Thursday, December 17, 2009 Y 11:49 AM
after so long... i'm still scared of mx's parent... scared to approach them... scared to say hi... now i wanna invite them to my bdae party.. but i'm scared too... =(
been at his house quite frequently cos we've been preparing for the big day...
at the same time i've been sick for the past 2 weeks... going to be 3 le...
wonder when my cough, flu and throat pain will be gone...
bby has been cooking for me the pear soup... initially was really bitter... =( but later on he added suger...
(=
busy busy...but then again... cos we've been spending too much time tgt, it sems as though i've neglected my og mates... such that now i seem to be almost excluded in most of their convo and events... besidez the xmas one...
feel damn sad.. cos to them i've ps them for bf... but bby knows that i really wanna spend the time with them...
all the events, CV, CS, dodgeball, i really wanna join...
just that i couldnt due to personal reasons... =(
now everytim i see their fb adn all their convo, i've got no idea wad are they talking about... and everytime i see the new notification... somehow i feel really sad...
but wad can i do???
wanted to go school for tham's lesson...
but i overslept.. cos i was really tired... went paya lebar, suntec yest... to get things for preparation...
mood: semi-sad
Sunday, December 13, 2009 Y 11:55 AM
i'm finally recovering... though all my medicine's gone... but still haven fully recover...
hope i'll be fine soon!! (= whee... this week's a crazy week... no work but lots of shopping and preparation to be done...
now i'm doing gift wrappings... hahaz....
i'm so glad... that though i'm sick.. he's there for me almost 24/7..
or maybe i should say its like 24/5???
thanks bby for looking after me and making take my medicine.. (=
Sunday, December 06, 2009 Y 2:06 PM
haven been feeling very well recently..
flu, fever, nose bleed and emotion swings.
haix...
i guess i'm having mild depression la...
ahhahz.. (=
ok... so worked really like siao lately... just to earn extra income for my 21st birthday..
alot of pple asked me if i have a wishlist...
wells... of course i do have.. but i think it might be too ex for pple to get for me...
so dun really expect much.. (= besides, i never wanted to celebrate my bdae, but in the end prepare and got myself troubled over it.
haix...
ok... if you guys wanna know wad they are, here's the list...
but i still dun hope anyone to spend on me... esp my dearest..
Her wishlist:
- Iphone/ i touch
- prince squash racket ( yellow and orange)
- customise crumpler (black and pink/ shades of pink)
- DKNY sleek watch
- new laptop
- tiff and co key from mum and dad
- exclusive gift from bby. (= *use telepathy*
Tuesday, December 01, 2009 Y 12:13 AM
its been long since i blogged in here...
at times when i'm really upset... i just wanna blog everything down...
but i dun have the time and by the time i'm free, i forgot wad i really wanna type..
sometimes i really wonder..
are all couples like wad we are??
do all couples think of wad we're thinking??
dun you realised that all along we're just playing mind guesses?
isnt it really tiring?
i really dunno...
is it normal not to have any topic on the phone?
cos i dun seem to have any thing to talk to you.
its either that or i'll just be the one talking and feel as though i'm talking and answering myself.
i hate that feeling...
makes me feel as though i'm alone even though i'm not alone.
sometimes i really hope you're by my side..
but even though i know you cant be there by me when i need you.. i accepted it yet i still feel upset.
at times i really feel that disapppearing is the best option for everyone..
but yet i cant bear to... and i know the longer i wait to untie the knot, the more i'll hurt others.
but then again... i really dunno wad i'm supposed to do.
maybe i really do compare ba..
maybe i haven really put my past down..
but so wad?? i was happy with you.. and now at times i'm still happy with you too..
maybe cos we've been seeing each other too often... or maybe we've crossed that line which i've set.. i'm not as happy as i was with you before..
maybe its cos its really tiring to play mind guesses... but its you right?
maybe..
i always hope for a future for us.. i still hope that the day will come..
but does hoping for something really do come true?
birthday wishes never comes true.. wads more for hoping for something out of nowhere?
how exactly am i feeling??
i can only say...
my love for you isnt as much as before...
but somehow i still placed you as my 1st priority..
1st over my family also...
how sad can my life be...
haix...
