Tuesday, February 23, 2010 Y 6:06 PM
mm... ok.. after hearing wad the promise was..it was kinda unacceptable...
not about you. but abt wad you had promised...
mm.. i kinda really hate someone now... even if its someone i dun even know...
haix.. i'm sorry... but also felt that i really wanna love you even more now...
to help you get out of it..
mm.... argh...
to thinki even thought you might be one who will ditch me after the patch...
looks like i really have to reflect on myself on how well/not well i've been treating you...
sorry toutou..
Y 1:12 AM
guess you really dun understand wad the meaning of a relationship is ba.
so wad if you tried chasing me back after we break up and you dint do that to your ex..
does that mean that i have to allow you not telling me wads the hell is going on that you promised not to say?
even if its gonna sour our relationship. you wun tell me right?
if there's this one thing you aint gonna tell me... how many more are you gonna keep frm me?
your'e fulfilling your promise made to your ex. then wad am i to you? someone that can allow you to keep things from me ma?
so wad if there's supposed to be trust in one another? aint couples ought to be frank with each other? if i dun ask, its fine with me if you dun say. but you really understand wad i wan ma? even if i dun ask, i hope you will tell me everything about you... inclusive of your past.
but you dun wan me to know your past, how am i supposed to trust you?
i told you everything about my past w/o you asking..
ask yourself... did you tell me as much as how much i told you?
you wan to fulfil your promise at the expense of your relationship ma? its fine with me. if you wan it, i'll grant your wish.. but mind you... dun ever come looking for me ever again...
i mean wad i say
Sunday, February 21, 2010 Y 1:17 PM
sometimes i wonder why some pple just dun grow up.
OK. so that person tagged my tag board, talking about a friend of mine.
think about this.. so wad?
or rather put it this way. i dun really care wad you write, if you wanna insult me or wad-so-ever. wad i care is you make use of my friend's name. has he offended you in anyway? why should you use his name?
you said i confessed to him? since when? any evidence? lets just IMAGINE i did, so wad? come on la.. its been like 3 years? who doesn't have crushes? i bet you do as well. are you expecting your good friends to expose you as well? talking about you of wad happened like yearns of years ago?
uh huh... mean not sound correct..
who cares?
a tag board is meant for pple to communicate and understand each other better, or for friends to tag, understanding how you've been doing all these while. esp for friends who haven met up for years. its not for you to abuse the usage of tag boards to type nonsensical stuffs.
in case you're acting blur about wad I'm typing... I'M REFERRING TO YOU- NAME
Y 1:16 AM
hey... its the 7th day of new year...
wanna wish everyone who still reads my blog a happy bdae...
in case you're wondering why, it's REN RI today. (=
this year's new year is a rather sad new year...
not that there's no visiting, but vdae falls tgt with new year...
which means... its just a day with family and not with valentine. true enough, my valentine is not in singapore to celebrate the first vday with me.
or maybe i should put it the other way. he spent the first few hours of vdae with me. (=
mm...
ok... so my visiting to friends and relative house has ended last night at elvina's house with pink surfers gathering. though i've lost like 10+ bucks, i'm still happy. cos its been long since we met up, ever since after city venture ba.
its a nice start after a long end. (= and now its time to mug again.
mug like i've never before. i think i should put in more effort than i've put into JC.
esp to the 2 subject i'm not really good in... plus feel so stranger to it.
finally after i start school like 6 month, i get to study with kor @ ah ma's house. got distracted by the canto show, but still good start with 3+ short ques of POA. good job pear. you still got like 18 more chaps to go.. whoots...
study study... no more MJ and thinking of gonig to resort world until may...
Thursday, February 18, 2010 Y 3:33 PM
yest i cried..
told toutou about my past.
but then again glad that i brought them up.. cos i nearly forgotten wad kinda guy i used to like.
(=
whether it was meant to be or not, we all were fated to be together.
cos i strongly believe in fate..
how me and jo fated to get strawberry tofu.
how me and brian fated to meet at bowling alley.
how me and toutou fated to sing the same song..
aint they all fate?
at times i really wonder if my decision will ever be wrong.
but whether it is or not, it doesnt really matter.
cos i've to learn to put the past down, treasure the present and embrace the future.
true that i really thought of going back to the past and live in the past again. esp so when the one i cared still cares so much for me.
but wads past has past.
there's a reason why its the past and a reason why we'll suddenly break up.
even if in the future i really regret, i'll just have to learn that it was a mistake done and move on.
thats life ba.
not that i'm not loving the guy in my life now.
i'm loving him... more and more each day.
so much so that i mind loving him.
no one can really understand how much i dun have confidence in relationship.
so wad if i once liked many guys.
i'm still not confidence in relationship. afraid of loving someone wholeheartedly.
cos of wad had happened back then.
but i dunno why this time i wanna love him wholeheartedly, faithfully..
even if i know i should protect myself from being hurt once again.
even if i know by doing so, i might once again lose the person i love with my heart.
even if i know my family prefers someone else to him.
Monday, February 15, 2010 Y 11:33 PM
this is the first CNY that me and ben dint tag team play tgt...
and whoots... he won 40 bucks and i won 14 bucks on the first day..
been long since i won during chinese new year..
mm... CNY spent like usual, going to relatives house for visiting.
only difference is that this year my heart has flown to malaysia while i'm with my family.
hahahz..
maybe another difference is that i'm worrying abt prelims during CNY ba..
haix...
*prays*
another sad thing...
my drama series are not out yet...
wonder when will the last ep of autumn's concerto be out..
and when will the other eps of down with love out..
Wednesday, February 03, 2010 Y 1:53 AM
have problems really been solved???
have troubles really gone away???
just whn i thought it had, i realised its not..
had a chat with neth...
talked a little of our little past...
everything seemed long ago and naive...
but we all grow from everything..
and i'm thankful from that past..
now its the present that even you dunno wad to do and gave weird suggestions..
ahhaz..
thanks ah boy...
(=
mm... just saw joyce blog and facebook..
her pic really made me miss my 21st...
i really should have called all my friends... even if there aint enough food...
i miss meeting up with most of my friends..
its all of a sudden... when you really miss your friends...
i'm 21... should be more mature when i'm dealing with such issues i'm facing now...
guess i should really make a logical decision and not really follow my heart since i really wanna settle down...
maybe i should..
haix... if only i'm guided out of my troubles...
i wanna be my old normal cheerful self with lotsa of friends again...
