been busy with SRC and schoool stuffs...
finally today i understood my basic concept of poa.
thanks kor!!! (=
hahaz.... but too bad i'm not good at it to teach you...
mm.... i'm starting to love my SRC handball peers!!! (=
cheers... maybe cos its the bond and all the meetings and the MJ....
and yea... thanks minxiang for helping me hold my lappie throughout, even at mac la...
hahahz...
and doremon!!! hahah....
that was random yet funny!!!
muahahaha
(=

hahz....
i'm loving my handball peers...(=
lotsa of fun joy and laughter even during meetings...
hahahz..
mm.... and lotsa of common interest!!! MJ.. haha..
i guess i'm becoming a gu gui... but its for fun de... (= with good friends around...
hahaz whee!!!! (=

pear just sent her dearest friend off at the airport...
felt sad and nearly cried...
its the 2nd person she sent off this year to aussie...
and both of them are impt to her in her life...
=(

pammy!!!
pear will miss you greatly...
thankfully there's this thing called skype and webcam!!!
anyway... really thanks alot for being my pillar of support for the past 3.5 years???
hahz... if there's ever this thing as having 2 bestfriends... you'll be my 2nd bestfriend...
hahaz... but its ok.... you're always my gf... (=
life had been fun with you and xo team...
esp all the outings to your house... all the mj-ing for fun session... the terrible studying when we were in school... the mla times... the crying times at MOE excel fest... then all the outings...
i wun ever forget them,...
just hope to see you soon when you come back singapore...
remmeber this k???
whenever you're feeling upset or need a talking partner... msn or email me.... as long as i'm online, not busy with work... i'll put my time aside for you... (=
when you're back in singapore... i'll make time for you...
cheers... dun tear anymore yea?? crying too much aint good for your health... (=
we wun be gone...
smile for you know we're always supporting you mentally..
anyway... hoep you liked the little gift i got for you...
the message on it is exactly how i felt... (=

miss you

fri night was pam's farewell party at lunar.
yest was darren's birthday celebration at SAF seaview chalet.
damn shagged!!!
today sending pam off at night...
wahhhhh
this week too intereting le..
ahhz...
mm...fri i went to a asian fusion KTV pub/club...
whoots.... i never thought i would ever step into one again..
ahhz.. but i did!!
hmm.... danced the whole night.... and then went home tipsy... hahz...
alot of them were drunk.. including pam herself...
hahhaz...
mm....
sat... met kenneth at 3pm to get the book and stuff... then delia and hui min came to do the book...
then leonard and tiffany joined...
after that diana came.... went home and then back again...
we actually made the OG book for darren from 4 plus until 8plus...
OMG!!!!
hahz... even jiesheng also dl us.... cos take so long...
sorry...
mm.. drank alcohol again... played mj. played guitar heros...
mj was horrible...
i actually lost to isaiah, kenneth and leonard tan...
total lost 30++
haix... when will i recoup my losses???
ahhaz.. dint sleep until this morning when we go changi village for breakfast...
actually fell asleep while queuing for the nasi lemak...
and leonard "tried" to steal an egg...
but was so weird.. cos he cant do anything to the egg...
cant keep it in his pocket... except to hold it with care in his hands..
hahz...
mm.... slept my way home... and finally i'm back!!!
gonna zzz le...
nite pple...

i hate today.. cos i dun wan pam to leave...
but its for her own good... we all know that...
and i'll still give her my blessings...

i finally told him wadever i thought i heard that night...
apparently he himself dun even know wad he said...
hahaz.... funny porky!!
anyway.... cheer up!!!
if a monkey face can ever make you smile... i will do it... Just for you!!(=

i've been lost on my studies recently...
guessed i really played too much... and focus of other aspects in life than studies...
gonna readjust my priorities again...
mm.... finally did a little of my pbf.... gonna try writing an essay out soon... (=
ganbatte neh!!!

anyway.... good news for HANDBALL PEEPS!!!
we've clinched our first SPONSOR!!!
and i've gotten hold of the vouchers already!!
whee!!!! i'm so damn excited about it that i helped you guys cut the vouchers...
hahz...
pearly=imba???? by clarence.... no la... like wad mas said... i'm just too enthu about it...
which is why i'm your secretary right???? muahahahz...
ok... enough of crap...

pearly aint exactly happy... but she's looking on the bright side of life..
thats wad make her happy most of the time...
even if she's angry on the surface...
she's happy....
happy to be able to show her emotions...
(=

i like wad wenfang write on the paper,,
every 60 seconds spent upset is 1 min of happiness lost...

there were times when i really just wanna put my damn pride down and patch with you...
really there were times...
my believe to each relationship that had ended was that thing can be changed so long as it happens within 3 months...
but it'll never happen anymore...
similar nights have happened and the same outcome jsut happened...
all because all i wan now is a new lifestyle. i dun wan the same thing to be happening all over again and me getting upset all over again..
and yea... i thought you had forgotten wad day 20th was...
cos i kept asking you wad time you ended... and i wanted you to pei me...
but your answer was you dunno wad time end and you cant go out for midnight bowling...
i was jsut sensitive enough to think that you dint wanna spend time with me...
so be it... i was sad and angry... but wad right do i have????
i'm no longer your gf... its just a special occasion that you never had forgotten..
wells.... jsut too bad that all had happened la...
mm... ok... so this morning you told me you aint free until 130pm...
seriously i thought cos your popo cooked lunch for you thats why...
wth!!! turns out that you were playing bball with kh... and wads worse... bo jio... you know i like playing.. and its so damn bloody near... even if i un reply your sms... can still text over right???
rahhh!!! ok... my bad that i shoo you off... and started crying myself on the bus... happy???

and yea... i've made my decision that... i really should break contact with you... you know your smses are enough to make me cry, anywhere anytime.

today's quite a slack day for me at work... hahz..
(= no customers... therefore me and matt slacked the whole 5 hrs gettng paid...
ahhz... (=
mm... and the fun part was that matt and i were havng fun teasing and bullying each otehr...
we were like semi quarrelling in the kitchen during closing time too..
ahzh.. (=
mm...ok... so nice matt offered to give me a lift home.... with my life at risk...
felt so paiseh... so its kinda not really in the way for him...
plus... his mum is there too... hazh.. .(=
but thanks thanks!!! (=
his mum was really friendly!!! and yea we all had nice chats in the car...
oh did i mentioned that i overslept and couldnt go for lesson in the morning???
ahzh... (=
missed 3 lessons this week le...
hahz..
poa and 2 pbf lessons
gonna buck up!!!
and yes!!! i kinda love going out with my mj kakis...
ahzh... (=
loved the trip to sentosa... had a lot of fun... in the event of it... most of them got sunburnt, blisters and abrasion...
but sad to say.. i dint kena.... only had a super distinct tan mark... =(

ok... jsut back from supper with brian... hahz...
thanks boon!!!!
ok... went to work today...and was totally busy like nobody's business...
gosh... mm... and teh pple there are so damn f-ing bitchy and bastard...
dunno how to describe them la...
not all though... many were super nice pple... just for that few black sheeps...
rahhh!!! ok... so i slogged in a great 5 hrs...
and finally home to rest..
totally shagged to study... was having headach... now finally fulfilled my stomach's wishes by having great supper with great companion...
hahzh.. (=
seriously... you're the best man!!! just a sms from me... you really come down find me...
(=
thanks

mm... woke up pretty early wanting to study...
but ended up just playing fb applications..
argh!!!
ok.. went comex yest... bought mum a new keyboard and mouse set.. hope she like it...
bought myself a bogman bag... hahz.. its so cute.. and its similar to crumpler... just that cheaper...
hazh.. (=
mm... bought a textbook in school too.. total spenditure was huge!!!
hahaz... gonna claim my textbook money from dad liao...
mm... anyway...
been quite sianx recently... later after school... gonna camp either in school or home liao... to mug a little while before going out again...
maybe going comex once again... accompany pam and then prawning at night...
i'm so looking forward to it!!! (= whee!!!!

today's a super duper long day.... guess i'm gonna rest soon..
mm... ok.. i actually overslept this morning... nearly cabbed down... but lucky jiesheng ask me take my time...
kinda slept during poa lesson.... then kinda slept on econ lect too...
then had 3 hr of long break.... played bastard dai di until 4 plus... then slowly walk to np makan place...
eat subway and waffle.... chit chat and gossip...
then walked back to school and settle down at the canteen watch tv... until 615pm then walk to the room.... saw jie sheng, leonard khoo, delia, marcus and meng jie...
hazh... stired alittle of shit...
then went for meeting...
after meeting had dinner with some sporties... (=
wei ming asked how i think of our committee???
mm... fun loving bunch of pple... (=
at least for now no politics... so i'm quite glad...

started my day by going to settlers and coming home cos gave my shift up to someone...
was not feeling well... =(
and my leg was hurting alot... cos i had to wear jean with a wound... damn sian...
after going home... rest a while.... decide to go school to study/ maybe crash jaren's lect...
so studied econs...
and finally!!!!
started my engine alittle and got my peers into thinking really hard to answer my queries... but we were still unable to solve that econ question...
after much attempt...
got hungry... so went beauty world to eat..
dint know there got nice food until jie sheng, kevin and nicholas brought me there...
hahz.. (=
mm... after eating.... suddenly we decided to play mj at jie sheng's house...
so off we started calling our kakis...
and tada.... joyce, shawn, kevin and nicholas staying at jie sheng's house tonight... while i cannot stay over cos i'm a guai gal... (=
hahaz.... but not bad... won 10 bucks... (=
since kenneth cannot come out... i shall be nice and give him a treat next time...
and since i ps brian tonight... i shall be nice and treat him ice cream too... (=
whee!!!

ok.. gonna blog before i go do my tut...

wah sian... i thought my fall was small...
but sad sia... since its at the knee there... i'm like a bai ka now...
this morning supposed to go for src handball de...
but in teh morning i couldnt even walk... shit!!! =(
so i completely missed the meeting today...
sadded... was actually looking forward to going de...
but due to my negligence and my clumpsiness..
i fell during frisbee training yest and scrape my skin...
then my team mates stepped on me...
gg... left ankle and knee cui...
ok... afternoon limped myself to meet brian and then down to SP to support my seniors!! (=
whee... i dint make a wrong choice...
SIM ULTIMATE FRISBEE IS THE BEST!!!!
even though in the end we only won 2nd... its damn good!!!
at least we beat the 2 local unis!!! (=
smu and nus i think... hahz...
now dun come telling us cos you're in local uni thats why you all need to study harder...
ahhz.. (= cos we mug hard and play hard too!!!
hahaz.. (=
okok... then after the finish their semi-finals... we left for queensway... need to find quotations for jacket/woolie-hoodie, my fbt tee, frisbee, my sling bag and ah di's present..
whee... out of 5 i complete 3...
sling bag dun have the one i wan..
as for frisbee damn colourful la...
hahz... (=
ok... fruitful trip but spent my salary away liao...

funniest part is here...
we walked all the way to take 963 home...
then finally aftera super super long wait... 963 finally came...
then we moved to the back... saw darren... talked a while only to find out he's going vivo...
but i'm going home ( opp direction)
then he said its the wrong direction... the reaction was damn funny!!!
so in the end ... we alighted at the next stop to cross the road home...
then received his sms " haha, blur blur!! "
win liao... we waited so long but never check the board...
hahaz...

ok... gonna go do my tut liao...
*postscript: i dint mean to ask you f off my life... i'm really sorry about it..
but why are you so protective over her yet claim there's nothing going on?

wahh... totally shagged from frisbee today...
hahz... (= played mini game then play actual game...
whoots.... sweat everything out...
tired but happy...
hazh... mmm.... this week jie sheng and gang dint come... but darren and augustine

ok... i kinda got out of hand yest. was nearly screaming at my fone.
argh!!!
also dunno why i got so agitated... i calmed myself down by playing the piano yet it dint help...
damn!!! talked to my bao beis. but i'm still feeling that shitty...
ok.. but the good thing is i managed to get a good sleep...
and not think of mj tiles in my head..
heng never go play mj for the 3rd day... or else the mj tiles will really stand up and stomp at me...
phew.. (=
mm.... chatted with clarence... so.... src sports meeting confirm this sat hor??? (=
and omg... president and year 3 will be coming too!!! gosh... scary man... but thankfully i dun have to teach le... phew (=
cant wait to play handball again... and hopefully see mr yaw!!!!

something's seriously wrong with my desktop...
sometimes can use internet... sometimes cannot...
haix...
ok.. i just got a double blow today... more to come???
haix...
anyway... i really got no idea why neth will say that to me.. if only i know...
haix,...
plus. are all guys the same??? their attitude towards gal are always changing. 3 days ago we're still happily drinking and yea talking normally...
3 days later, its like i've offended him like that...
like wtf..
and yea.. how am i supposed to know that the world is so small that you know joyce right??? and how am i to know she knows you're mr eleventh right??? i dun go around telling pple all these wad..
you asked me not to thin too much about you and ziyan then... i believed you... but now...
forget it la...
2nd blow.. dun wanna talk abt it le...
all i can say is wadever i do or how long i wait also no use le.. =(
now i dun even thin i can face him in school...
sorry sze han... i guess i might be leeching on you to avoid him instead of you leeching onto me..

yea... at night meet tooty.. but was a sudden thing... cos i woke up only at 8 when he finished bathing.. so yea... meet him for dinner...
rare chance that he's sick... cos i'm always the one who's sick..
so this time took the chance to send him home instead of the other way round... and yea... sent his mummy a funny sms.... guess his mum must have laughed at him when he reached home..
take care yea...
and thanks for that talk...
at least i know all along you knew wad was going on... then i wun feel that bad...
but still... its also cos you knew wads going on, that made it even impossible anymore..
cos afterall... i cant face up to it...
and yea... its been a month. and you're still there to support me...
esp whenever i'm not happy... you're just there to pei me play jubeat and talk cork...
thanks alot.. (=

soon i'll be fine... not now but soon...

it been long since i've abandoned this blog...
took quite some time to log into here...
haix...
this time round, i'm really depressed...
i know nobody comes into here le.. so it should be safe to write all my feelings down..
i had 4 bfs.
among all 4, my 3rd treats me the best, but i dint cherish my 2.5 years with him... thats why i chose to broke up with him...
among all, i cried the most for my 4th... but until now... he's still the one that i love most.. despite all the cries... i still hope for a chance with him.. though now i know its impossible le..
after today, hearing from wad kor's interpretation is and from a guy's pov on this matter, mx no longer loves me le.. everything that he said are just excuses to get over with this rls..
now, i'm by myself le... i'd given all my friends up for him in school... i hardly meet my family cos i wanna spend time with him..
now that everything had happened this way.. i'm all alone by myself to move on... yet i still have to see him everyday cos of classes... haix...
i really just wished the happy days will come again... this time i really will cherish him... i just wan a chance.. =(

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