dun think i will do well...
sigh... no confidence in myself...
ok... opened a new maple account again...
and ya... haven been playing since i started... but i still cant find the zest to cont playing..
it get more and more sian esp when no one plays with me...
but ya.... in there.... talked to afew strangers... those hi-bye kind..
(= and ya.... apparently i'm playing it now while waiting for dear to finish his paper..
cos 2-4pm and 730- 930 pm is where there's 2X exp...
so its like the best time to train my maple..
(= so funny..
remmeebr the times whne simin keep talking abt orange mushrooms.. and green slimes..
now i'm hitting green slimes...
(= hmm.... mum asked me why i'm playing instead of studying... heexx.... cos i have no paper tmr... so decided to take a break today... (=
ok la... i'm tired le.... shall go rest first... ciao

long time since i blog???? recently com's down.... sian.... so yea.... dint get to blog... could only go online... heex.... but thanks dear for fixing my com yest... heex... apparently my com had 2 firewall... so they block one another.... (=
whee!!!!! so now i got my internet back... but now.. i'm not home... but at dear's house slacking..
screwed today's paper... cried...sigh.... tmr 's paper... screwed it too... i'm gonna own it instead... hahhz.. (=
heex... hmm.... ok.. i'm tired... gonna sleep soon... but gonna play game first... ciao

argh!!!!!!! pissed with marcus again...
he ah... always bo jio study!!!!!
errr...... wan me to take the pissed off word???? i dun wan lei...
hmph..
but he look ok today!!!! thats wad he wan me to type!!! (=
anw...my moodnow not good...
damn!!!!! i got woke up by my sleep cos of someone who keep knocking the table..
damndamndamn....
hmmm..... anw..... wads the prob with him at times?????
i only said something.... he no need to like that right???
sigh.... last 1.5weeks....
you know???
i only wanna spend the last 1.5 weeks happily with you...
yet... all you do is make me upset and angry...
know how ii feel ma???? =(
forget it....stop pestering me to tell you wad decision i am gonna make...
cos i'm not gonna say..
you know half the story and zz knows the other half...
so find zz if you wanna know wad i'm gonna do... sigh..... tired tired tired.... siannnnnnnnnnnnnnx..
anw...
yest night was damn nice... had fun talkign to henz..... long time never see him nor talk to him le...
really gtta thank this church mate of mine.... for his skol papers and notes...
(=
heex... god made a nice plan... by making this friend a good friend of mine..
a close friend of my cousin.. (=
heex....
hmm.........................how?????????? troubled.... but you care??????? sigh!!!!

despair...

sigh...

i dunno.... dunno wads gonna happened...

troubled by econs...

troubled by many things...

but no one really knows at this moment..

hiding as much as i can..

talked to mum just now when i was home...

nearly cried talking to her....

she thought i was tired...

i was... tired now and tired of life...

haix.... tooty. not your fault... stop saying its your fault k???

chatted with zz.... hazh... he must be glad that i dint watch the tv today ba....

sad to say i dint... but wanna see you on air la...

damn!!!!!hahz... anw... thanks zz..

such a gr8 bud... hmm.... anw.... i cant promise you that... even if you have to hate me...

but really... be prepared to attend mine..... before As...

read pam's blog...
hahz... teared and laughed... ya..
apparently leaving me and brain alone for 1 week made us both sick..
(= morale of the story??? dun leave us alone..
but yea.... no more tears of break up like wad i told you last time (story i mean)
we were more diligent and geered up into studying..
but still need lotsa time..
ok... yest... wanted to meet brain, jon and darren to study after their bowling movie outing..
but apparently cos jon and darren both late... so they dint catch POC with the bowlers.
hmph... then met brain first cos he was alone... but when i reached... jon and darren were both here le..
then we went to eat at horizon. studied like less then 15 min.. then puffed!!! POC
i was tempted into watching it..
wasted $9.50 plus near 3 hrs of studying time...
oh wells... but the show is really nice...
i love the song... and the many many little jokes in it..
hahz.. cinema was really cold.... but his warm hand really warmed me down alot... plus jon's jacket la.. (= ok... after the show... we went seoul and saw the bowlers still pigging out!!! gosh... 3 hrs of pigging!!!! hazh
anw.... missing him, esp today....
dun get to see him.. nor hear from him..
only thru smses... and msn...
sigh..... tmr will be a better day for me..
I WILL GET WELL. WELL LIKE A BULL AND CHARGE FOR EXAMS WHEN SKOL STARTS... (=
heex... (=
anw... was pissed with daddy yest...
tell me he cant make it to study with me...
but was at rp with study kakias??? wth.... hmph... oh wells....
mood hasnt been with me... esp today... i just felt likea dead piece of log... logging to tuition and logging home.... plop on my bed and zzzz till 7+pm before getting my butt off my bed and study... =(
tooty... thanks for pushing me... thanks for believing in me that i can do it...
touched... (= love teasing you too!!!! hahz..
hope tmr you wun pin me down on the bed and tickle me cos i teased you like crazy just now... (= whee!!!! your family day sounds fun...
my family day tmr will be fun too!!!! cos there's you in it... heex...
hm... gonna go back study le... (=
haix....
GO pearly!!! (=ganbatte

"Hahahaha.Damn right they all agree.Although I must add that there are people who are not my so-called gang of ah lians who agree with that as well.Going around telling people that Jason is your Boyfriend is not blabbering nonsense? God. He never agreed to being your boyfriend before, my dear. If it's about the laopo, mistress and girlfriend thing.. Then you're being really stupid.It was meant to be a game, and the bunch was just fooling around. Don't tell me you think it's for real.I've said it a zillion times that I don't see anything wrong with you liking my cousin. I'm just disgusted with the fact that there's people asking me whether are you Jason's girlfriend because they heard that you were - from YOU. Heck. Anyone would be disgusted with that, man.In case you didn't notice. That post was up at 4 am. Who the heck would be bothered to write so much? Moreover the post was about you. Typing that few lines are already a waste of my time. I can't imagine myself typing a hell long of a post just for you in my blog.Yeah. I was having my holidays and I had way too much time on my hands. Is there a problem with that. Anyhoos. I posted that post because of the incident in Jackson's tagboard.Yeah. So what if I'm studying in a private school? I don't think any of these linked to me studying in a private school, right? Oh gosh. How'd you know about me not being able to get in a JC or a Poly. You only got to know me after Peiling got into PJC and you know nuts about my background.I. hate. JCs and uniforms, that's why. In case you have no idea. I only studied ONE subject for my O levels and I still passed. So yeah. Bugger off about my studies when you know nuts.Hahaha. Hard-earned money?Hey missy. I'm. not. like. you.I buy whatever I want. I spend like there's no tomorrow. Why? Cuz my family can afford it. I have two bloody cars at the age of 18. Do you? So don't come talking to me about money cuz all my DAD does is sit in his office every morning and stare at the computer. Ya call that hard earned money? Hah. I didn't want to spend an extra year in Poly thus the Private school. Guess you don't know that, huh? And another plus point is that I get TWO certs in TWO years. All recognised in Singapore. So ya call that a waste of money? You not being able to afford it doesn't mean people can't afford it, sweetheart.Am I provoking you? Aww. That's sad. Hah. I provoke people for the fun of it. Or rather, cuz I was bored.I DO have that intention of getting Peiling and you to patch up at that time. But do you seem like you do? No.Hello missy. Please check your bloody MSN history if you have a problem. The first time I added you into the conversation with Cindy in it. I kept blood quiet. Cindy never had a good temper to begin with. Yes. She started saying things to you that you dislike. I stupidly thought that you will not join in and fight back. But you did. AND heck. Everyone knows I'm closer to Cindy and Peiling than to you. You retort and started spouting profanities at her as well. What the heck do you want me to do? I kept quiet thoughout the whole conversation. THEN. I started the war with that Pam in your tagboard. AND please get yer facts right about that cuz I don't think I've insulted you in any way in the tagboard at all. Not a single time.Oh by the way. You said that I left my name because you knew it's me when I called? God. If I were afraid of you finding out, I wouldn't have called you, no?Yeah. Thick-faced. AND the reason for the ED because I found that you were.. During the you liking Jason era. Woots. Threats? Have I threatened you in any way, huh?Hahaha. Well. I know enough about you to make me dislike you, no? Oh dearie, there's nothing to reflect about in case you don't know."

gosh... this is the 2 entry to me.... this time its by an email... means its kinda private that most pple wun get to read cos the email is for me..
wow..... long but really interesting....
oh wells... she really gets lotsa things wrong man...
if you think jason calling us wife, mistress and gf for fun..
wad makes you think he's my bf for real???
hahz... (= he plays along.. i can play along too.. (= if not wad are actress and actors for????
i wun deny you're closer to them than me... but know wad... your friendship arent that stable afterall... if not why will you whine to me when ing was gonna split up then???
hazh.. childish.... think i'm provoked??? you're wrong... hahz.. (= why should i??? i have much better things to take care of... unlike you.. spoilt brat... you never know wads hard earned money than....
karma will happen.. cos it always does... (=
anw... facts are facts... only you and yourself will know.... if you choose to deny and argue your way thru... then there's nth i can do... cos there're lotsa evidence around.... just that you arent observant enough to notice them...
and pls get your facts right,.... who is it that dint wanna patch... whether its me and ling...
if you think by making an initiative in every convers is not trying to patch things up.... and its my fault.. then too bad lo...
i will have to say... i'm not priviledge enough to have her even as an hi-bye friend...
and of course there's a price to pay... by losing more friends..
but who cares... i've got lotsa other frineds... so losing a few wun do me much harm...
all these i learnt from a super close friend of mine
i can still live life happily... (= likewad i am doing now...
btw... life has never been much greater than now... (=
you prob wun know how happy i am... cos you'll never get to enjoy all these man... (=
ok... 5 min of typing is up...
someone's interested to view le... (= the above "" is an email replied from my 2nd previous entry, opposing that gal... (=

oh... saw pam's blog...
guess i should type a long one abt past events...
i supposed there were quite a fair bit...
but dint have time to type a long chunk out.. (=
hmm... but i'm going out to play bball now....
with dear, green short and gang..
but i should say...
i'm going to study.... while they play..
(+
hahz....
hmm... ok.... ciao... (=
and hi jo...long time since i really chat on msn wiht you..
your answer still as short as ever...
type longer lei..
i'm happy for you.... cos somehow... i can feel some happiness in you...
even if it is a few sentence...
(=
ciao.... shall cont when i'm free-er

found this extract damn interesting... so shalll copy and paste it here...
"dear Pearly decided that I'm refering to her & left me a reply.Well, honey, just in case you still patronise my blog..I. don't. like. you.The sight of you disgusts me.I'm not even gonna have a go at your looks because it'll be endless.You've only yourself to blame for this war.You couldn't stop blabbering nonsense about Jason & Ling.There are many more things about you that all of us dislike.But then again, I don't think telling you would have any use because that's what you, Pearly Lau, is about.If you weren't annoying, thick-faced, dumb, & utterly disgusting, you wouldn't be called Pearly Lau. Right? (:"

ok... apparently this is written by someone who doesnt like me.... i'm sure she and her gang of ah lians will agree...
but i supposed i should clarify something here...
see the bold red words....
hazh... whoever blabbered nonsense abt them??? i dun have soooo much time to bother man...
and pls.... if it started cos i like jason back then... then its too bad la... cos liking someone doesnt needs approval of someone else... even if its his cousin -you!!!
the fact that you arent stating much more is cos you cant think of any reliable things to blog abt.... and you seriously have too mcuh time to deal with such minor issues even after 4 months??? how childish can you be....
so wad if you're studying in a private skol??? i dun have the right to call you stoopid cos you're not good ebough for jc or poly, to the extend that you gotta spend your parent's hard earned money on private skol...
but do reflect on yourself... if i haven been provoking you... i dun see why you like provoking others so much... reflect on your inner self... are you being mature? grown-up? or still a 5 yr old kid as ever??? oh... if you dislike me that much...
i dun see why you called me that time to patch htings up wiht ling... talked to me in such a nice tone... and the moment you add me into the convo of me you and ying, and not ling, you 2 shoot vulgarities... this is not a talk... its hooting... and i felt conned by you into your "sincerity"
hahz....
know wad... i dun really bother abt wad you type abt me... and thankfully your blog arent nice enough for me to always go in... happened that i chanced onto jackson's blog then i decided to go your blog...
yup... since you hate me that much....too bad la...
it only harms your body not mine.. so why should i really care???
think i'll be affected by your spams and stuffs???
affected by wad cindy said last time???
hazh... you call me thick-faced for a reason yea???
not afraid of all these....
ahz... and pls... if you said i was thick-faced, can i take it as a compliment cos it is past tense??? hazh... after all... being thick skin has its adv yea???? not afraid of threatens and your hoots... muahahz... of course it has shown much abt your intelligence and how much you actually know me... any idea how much a hypocrite are you??? whiney baby... reflect la...i have no wish to have any business with you... not now not next time not forever...

breaking... so blog abit...

hmm.... haven een feeling good the past few days..
vomitted again..
and yea...
due to the severe pain in the stomach..
doctor say its normal..
having throat infection again.
sian..
so many things cannot eat..
hazh..
but thankfully he's here for me everyday..
(=
studied.. but not very fruitful//
haix..
(=
ok... 05/06/07 at 08.09.10, he made a ppt slide for me..
(=
on this normal yet meaningful day!!!!!
really cant thank him enough for accompnaying me and studying wiht me..
(=
whee... mum's ok with him... want him join us fo rdinner every sun night!!!!
bnut ya.... now every day he's here for dinner..
ahzh(=
mount everest!!!!!

Pls do not remove this section.

Designer: bw0kensmile-x
Image Hosting: photobucket.com
Image Hosting: imageshack.us
Image source: deviatart
Tagboard: cbox.ws.com
Music: baidu.com
Cursor: dorischu