i'm home now..
sian...
very tired..
first time i kena called by mr yap!!!
omg!!!
scare the hell outta me la..
sian..
slept..
somehow unknowingly..
sigh..
not the first time..
but yea... was feeling super damn sleepy..
sigh sigh
i'm feeling sad..
like tmr its his bdae le..
but then i cant even get his prezzie on time la.
like no time management like that..
wads worse is that we arent talking still..
sadsadsad..
how are we supposed to revery to the past where we really had so much fun tgt..
staying over tgt... suaning each other tgt?
sigh..
miss the good old days..
i thought our clique will be a super damn unique one..
from all the various classes..
but yea..
apparently. it somehow died le la..
sianx..
mm.. ok... pe..
slack la..
we ran 6 rounds of 1 interval each..
not bad!!i like it... not so stressful... if not i will dread pe..
hazh.. mm... ok.. pushed edwin in one of his rounds..
hazh..
whee!!!! fianlly i see him pushing himself and not walking so much..
all the way mummy!!! (=
ok la... dun crap le... maybe later post one more b4 sleeping..

missing him.
jo.sotong aka .a.y
jia you for exams..
haz..piglet's waiting!!

having GSC now... hahaz.. surprisingly.. i am using the com instead!!!
whee!!!!! i'm happy.. yet sad la..
also dunno how to say... like in teh same gp as him... but then how lei??
we're still not talking to each otehr..
dammit la..
argh1!!!!!!
thanks MARCUS~!!!!!! for returning me the book!!!
heex..
ling was gald to see you this morning!!! (=
ahz.. and she's saying "i'm here i'm herer i'm here!!! "(=
mm. ok la... gotta go do some chin-na stuffs... so gonna die man!!!!
chi-na pok!!!!! =(

dammit la... why am i in the same gp as them???
argh!!!!
felt so left out lor...
liek i'm not doing anything or learning anything..
asked me to read the thing...
then in the end actually no need any article de..
argh!!!!
know how i feel not???
i'm alr not comfortable in the same gp as him.. yet i have to face this..
argh!!!ｗｈｙ　ｗｈｙ？？？

today's so fruitful!!!
dint wanan go skol de..
cos wanna accompany mum...
but in the end.. i luked myself to skol..
ahzh... first time i dint sleep during lessons..
whee!!!
yay!!!
then after skol... mea nd marcus went to woodlands lib to study1!!
but before that..
=(
sad la.. close...
thanks bud
mm.. then we go woodlands lor..
studied until 9pm..
cool.... i finished all my homework..
left econs DRQ and reflections
whee!!!
oh .. and math complex number.. whee!!!
after studyign at lib..
me and marcus went ot pasa malam..
whee!! so fun!!!
heex..
things are fun at times wihtout having to spend much..
thats how a simple passes by her life..
hazh.. (=
ok so lame!!
i'm just happy la..
to be able to accomplish so much today!!!
whee!!! life fulfilled for the day!!

Labels: fulfillment

whoots.. i change my bloggie type... its now under the new kinda

28th jan

today slept until 3pm...

then went shopping!!!

then went for dinner with family!!!

was the video gal for the day!!! so cool

Labels: well spent?

quarrelled wiht marcus yest night... wahh... no wonder i was so sad la..
mm.. thats not the point..
mm.. supposed to go to nyp today..
but should i go??
sianxx... mm.. ok..
talked to him yest..
evening time..
but sad sad..
he's not free to accompany me to nyp..
haix..
oh wells..
okok.. i had a weird dream..
of my neice wearing my pretty new clothes..
and guess wad..
she's so smalll right... but the clothes fit her so well..
oh man.. freaky..
also..
dreamt abt something to do wiht new year's eve.. when there was a celebration..
it was a double celebration for me too..
quite a surprised one..
someone... his family members suddenly all accepted me?
and yea.. so sudden kinda thing..
but it was really sweet..
if i can.i wun wanna wake up from that dream...
at least in there... i still end up wiht him in the end..
unlike reality..
it has been made clear that we are no longer tgt..
argh!!!
ok..
meeting marcus at 12 for bowling..
hahz..
will i have time to study this weekend?
mon's my test..
sigh...
i hsould just say..
"try my best! ganbatte!!! "

constanly.
thinking.
him.
sotong.

dunno wa time now..
but yea... quite emo now..
thinking of him thats why.
sigh..
anyway..
skol was ok today..
after skol had gp remedial..
surprisingly. i dint sleep today..
azhh..
mm.. hten went for a short bowling..
then ate..
yummy..
ahzh..
tasy food..
hazh
mmm.
rain sia..
we all sian diao..
mm..
sorry marcus for not controlling my temper..
=(
wanted to ask him why he cant let me like him more..
than i wun have to feel so miserable now..
=(
why on earth i still cant put jo down???
argh!!!
i'm sad.. .really sad..
dunno wad to do..
haix..

oh man!!!
why why???
i cried twice today
first was when i hugged yixin at terminal 2..
really cant to se eher leave...
2nd was when we turned our backs against each other and walked out of the different door towards the diff train..
haix..
ok... anywya..
only left changi at 4 plus..
so couldnt make it in time to go back for maths..
sorry..
mm... jo waited for me at row 1 just now since i think 130?
but yea.. cos i only finished lessons at 1..
rushed all the way down..
1.5 hr man..
so sianx la..
mm.. ok.. gave him his letter and yea.. finally got his add..
played with his hair for a while..
then quieten le..
sigh..
i really dun like that feeling of emptiness between us..
why???
haix..
he said he wanan go home..
but in hte end go chalet..
why?
my letter states clearly how i felt ba..
really veyr sad..
cried la..
then those youngsters on the train just kept looking at me..
oops..
haix.. why keep using your fone in front of me??
you know how i felt..
yet why?
sigh..
super emo la..
leave me alone..
i need to really cool down..
i'm supposed to let him go long long ago..
yet it appeared again..
argh!!!
WHY???

emo day.
alone.
silence.
look. think. ponder

oh.. i forgot to add!!!
cedric got into kranji...
wahhhhh..
ok.. and i actually volenteered to tutor him in maths..
he better do well man...
if not i really wasting my time man..
esp on my A level year!!!
hazh..
i only told him abt punishment hor..
like lookign down on him..
forgot to talk to him abt reward..
ahzh..
mm..
oh wells..
that punishment will be good for him man..
ahzh(=
i plan so well for him lor..
ahzh..
free tution somemore..
wahlau..
i go teach others will have money man!!!
ahzh..
see boy.. i so good to you..
better do me proud sia

today was quite a good day for me.. (=
i'm quite happy abt how it ended..
thanks..
in skol wasnt veyr happy.
in fact was troubled..
personal stffs.
not feeling very well too..
hahz(=
mm.. dint go for odac today..
was in skol until 3pm..
then went o SA wiht xin xin..
to find our darling..
ya..
mood wasnt good also..
and hte heat was warming me was quite fustrating...
but yea... ok... thought the day will end off like that..
btu NO.
chervon..
wahlau.. i go le.then they leave..
sian diao la...
just to deliver a letter..
hahz..
ok.. so here i am now..
stressed..
i'm actually under conditional promotion..
sian..
god.. pls let me pass my structural gp test..
i really dun wanna retain..
sigh..
mm... talked to jo on msn..
yay!!!
happy happy..
and yea..
i finally told him wad i think it should be..
but yea..
as usual he dint respond..
so yea..
haix..
too bad la..
i guess my mind really flicks too much..
but on overall... it all lies down to me being too faithful..
i thought it will be over..
but its not..
i'm sorry..
but at least if i tell him how i felt now... we might not avoid each other in skol le..
which is wad i really wan..
cos i feel sad when we no longer talk in skol... =(
mm... ok la..
enough of bgr..
i'm sick of it..
argh!!!!
stoopid thingy..
cos me to lose forcus during my test today..
and yea..
thinking of it the whole whole entire day..
argh!!!!!
ciao...

cyrus 5 peeps!!!
here's the link!!!
esp to qian, yixin, jo and amirul!!!
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2096302365

mm.. had og farewell dinner today..
wahhh..
5 came..
me, qian, amirul, jo and of course our star yixin!!!
ahzh..
but b4 that mikhail accompany xin..
they went shopping then..
ahzh..
cool...
ok...
dinner at swensens..
i dint eat..
cos thought going to admiralty to meet blurp blurp and san mao..
but ya.. in the end i dint go..
too caught up wiht og mates la..
miss them so much lor..
(=
ok apparently amirul looks more aunty-ish..
and jo's hair is like LONGGGGG now.
argh!!!
not nice..
but its a different sight of him..
mm.. oh wells..
wad else can i say?
its their hair not mine..
hazh..
mm.. and ya..
not related to any of them.
ahzh..
ok... we talked and crapped!!!
hahz..
really missed man..
hahz..
missed. miss. missing.
hahz..
all my good friends!!!!
but not complete..
darylyn and andrea not here..
david too!!! =(
ok.. pissed with him again..
eh dun always make me angry with you can???
i really veyr sad lei.. =(
saw him..
wahhh... i dunno how i'm feeling now..
i think i still had feelings lei..
i dunno..
him and him..
wad should i do..
ok..anwyay..
we wanted to do cheat code and get a few bottles out of the machine..
ahzh..
but yea..
notti right?
i'm hte one la.
realised... besides them changing in some ways..
i've also changed..
more notti..
hazh..
crappy and yea..
talkative..
in front of them only.
cos we knwo each other well..
wonder wads life gonna be without xin..
XIN!!! HOPE YOU LIKE HTE PRESENT I GIVE YOU!!!

really miss you lots..
but you made me upset over and over again.
feelings came back..
i stil concern for him..
maybe we shoudlnt meet yet?
i wonder wad you felt? when you finally see me again after the 6 months of not seeing each other..

ack to my daily blogging habit.
hahz..
mm... not really used to RP's com.. but haz.. still blogging..
hahz.. ok.. today me, marcus and ying studied at RP..
in our skol uni.
ahzha... everyone looked at us like some weirdo.. hahz..
but who cares man.
i just just ike to study here.. (=
nice conducive environment...
bahz.. ok... dint do much... lagging behind time..
stillgot econs and chem to do..
also not forgetting GP
hazh...
i'm gonna be a good gal and study everday..esp tmr
cos got og dinner..
soall the more i gotta study for tmr..
cos wed got test..
hazh.. (=
hopefully i can do it..
ganbatte!!!!!
mm... ok.. today im quite a hapy gal in skol..
but i wonder tmr how..
hazh.. cos got pe..
then my leg still liddat..
veyr xin ku..
but thanks to my friends who are there for me..
(=
arigato gosaimasu...

missing you...
but i'v decided to move on..
you're just a memory in me..
maybe passing by stage..
will you mind if i say that???
i dunno...

WAH LAU!!!! pple like evelyn hor!!!
must really grow up lei...
like as if you're the only matured one..
i also dunno wad to comment since you're so sensitive and keep thinking its you..
if its coincidental then isnt it too bad for you?
c'mon la..
grow up pls..
i wun deny that if we're gonna argue over this, i will lose..
but yea... i'm more daring and bold than you..
and trust me... you haven seen my true temper... and trust me..
it will be worse than throwing chairs at others..
hahz... i haven seen my worse behaviour yet though..
but yea..
you're not the only who has a temper.. aBAD one..
i'm just rening you guys..
as much as i can... cos its a resolution and a vow i made..
oh wells..
i dun see why i should be explaining the story to PPLE LIKE EVELYN..
ahhz..
i think this post is really degrading my esteem la..
but i just bui song her le la..
still must see her..
torturous man..
thankfully she's not cm lor..
she cm, i first one strongly object..
hazh... jkjk..
but ya.. i supposed i will do it ba?
hazh... i dunno... it ever crossed my mind b4..
ahzh..
oh wells..
class politics.. cum personal fraut?
argh!!!

level of craziness up one level.
ahzh(=
jackson!!!! faster come out of your army lei..
i wanan see your level of craziness too!!!!
long time never see you gila liao

wahh...
jisheng win le...
say wanna pass my book , in the end he realsied that he passed the book to someone else..
hazh.. O.o so diao lor..
ahzh(=
but thanks ah uncle... i'm so glad you're willing to go the extra mile for me..
heex..
mm... ok... i was pissed wiht him today..
but yea... i dint whine in front of him la..
sorry hor, ling and ying..
hazh... i was sad + upset + disappointment
yea... talked to marcus on the fone..
nearly cried la..
but thanks daddy... you really know how to cheer me up.. (=
like i said. i just wished he treats me as nice as you treat me lor..
ahzh... not 100% la...
like 10% will do..
hazh.. (=
hahz.. okok.. was smsing kor roy just now..
hazh... he hor... completely lost track of time le.. since he go army..
hazh... today 21st le hor... he thought my bdae today sia... win le lor..
but ya... so long never see him in his botak look le..
but finally next week can see him!!!!
cos popo's bdae!!!
ahzh... i'm so looking forward to it...
meanwhile..
i'm lookign for money sources... help mummy to load that burden..
maybe i wun wanan buy those things i have in mind now..
help mum first..
ahzh..
so i'll be nice!!!
donate the money to her ba...
thats if tue i will have enough money for farewell dinner and this week's 10 buck..
argh!!!! money headach..
mm.. ok..i drank a 5% alcohol today..
hahz..
its damn ncie lei..
but cos i drank it almost down immediately... i felt the hot feeling in my tummy..
wanted to save for ying de...
but who asked her to come so late!!!
ahzh (= sorry la..
butyea..
okok... mm... met kel a while at kfc..
funny guy la... come jst to eat and then go home sleep liao..
cant blame him and marcus also right??
who asked them to go clubbing yest???
hahz.. *actually i also wanna go de.. BUT!!! its skol time.. so never go.. *
hazh..
wahhhh..
today i an shuang la..
go ask jisheng wad he did online..
first time lor..
so bui yao bai..
ahz... damn happy also la..
finally talking to jo abit..
mm... but as usual.. he's reply is so damn short....
hahz.. okok..
i better stop le...
still got lotsa things to do..
think tonight no need to sleep le..
plsu the fact that i'm still bai ka...
dunno how to drag myself to skol tmr.. =(

over???
i supposed..
move on.
its time.

TO ALL MI pae peeps..
CYRUS5 members..
this tue we will be having og dinner..
farewell dinner for yixin!!!
cos she's flying off on the 25th..
yup..
it will be at bukit batok at 7pm... those who have any suggestions of where to eat pls tell me asap... ya.. thos ewho see this msg.. pls pass down..
(=
thanks..
btw her flight will be on the 25th around 2+
so yea... assuming all of us have skol. we wun be able ot send her off.. (=
so i hope you guys can turn up for the dinner

i'm totally tired out... leg's damn painful la.. =(
mm.... meh meh came to my house jus a while ago..
hazh..
wahhh... miss him lei..
(=
thanks meh meh...
hahz.. cos i couldnt go bp to find you..
you came specially to find me to pass me the gc(=
hazh
mm... talked to him a while b4 he leave for work..
hazh..
must find one day to find him..
mm... ok..
rice..
should i go??
cos mum dun really wan me to go..
cos of the incident 3 years ago..
mm.... i'm actually scared too..
but yea.. shoudl i go or not??
argh!!!!!
they really go clubbing..
i'm sad la..
marcus drank too much i supposed..
then he at 2 plus smsed me..
mm... sorry ah.. was sleeping..
wonder if he's ok now..
eh
dun be sad la...
and you drunk le got spout nonsense not???
hazh..
(= mm... ok.. should i go meet them later???
i'm quite lazy to walk..
got lotsa work to do..
but dunno hwo to do.. sian...

mm... this morning.. i slept my way thru the closing ceremony for iocbc stock challenge
hazh..
whoots,,,
the top 25 for open and jc cat were invited to collect the prize
so ya... as i'm one of them..
gotta go lor..
(=
wore formal..
wahhh.. so little gals lor...
in the jc one...
there were 4 gals..
but only 2 were genuine recipents..
the other 2 is on behalf of someone..
=(
hazh..
but not bad la... considering the fact that gals also can make it..(=
hahz..
ok... most of the award winners were from tope 6 eg.. TJC, AJC, ACJC, HCI,VJC..
only 1 from PJC- me..
and another form TPJC
wahhh... 3 cheers to us man..
(=
mm... ok.. this morning i made a total of 5 new friends..
namely jonathon, andrew, colvis, shawn, masa...
azh...
one of them is mix jap and chinese..
cool lor..!!!!!
hahz..
i guess ultimately, my decision of going there alone is really good..
cos i made new friends..(=
hahz.. ok.. then went home to change then go out meet ying to shop for her bag and my clothes..
hazh.. i bought 2 top..
like it alot..
ahzh..
and i eyed on a bag!!!!
its damn damn damn nice..
but i cant buy..
cos not enough money..
=( *hint hint* THAT BAG VERY NICE..
wonder who will be my mr nice to get it for me..
heex...
hint to daddy and him..
hahz.. so mean hor..
mm... then met ling to go back cwp..
then waited for kel and marcus to eat..
wahlau..
they never eat lor..
=(
now they clubbing le ba...
marcus asked me to go also..
wanna go de..
but ya... i bai ka..
cant even sit or walk properly...
dun talk abt dancing..
hazh..
and yea.. i chen qiang for the whole day le... its really pain pain...
hazh.. anyway..
ok..
i got 2 jokes of the day for everyone who reads until here..
first is abt ying..
next abt kel..

first and foremost..
YING!!!
both me and ying went to converse shop while waiting for kel and marcus..
then ying show this bigger than keychain shoe... then she said that sh0e was a keychain..
so i blurred... and then asked the man if its a keychain or for kids..
and guess wad..
its a SHOE not keychain!!!
she got so paiseh la..
then laughed all the way out..

second..
KEL..
cos they took so long to come to cwp..
apparently.. they got stucked!!!
but there was a sensor that kel dint knwo..
marcus saw then opened..w/o kel knowing..
then kel was surprised that he can opened..
then marcus tol dhim to push it twice then can open..
only twice..
kel really believe and did as told lei.!!!
omg!!!!!!!
so goon!!!ahzh..

are they funny..
mm... see the typing not really funny la..
but ya..
its so funny when marcus told us..
laughed until i cant cont eating..
mm... i kinda daoed him the whole day today..
until i was forced to say bye..
ok lor..
hahz..
not that i wanna dao you... but i dun wanna be hurt further..
sorry..
but he told me something which shooked me..
he said something abt you feeling the suan-ness..
when you heard something abt my family..
mm..
if thats sympathy.. stop it.. i dun wan that..
if its really that suan-ness...
thanks dear..
but yea... actually i know the answer..
even if he never tell me..
yup... i cant feel the link between us now.
so yea..
mm... anyway..

ACJC guys are CUTE!!!!!
omg omg..
hazh. .and marcus said wad i wore today is nice..
wahhhh... i anyhow mix and match lei... cos went bugis ma.. (=
i'm happy lei... an shuang!!! ahz

still thinking of you.
not that i really wanna stop loving you.
but i dun wan this to affect us.. and our studies.
will we talk abt this seriously after exams?
our priorities remember??
missed./miss./missing.

argh!!!
formal wear???
define that..
working attire...
omg... where to find it by tmr morning?
arghhhh!!!!!
anwyay.. ok... actually i guess i should be going for a full check up..
cos i think my condition is worsening....
mm... ok... not many pple knew i'm sick to that extend..
i dint expect it to be back..
argh!!!!
mm.. ok.. odac trials 2..
damn fun la..
hahz.. i got to know my gp members better..
azh..
but sad to say... i dunno them well..
hazh... i only remmeber a guy from gp one... cos he looks like my korkor...
hazh.. heex.... anyway... GROUP 3!!! YOU RAWK!!!
ahzh...
mm..ok... ate dinner wiht the touch rouguer and rugby boys ..
azhh..enjoyed myself.. .from all the laughter and stuffs..
hazh...
whee!!!!! mm... ok... i'm so motivated now..
but curretnly i'm sad too!!!
he never reply me!!!
sobs sobs..
mm... and yea... huai really believe i got a darling..
ahzh..
whoots.. mm.. funfunfun..
hahz..
ok..
this part only goes to evelyn..
hey gal... dun anyhow assume things... cos its not really good for you..
since i dint state who..
and i really dun see why you should think its you.. unless you feeel guilty of wad i wrote...
and think that wadever i wrote its abt you..
so yea... dun assume things cos most of the time its not wad you think..
and i supposed you're sensitive??? to such issues???
so!!! relax more.... esp if you think you're gonna be stress!! its not gonna be good for your health... (=

i'm happy now..
cos i won something..
whee!!! thanks to my buds and delia!!!
gonna share the prize wiht you man!!!
heex.. okok... if its real cash..
i will have money le..!!!
heex..
i'm sooooooo happy!!!!!
mm.... i made daddy angry...
sorry ah... ah pa... (=
but i wanan share this news with you still..
and you wanan share your bad news wiht me???
call me k??? (= cos your fone got prob.. hahz..

yest saw ting feng!!! damn happy..
mm... okok..
i'm hopelessly broke..
to the extend that i'm willing to do anything now just for the sake of money..
you gusy know wad i mean la hor..
mm...
i've never faced such situation b4..
its like i'm so deprived of it that even by ending my life, i still need money..
money for funeral..
argh!!!
maybe thats wad explains my moodiness..
argh!!!
i kena ps again today la..
wahlau..
you all dun always ps me lei..
you knwo how i feel not???
argh!!!
wahlau..
yest trials..
pple act brave...
but behind us... complain its so hiong..
wad is this la..
run canal only lei???
we endured more last year la..
ahhhh.. mood chao bad la..
i pray so hard and work so hard..
but why is my efforts never paid?
and my prayers not returned?
wad have i done wrong?
i thought this year i will be a much ahppy gal compared to last year?
am i just plain sensitive?
or are these really true?
i'm really really veyr upset..
but no one concerns... no one even notice..
i'm sick..
only peggy, marcus and delia knows...
do you guys even bother much???
al you guys know is just clique among yourselves..
wad can i say?
you guys will just say i'm not interactive enough..
but did you all even respond to me when i tried?
i'm tired... very tired..
argh!!!
i hate you guys alot you know?
but can i even say?
none of you all really bother abt how i felt..
selfish gp of pple..
wad else you wan me to say?
i stayed in pjc back then is cos of you guys..
cos you all persuaded me..
now?
yo uknow how much i regretted?
i gave up my dream skol for you all..
and this is wad i get in return..
i'm in j2 i know..
not supposed to procastinate anymore..
but.. i'm not a happy j2 gal..
or at least not now..
somehow..
i'm always being ps by others..
when yo uall need me, then come find me..
if not... no one care abt me..
I'M NOT A TOY!!!!
i'm a human with emotions..
lotsa emotions..
its not i dun wanan smile in skol..
but i've lost it.
there's nothing much in skol to make me smile likw how much i smiled in MI
seriously... if i'm given a choice again..
if al the millenians stayed in MI... you htink i'll even come to pj and see all your shitty face???
wahlau..
you said you'll chem?
think of others la...
who asked you wanna join such a hectic cca and mess your life?
you got 24 hrs others also got..
you're busy so are we..
why are you complaining when those struggling arent saying anything???
you think you have the right to complain?
those who needed help are working so hard..
and all you do is be arrogant and complain..
thinking that others will care so much for you..
reflect la..

*sorry this post is all abt pple whom i can no longer take it...
quite displeaseful to vent in here... sorry... *
pearly's a angry gal today..
a disappointed gal..

i just wish to go back to the past..
either first 3 months...
or stop at the time of nov-dec 06
i really miss the times with cyrus 5 group, 06S03 peeps.. 4 flower and 1 shit, and dong li jiao ta che..
now that dong li jia ta che arent really so much tgt cos of different timetable..
i feel really sad..
wanan go out wiht you guys la..
but uncle la... always see how first..
saddening..
i dunno why i'm so emo..
but yea..apparently... i'm still sane..
stressing myself too much..
but i've seen no work done..
thats how disappointed i am at myself too....
thinking that i will have gp remedial and econs remedial... plus common test and normal test..
for 2nd promotional exams...
i'm really relly veyr scared..
tryingin really hard but yea..
i have no confidence..
somewat this year i'm more pessimistic..
and at the rate i'm going..
i'm not only gonna peak at my wrong time..
i'm also gonna fall sick so often that it seems like i'm sick thru out the year...
sigh..
pls bless me..

really wish you were by my side when i need you..
but you're always not there..
instead.. your good friend is always there for me instead..
why?

mm..
today's quite a good day for me ba?
heex..
spend quite some time wiht him..
mm... htink got 2++ hours..
damn happy la..
but we dint talk much..
missing him alot la..
mm..
odac trials and RICE trails too!!!
wahhhh..
so chaotic..
really dint knw wad ot do..
hazh..
okok..
apparently, my gp members dunno i exists..
ahzh
only a few..
ahzh..
mm...
been contacting marcus thru out..
but his toot fone hor...
cannt answer lor..
=(
after odac was damn tempted to go west mall find them..
can see marcus and him..
but then.. lazy to travel..
ahzh..
and wads more its the whole bowling..
sigh...
argh.. i like see him everyday..
but why do i still miss him so much.???
mm.. ok.. apparently i'm sick la..
sadsad..
mood's not good too..
today couldnt take it..
slept during my breaks..
think i almost gave peggy a shock if i dint tell her i'm tired and sick..
hahz...
in case you dint know..
i'm missing him alot alot..
but its not that it has affected my studies...
in fact.. he spurs me on to stduy harder..
cos he's damn hardworking..
i wan him to change his name to lionel lei!!!
cos i like tat name..
hahz..
nvm la..
his current name also nice.. (=

wanna see you soon
deaar.. u n onli u

wahhh... lausai la!!!
dammit..
occured just before pe..
so!!!
during pe i couldnt run my trial 2.4km..
but i managed to do my incline..
goon me stopped when i saw the rest started sitting on the floor..
thought time stooped..
argh!! ok.. no help and sickand not attentive, i did 24..
not bad la hor???
hazh...
training realy does help.. (=
m... ok..
abt my personal life again.
dint talk much to him..
1 sentence only..
ahzh..
dunno when will see him or go out tgt again lei..
since we end at different timing..
and he's never waiting for me..
so... i dun wanan wait for him le..
cos waiting for him= being ps..
hahz..
sad lor..
=(
bu ti'm still missing him lots... just talked to him online...
happy la...
who not happy man???
hahz..
heard a nice nice song... but dunno can post it not... cos i seem to have a trouble wiht it...

Playing

this is a short video of wad jisheng took during our work.. (= DHL games rawk... abit slow but yea... here it it

ok... today i'm a guai guai gal..
daddy agree wiht me right?
we're both guai kias today..
was suppose dot go watch movie with vicki today..
but yea... apparently halfway during skol time i fell sick..
=(
so yea..
then wanted to go cwp to study..
so met up with kel and marcus first..
kel had consultation..
so me and marcus was there, chatted a while..
then we went ot canteen to eat..
then somehow.. we endded up studying ther..
ahzh.. then kel went for lesson..
waited for him..
but in the end after his lessons..
he zao le..=mm.... ok.. hten jie ying played piano b4 kel left..
ahzh.. we were all mesmerised by her playing la..
hazh..
mm.. ok. .then stayed until 8 plus in skol to study..
(=
hahz.. wentwith marcus to lot 1 to eat..
saw odac seniors..
bet they thought me and marcus tgt..
kai wan xiao..
oh wells./..
best buds cannot go for dinner tgt eh?
hahz.. i kena ps lor..
=(
ahz..

missing you lots..
but you always choose to leave so early..
wad can i do?
open up ma?
i doubt so

mm... today is the first day of 2007 that i wore skirt!!!
ahzh.. to esplanade lib to study..
cos me and ling say we wear ncie ncie..
then ask marcus to wear nice ncie too!!
ahzh.. so yea..
mm. ate wiht ling at foodcourt..
wahhh./... nearly lost my fone la..
cos i left it there..
thanks to one lady who tell me...
thanks!!!!
hahz.. mm... at lib saw charmaine and grandma!!!
oh my!!!
miss them sooooo much..
ahzh.. adn char is in acjc sc!!!
whots!!!
ahzh.. cool..
hazh... studied econs today!!!
ahzh..
then printed some piano scores!!!
whee!!!!!
i got new pop songs ot learn
hazh...
mm... ok.. then we went to kel's house to eat steamboat..
azh..
as usual i was quiet..
dunno why after then i became quiet whenever i see him..
i was like so chatty wiht marcus and ling lor..
=(
sad sad..
like that lor..
thats' how my day is today..
its gonna be routinal..
=( but tmr i'm bringing vicki to watch one last dance..
whee!!!!
just hope marcus and kel can come..
then more pple more fun..
ahzh..

gonne meet them ina moment to study!!!
i'm gonna study even harder..
but i'm afraid if i really become a muger, i will have no life..
and my mood will change..
i've started and felt the craziness already..
but its still not enough... =(
mm... ok.. talked to marcus on the phone again..
hahz...
this guy hor..
can really be dj in future man..
perfect...
the way he spoke and he dedicated songs to me yest over the fone...
wahh...
thanks bud..
the songs were nice lor..
hazh...
thank god your sis is back huh..
if not you cant see your blog..
hazh.. anything tell me then i help you change k??
mm..
life's still dull for me now..
but i know later after metting the dong li jiao ta che clique..
i'm sure to be really happy..
(=
cos we know we can crap alot..
hopefully can study too!!!
(=
mm.... is he dao-ing me ah??
so weird la..
he never tell me anythign, but i can sense it wor.. =(
mm.. but nevertheless... he's on study mood le..
that spurs me too!!!
hahzh.. thanks alot..

sad.happy.sad.
stressed.
missing himmmmmmm.

mm.. after readin that email... i felt better..
sorry..
but mood's not really good these 2 days..
today studied with kel, marcus and edwin..
mm...
quite fruitful. despite the fact that rp has an open house..
(=
but the lib abit noisy huh??
heex..
ok.. then we played a little piano.. ate at cafe galilee..
ahaz.. there damn cheap la..
why our skol dint approach them???
hahz..
its so much better and nicer..
hazh
(=
ok... then slacked in cwp after walking to there..
ahzh... wahhh... walked thru the field and it was muddy cum slippery..
ahzh.. =(
ok... finally bought my first drink myself..
never got checked..
hazh(=
so happy..
i dint get drunk!!!
hazh
(=
mm... then chat rot and yea..
after which we went sakae..
played zhong zi mi ma..
i damn heng la..
dint zhong at all..
until when ling came... and bugged us to go arcade..
then i zhong..
ling` ate for me..
cos i dun like them..
but i still ate a small part of the wasabi..
(=
thanks gal..
mm... somehting happened to meiling darling..
felled sad for her..
but at the same time... it triggered me..
allowing me to think wad will happen if me and him tgt..
hazh..
maybe afterall we will still break ba..
cos he's not a kind who always replies me..
and i cannot stand a guy who will dao my sms..
(=
heex..
i'm tiao ti ba.. (=
oh wells..
i'm sad.. REALLY SAD!!!
nearly cried just now..
but marcus asked me not to cry..
like he said such that kel and edwin heard..
so i couldnt drop my tear..
wanna save myself from embarrassement..
=( sigh.. but thankfully after we left..
he did sms me.. (=
thanks..

i'm happy enough to see him.
even if we never talk.
wun ask for much.
and cant ask for much too

$20.00

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200,
he asked,
"Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said,
"I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked,
"Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
Well, he replied,
"What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up,
now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"
Still the hands went into the air.

My friends,
we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money,
you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives,
we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.
But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean,
crumpled or finely creased,
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.
The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE.
You are special- Don't EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on,
you may never know the lives it touches,
the hurting hearts it speaks to,
or the hope that it can bring.
Count your blessings, not your problems.
"And remember: amateurs built the ark ..
professionals built the Titanic.
If God brings you to it -
He will bring you through it.

oh.. i forgot to mention one thing...
my stock... hte challenge has officially ended yest..
ahz.. and i'm not in the top 50 rank..
BUT!!!
i'm and so super damn close to it..
omg!!!
hahz... yea... (=
think thats all i wanted to say.. (=

today is the day i broke down and cried..
i dunno why..
pms + bla bla + bla bla= cry
mm... ok ..apparently... i might have to retain..
if i fail my gp test..
=(
haix.... thats 1st =(
then something happened..
not somehting to be sad abt..
but afer one year and i have to readjust to new class changes..
i feel really sad..
maybe they dun likeme afterall..
so no matter wad i do for them, i get nothing in return..
so yea..
am i too sensitive to class issues???
i think i am... its my first official post... yet yea...
so yea now... i'm no longer s06 cm...
i'm a member now..
peggy asked how willl i react when they made announcement for cm and acm meeting..
my reply was... first respond will be.. "i have a meeting on.. "
but i will not have anymore meeetings..
have to readapt..
adapt not wearing the badge.
haix..
i shant whine..
cos it was a fair thing...
afterall.. i wasnt even nominated..
nothing to say..
cannot do anyhting also right?
so cry lor..
call me a cry baby..
i dun care... i'm not gonna put a false front anymore..
when i wanna cry.. i'll just do...
sorry gals...
i guessed when i cried in skol just now... i realy gave you all a shock..
sorry... its over minute issues... but i really cant take it..
mm... its not that i shi lian or anything.. hahz.. (=
but... sad is being sad... i also had a happy issue..
i might be able to join peggy in future!!! (=
depends on how the issue is going on..
yay!!!!
ahhz.... and today keep passing by jj..
thanks ah... finally you never dao me for one day..
(= jkjk...
met him today in skol..
as usual... we dint talk much..
but yea... somehow his presence just makes me happy..
thanks uncle..

sad.
miss him.
wanna talk to him... =(

hahz...
com's finally ok...
so i'm here blogging...
ahhz.. ok... tmr is the deadline for the competition..
thankfully my stocks rose again..
so i'm no longer left with 60+k...
but back to 145k..
hazh.. (=
dropped but still compared ot intial, i rose!!!!
ahzh(=
ok...got a few presents for my bdae this year...
i wun say its alot but at least they all have meanings in it...
considering the fact that all those who gave me are my super close friends...
for that, its the greatest present in my jc life!!!!
sandy- pingy(=
ling`- ringy
jie ying & jackson- personalised puzzle
delia & peggy- skol jacket
aloy kor- og package
marcus- coffee, tea or me cup
and i'm really really glad to those who wished me... at least i know... you guys got think of me... (=
lolenzo- doggy lamp & a kipling keychain
mum- my new specs
anonymous- white watch
whee!!!! hahz...
now that i'm 18...
i can officially buy drink w/o asking other to buy le.. (=
just checked my driving thingy!!!
ahzh.. 6 bucks and i can take the basic theory test
hahz(=
mmm.. ok... was having piano just now...
talked to ms tan abt stopping for As..
but not advisable...
maybe i wun stop ba.
ahzh
mm... then it rainned heavily la...
so cabbed home..
wah sai... 15.8 lei....
6 bucks for peak hour and booking fee..
sigh...
my money flew jsut like that
=(
but b4 piano...
me adn marcus wetn to sun plaza to shop..
ahzh(=
mm... marcus went ot his company to get some documents signed..
then shopped..
ahzh... bought foolscap!!!!!
wahh.. cheap.. but heavy lei..
hazh(=
poor him.. still sick..
ahzh... and yea...
oh... some baka person keep harassing me on my fone!!!!!
but yea..
one sentence and it shook him off..
wanan know that sentence? ask me yourself.. hahz..

they know who i'm talking abt all these while.
only them. thanks(=
lionel=lon-ne(=

OMG!!!! my stocks plunged to 0!!!!! now i'm left with 66k!!! sad sad...
sigh... anw... i had a wonderful bdae yest!!!
not that i got a bdae cake or anything..
but that fact that i actually spent my bdae running 10 runs!!!
and yea... having friends around me to celebrate !!! (=
mm.. okok..
after pe, went to bathe and stuffs...
then slack around skol for a while...
wahhhhh!!!
hear the finale- so hiong la...
screams and shouts... nearly went deaf..
hahz.. mm..
called kel and asked if he wanna go dinner lor...
hahz... first time he so nice lor...
usually when he's at home.. he wun come out le..
but hahz..
yest he came out just to eat lor..
hahz.. i'm so TOUCHED!!!
hahz.. yea... ate ajisen ramen with ling`, kel, wen er and linan..
hahz.. (= after eating we took neos!!!
ahzh..
so happy!!!! TOOK NEOS ON MY BDAE LEI!!!
happy is the gal named pearly.
ahzh...
ok la.... tenw e go home... mm.... smsed him somehting lor..
hazh..
but yea.. we both knew the results la..
so no need to say le..
mm.. then talked to marcus on the phone for 2 hr and 2 min..
damn funny la..
ok la.. peggy rushing me to the toilet le ...
gtg

wad did i do yest??
i forgot..
ahzh(=
mmm... today i made 2 new friends...
cynthia, wei jie and yong sheng..
hazh(=
yong sheng is so shuai!!!!!
i'm in love!!
hazh.. no la..
marcus know who i love most la hor..
right daddy???
ahhz.. mm.. okok... wah... gp notes damn thick sia..
hazh(=
mm... ok... went ot play.. and met joyce!!!(=
miss you jie..
hazh... mm... then she returned me my dict..
thanks jie
mm... ok... wen tot see doctor for my gastric..
apparently. it just suddenly attack... due to my past history of it..
sad sad..
=(
ok... went to meet sandy and ling`... sandy gave me a piglet balloon!!!
and gal gave me a piglet thingy too!!!
thanks gals(=
mm..
quite tired now..
dunno whether can see mum tmr not.. =(

missing him alot..
but upset wiht him..
sigh... why he always dao my calls and sms?
argh!!!

mm.. let me type out wad i wrote for the goal setting i handed in to mr kum
step 1:know thyself
my strength: taking initiative at times
my weakness: not voiving my opinions openly
my interests: playing piano, singing, hanging out wit my close friends, dancing
my values/beliefs/ ideals: rather to be honest and straightforwards than lying
principles i live by: "if a task is once began, never leave it till its done. be the labour great or small, do it well or not at all."

step 2:establish your goals- areas i need improvement in or can excel in
physically: to strive well for napfaand overcome my fear in heights during odac expedition
menallty: cope wiht mental stress esp durinf near majoy exams.
sociall7y: to be more sociable with people around me and to treasure my friends
emotionally: to cast br aside and to be happy thru out the year
spiritually: to attend church more regularly if i choose to be a christian
wad is my long term goal: to get ainto a uni and study an faculty in the social science. after which work a few years and then continue studies.. majoy in medical and music field.

my academic goals:
gp: E/D (mids) D/C(prelims) C/E(As)
maths: A/B (mids) A ( prelim) A (As)
chem: C/B (mids) B/A (prelim) A/B (As)
econs: S/E (mids) D (prelim) C ( As)
GSC: E/D (mids) c/B( prelim) B (As)

step 3: setting an action plan
wad is your fav temptation or distraction: conputer, tv, phone, NROPRINTS!!!

* the rest cant say... PRIVATE!!! *

mm.. went to study wiht ling and her cousin at woodlands lib..
a while later sandy and jason came..
hazh(=
first time see jason..
mm... ok.. then ling went ot her ah ma house to eat..but cindy came..
so yea..
me cindy sandy and jason slacked at the lib a hwile b4 going to take neos and eat..
hazh(=
then ling came back... we took neos again..
hazh... jason chao crappy lei..
anyway.. yea.. then we went to buy drink..
hazh... then the uncle keep asking sandy to produce ic..
ahzh...
in the end jason produce..
hahz.. so funny la..
then zao home le.. cos too late..
sigh.. cannot play games..
=(
but i still enjoyed myself today!!! (=
hazh
thanks gals and guy!!
ring ring!! thats his name..

ok... today is a dunno wad to say day..
hazh..
dint wanna wake up to go skol..
was darn tired... dunno why..
i guessed bcos i'm sick le ba..
mm... then had only maths... tut and lect followed by assembly and then ct...
hahz... slack la...
mm... then after skol rot until 3 plus like that..
i got do some work though..
hazh..
but not satisfied..
=( i kena ps lor.. sad sad...
waited in skol until so late for him la... but he left just like that..
sigh..nvm... mm... i finally had the courage to find mr yaw and ms lim..
but i guess afterall... i cant have 2 ccas..
its either odac or co..
sigh.. cos of irregular practice and therefore wun be able to hit the quota..
which means... if i join co... i wun have the record of being in odac this year...
haix..
wahhh... bf daoed me 2 times today lor...
mm... thankfully in the late afternoon you dint dao me... if not ah... wanna go strangle you liao..
ahzh(=
mm... oh did i mention wad mr kum wanted us to do for ct today...
first we had some crappy time..
had to guess some lame riddles..
thenhe talked to us abt how he studied and stuffs..
then we had to fill in a goal setting form..
wahhhh..
tough lor..
hazh... to fill in our strength and weaknesses... then others.. and expected grades for individual subjects.
phew... i dunno wad i did... forgot le..
hahz.. but yea... i rememered one thing... under emotions...
i thin i wrote something like cast of bgr..
hazh... i think i'm gonna do that... cos i know i can priortise my work with relationships..
i wun deny i will miss him alot alot..
but yea... i have 3 more days to luv and miss him.. b4 i'm gonna stop thinking abt it le..
sorry dear... i know my friends wun believe i will do this.. but yea.. this time i will...
was talking to mr kum abt my fear for econs juz now..
i'm really really afraid of that subject..
sigh... but he said i gotta discuss wiht my econs tchr... which is one of my odac tchr-in-charge..
hopefully i can stop fearing for that subject , if not i will restrict myself from it la.. =(

mm... today is weihan's and wang xuan's bdae
HAPPY BDAE TO YOU 2!!! (=
aishiteru oniichan....
shie asanadadeo dasa to

mood's arent really good..
was really upset with him initially when he dint wanna go study..
really really upset..
not that i wanan see him or anything..
but outta the many times i asked him to study with me and ling.. he dint come for any la..
so lazy lor...
nearly cried..
but i dint.. mm.... i' ma brave gal..
tolerating... heex... dun test my tolerance hor...
heex..
but thanks dear for calling me suddenly..really damn happy for the moment..
hahz..bu yea... i promised ling i wun talk to him or anything..
hazh... i did talk la... but dint talk much..
was having damn bad gastric..
not that i dint eat..
ate lotsa junk food..
2 ice-cream cone form macs..
did abit..
finally finished perodicity tut..
now i'm on group 2
ahzh..
sigh... i think of econs and i'm scared...
its the first time i ever fear so much for a subject... howhowhow?
i really dunno...
he's taking same combi as me.... but i dun dare ask him to coach me lei..
hazh. not that he's good though... but he understands it better than me!!
ahzh(=
argh!!! bdae coming.. but i end skol so late that day..
and mum wants me to go home after skol... cos she wanna bringme out..
=( friends? i wanna spend my bdae wiht them... sigh... maybe i shall go out for a while than meet mum.. (=
wad should i do abt my love-life now??? so complicated...
daddy(skol) ask me to think too much... as in yea... he knwos wad i mean..
but yea.. at times.. all these are jsut false hopes...
when it crashes down... it can really hurt lei!!!
i wanan knwo the truth..
daddy!!! i wanna tell him also... but i'm scared!!!!!
and pls hor... faster recover la... then we can go study...
then he will come along also lor...
hahz... and we can mahjong on fridays too!!!
ling was suggesting fri, maybe alternate.. we can ton over at his house..
then at night... i can go ling's house sleep while you sleep at his house... then you 2 wun get hong outta the room cos of me.. heex...
i really miss the good old times in dec..
hazh(=
wanna go back to then... not that we arent good now...
still perfect!!! but we can ton anytime we want le... then cant mahjong too much le... cos of studies.. and cca starting also..
argh!!!!
bf!!! i'm missign you la... never come find me today...
but cant blame you la... you so busy today!!!
but during my pe.. i bet you saw me right???
peggy kept laughing at us lor... cos we had to run so much..
then suan me say, " i'm not running" when she was trying to run my pace la.. =(
mm..
to that him...
hao xiang ni wor..
bu yao na me lan duo ke yi ma???
xiang jian ni...
hao xiang ni..
haix...
eh... uncle kel aka mao mao...
can you tell me if i should tell you somehting??
ahzh.. i know you will say yes right? if yo ugot read this entyr???
mm... tell me the honest answer.... then i'll consider...
hazh.. argh!!!!
confused... mood swing!!! argh!!!!
i wanna cry.. but i'm supposed to be happy.. wad should i do???

current news!!!
i have 165535.00 le..
whee!!!!!
compared to the initial 125k..
heex
alot alot..
but still gotta buck up and catch with teh rank 50th
okok..
today lesson was rather slack..
reminds me of last year's fri!!
cos fri we very slack de..
hahz..
but mr ang veyr good lor..
made us run 5 rounds for warm ups..
then take height an dweight..
and another 3 more rounds..
for our first PE lesson..
=(mm.. as for GP. we had an essay test le..
so fast..
thnakfully i got prepare my outline at home yest..
if not today i sure die..
ahzh..but i still wad i wrote is outta point..
sigh..
mm... ok... today dint go skol with delia..
I MISSED THE BUS!!!
sigh..
but thanks lover..
for waiting for me at the bus stop..
ahzh(=
mm... saw bf.. but yea... today we both busy..
so yea..(=
esp him... busy man!!
ahzh


seeing him really makes me happy!
just wanna see him for as long as i can..

today first day of skol
was damn excited that i dint sleep the whole night..
heex..
ok... woke up at 6 today..
bf dint wake me up la..
hahz
guessed he overslept also..
ahzh(=
m... ok... met delia to go skol.. whee!!!
today quite relaxing..
changed chem and gp tchr so far..
hahz..
mm... got mr tong for chem.. and mr ariffin for gp.
mm... dunno why mr tong let us see his indo pic...
but we started gp lessons..
quite interesting!!!
ahzh(=
mm....
ok... met up with kel and marcus for bowling after skol..
at cheveron..
ahzh(=
ex ex... played 3 games. and its $7.2
marcus played 4 games and kel played 5
apparently they are gonna have a competition in may
ahzh
(=
mm... then they said that i'm better then some pj gal bowlers..
wahhh
i'm like so lan la..
my best today is only 73!!!
hazh
i had lotsa fun playing..
hahz(=
dint even play seriously la.
hahz... got left hand and stoopid stunts..
ahzh(=
funfun,..
then went to imm for dinner?
eat la..
then i went to buy my stuffs
ahzh
after which we left..
marcus wasnt feeling well.. so he cabbed home.
then kel wanted to give em a lift to woodlands..
but i dint wan...
so i took mrt back..
then changed and went to meet ling,..
ahzh..studied a while then went home..
ahzh.
i'm so happy today..
got s08,s09,s15 timebtable..
ahzh..
mm... okok... my day was a pretty good one..
at least i fulfilled one day of being happy..
362 more days of happiness..
i finally ge tto see him in skol!!!
whee!!! happy is the gal named pearly!!

in approximately 5 hours.. i'll be in j2 le.
sigh.. sad sad..
i dun wan that to happen..
somehow i have this weird thinking of not going to skol but yet still studying..
i rather do that though
azh..
funny hur..
oh wells.
just had a short talk with him..
whee...i'm like super high now...
on cloud nine
hahz... anwyay..
kel!!! i got the blue toy...
muahahz..
dun give you!!heex..
no la.... mm... will see you right?
ahhz.needa fidn you to give you some stuffs.. hazh(=
dun be late wor...
night..

i just did a new skin...
and just read wh's chat log..
its abt our past..
wahhh..
there's just this one which i really feel something..
indeed i owe you big..
hazh... really really big..
mm.. in sec 4, you're just there for me..
even though we always bicker?
but yea.. thanks for trying to come in again to change me..
i guessed i was foolish then to suddenly give you the red signal.
(=
mm... from which until now..
i haven really talk to you as happily as i did..
even though i went church a few times... think 3?
but we never got to speak to each other..
hazh.. time really is a key factor..
even though you knew how exactly i felt back then..
and i never need to speak much to you..
its really just a memory..
i've learnt.
never grieved over wad is over..
but be happy that it once happened.
i'm happy..
that he's once my kimura shun
that i once had an enjoyable week wiht him..
and of course the way he taught me how to eat sushi.
he's really a great influence..
thanks..

here its for languan..
i'm not sure if lg will ever get to see this.
oh wells.
sorry lg..
i dint know that 2006 will be a year where we part..
for that reason.
if i had knew you were that sensitive towards that issue..
i rather you enevr know.
or rather.. instead of losing you.. i will do the otherwise.
but nevertheless.
you were once my korkor..
and you will always be my kor in my heart..
though you chose that way, i respect your decision.
but one day if you need a listening ear, i'll always be there for you
(= also wanna wish you all the best with your gal
i jsut wanna say i'm sorry that i've let you down.
in many many ways.. from studies to personal.
gomenasai.

joseph.
mm... its already the past..
you once wished for me to be ahppy again..
now i am..
hopefully you will be happy too..
cos thru out the many months..
i have never heard you say you're happy
mm...
sorry for holding back so long..
(=
you're still my friend..
and of course i wish one day you will talk to me again..
and have fun like b4..
hoping everything resumes like b4..
with the only exception that we're no longer tgt..
(=
pearly's a happy ahppy gal...
jo must be a happy happy boy too!(=
take it as its one of my bdae wish..
(=
now i dedicated one to you... i'm left with 2.

whoa... long long time since i come online..
hazh.. miss my internet sooo much..
lots and lots have happened..
hahz...
happy and sad...
both ahppened..
hahz..
mm... i also dunno how to say.
oh wells..
homework first ba..
i'm left with a few ques of tut to finish hte suppsoed homework..
but i need to stress myself even more..
and the fact i haven touched econs?
i'm super lag la..
lack of time..
ok..
fun time...
i realy enjoy my holiday to the fullest this vacation..
though i dint go overseas. besides philippines and sentosa..
i made use of it to hte fullest to really slack when its needed.. and work hard when needed too..
not forgetting..
i've been playing my stock challenge game..
hahz..
and forming a new clique and study and mahjong..
really love this gp of friends man..
hahz..
we always tease each other..
bully each other..
but we never got angry wiht one another b4.
all the angriness and stuffs.. wil all disappear de.. (=
ok..
since today is the first..
i wanna wish a few pple happy bdae and belated bdae..
31st- ash and cindy
1st- uncle law.
happy bdae..
mm...wad have i done in 2006?
- getting abd results.
- getting a boyfriend in jan
- having an eye candy
- falling for another guy in our first month
- getting 2 jobs
- going to malaysia for mountain climbing
- going to philippines got ocip and vocalno climbing
- going to ubin
- having lots of odac
- having lots of friends in jae and pae
- knwoing superanimal clique and dong li jiao ta che clique
- putting down my ex
- falling for someone
- learnign how to mahjong
- learning how to study hard

ok la... alot alot of things happened..
now.. we invite the new 2007..
may i have lots of friends... lots and lots. like 2007 friends..
heex..
mm... my resoultion.. is never to give up wad i aim for..
and strive for the best in my majors..
so that i can safely study the course i wann.. be it locally or overseas.. (=
i dun wanna get involved in bgr as much as i can le..
dun wanna stress myself with all these le..
all i just wanna know is that those pple i love be happy...
and i'll be satisfied ..
this is quite a long entry..
sorry..
but i really miss blogging alot alot..
hazh
(=
missing him too
but yea..
oh... marcus told me wad they talked abt that night..
but he dint tell all cos i think he promised kel not to say?
i'm not sure..
but yea..(=
i've knwo wad i wanted to knwo le..
somehow i remember them all..
(= amazing..
thank buddy..
ahzh(=
and pls// dun call me da sao..
i'm not your da sao..
and its so wrong!!!
azhh...nono...
ahhh.. later kel see.. he kill you and bully me even more..
hazh(=
i'm crapping... whee!!!!

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