Saturday, January 30, 2010 Y 1:17 PM
benben misses toutou...
mm... guess i was beyond coldness to him yest...
so cold to an extend that he dint board the bus with me, just leaving me to go home myself..
and he himself went settlers..
went prawning last night... prawning session really cheered me up alot..
disturbing brian and prawning super huge prawns..
fighting with china pple for good spots..
hahaz...
setting up of the fire which failed many times due to the urber strong wind..
and finally settling down for wonderful prawn feast...
though not alot... only 19 prawns... but it was awesome.. esp when you're about to sleep, you get to ear wonderful prawns... juice and crunchy... hahaz... (= plus the chilli... whoots..
ok.. supposed to teach today..
but i've got absolutely no idea wad i did to my own ear that its hurting a big deal now...
to play safe, gonna see a doctor...
its really painful and felt heavy...
thanks to mx, who last min can take over my class...
(=
felt bad towards him...
Friday, January 29, 2010 Y 10:42 AM
1000 posts le.... its been long since i tried to hit this number... (=
oh wells..
so things have come to a halt?
maybe, maybe not..
yest met him the last time ba??? since we've started the game...
things are definitely not gonna be the same anymore...
but i stil hope that some things will be better...
hope, hoping...
i know you will work hard towards our common goal..
i'll try my best too...
once i pick myself up...
right now... i'm jsut a useless piece of junk that ought to be thrown into the rubbish bin...
if not... someone please wake me up from all the nightmares...
its really tormenting.. i'm feeling suffocated...
and all i could do is helplessly cry all night... =(
Thursday, January 28, 2010 Y 12:57 PM
so yea... started "the game' today..
1 month...
terrible feeling...
somehow i regretted saying that...
but it jsut shows how much you really mean to me...
now i ust wish i dint start the game with you...
sorry...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Y 4:45 PM
its been realy long since i really used my blogger...
not that i have another blogger... but just that i totally had no time to blog about life..
was attched... but not anymore..
emotions of the heart is really a troublesome thing...
i have to admit i've fell into that fearsome trap.. and i'm still trying to figure how to really free myself...
things haven been moving smoothly...
there are things that i really cannot tahan about him, but yet again... i dunno why i still feel for him that much...
but the more i feel for him... the more it made me colder towards him... but its just a way to chase him away totally... and yea... somehow i've somewhat succeeded in doing it..
yet again... i dunno if my feelings for him is deeper than wad i had for my past...
maybe the best way afterall is to really leave both for good..
maybe lets play a game called " the game"
we're all gamers... this should be an interesting game for all of us..
its also a way to test our feelings for one another..
this game only has 2 rules...
1) Do not contact each other for 1 month..
2) if you break the rule, anyone who broke it... cannot contact that person for 2 months..
maybe this game can really let me sort things out calmly...
Monday, January 04, 2010 Y 9:35 AM
so the new year is here...
thats fast...
at least i think its gonna be a new year...
at that hateful 2009 is over...
2009 was a terrible year...
many things happened...
unhappy things happened...
haix..
but at least its over...
hopefully this new year will be more promising...
anyway... so this year..... practically started the year at settlers.... worked there throughout the season.. counted down christmas there... counted down new year there..
mm.... and had my first tarot card reading there too... (=
read generally for the year, as well as me and mx..
mm.... the general reading is gonna be a hard year for me emotionally... but still smooth on overall, ending the year with a big bang...
feb there will be something that will cause an adverse selection on my emotions until aug...
wonder wad that is gonna be...
nov is a month to beware as there will be problems with family..
haix..
on overall... dun think back on the past and have faith in the present and future.. enjoy wadever you have right now..
mm...
so here is my late wishes to everyone...
happy new year to everyone!!!! (=
to all my friends...
thanks for being a wonderful friend in 2009... esp to all my SIM OG mates, FOC AND FOD.
and to XO TEAM, esp brian...
special message to special friends..
brian: thanks for being there whenever i'm feeling low... i'm sorry i've let you down. and prob caused you your greatest sorrows... i'm sorry... but still... thanks for everything you've donw for me in the past 2+ years....
pam: thanks for being such a wonderful friend. although you're at aussie... you're missed... (=
and thanks manys for all the advise you give me... (= because there's you, pear's wad she is today... (=
mx: thanks for appearing in my life... that funny night made us wad we are now... (= thanks for being there for me..... though i've been tearing alot cos i miss the past, you've always been there for me... thanks bby
