Baracuda guys!!!
i'm so glad... its finally here...
tonight... lets meet 8+9pm???? can can??
gonna drink till we drop.... hahz..

sick and tired of life... but wad can i do???
life still goes on...
i cried, teared... but its not gonna help... i know
i got my bestie upset cos i was too sad... cos i hang up his call..
sorry zz... i'm really not in the mood to talk...
but i'm still glad you're there for me...
trying to talk me out...
but seriously... suicidal is just in my mind now... nothing but that...
i even imagine how i can do that already...
nice death, jump off the building with my fav heart pillow.
terrible death, walk towards the highway and jsut dash out of no where...
death can never be found... kill myself in the forest...
whoots... which one should i choose???

ok... so it has been 2 days since we broke up...
first night was really sucky... we both teared in each other's arm..
but yea... hopefullly things will get better between you and me...
so yest we met up with jon for dinner...
guess he still dint know abt this...
so he casually remarked on when we're getting married...
oops...
sorry to disappoint you...
but i dun think its gonna happen liao...
but i'm really sad that you'll be leaving next feb...
this means xo team will be down by 2... 1 from kari and 1 from jon...
haix... 1 less person to bicker with me...
haix...
ok... i haven been well again...
been crampin the whole of yest and today... but insisted to go to work... cos i DUN WAN SOME PEOPLE to say i 'm always on mc... so i came to work and be useless at work...

i felt so shi bai...
had cramps... came to work cos i dun wan them to say i always take MC...
so i came to work with the bad cramps...
and in the end.. cos of it.. i cant go for meeting...
so its like no diff from taking MC again...
haix...
felt weak the whole day...
its getting worse... =(
mm... but afternoon was sweet...
hahz... henz came to SGH for interview... so hahz... met him for lunch lo... since so near...
but during lunch he received a call that its changed to tmr 9am...
hahz.. henz you suay suay la...
(=
after that i went back to offfice to rest.. and jsut a while ago...
brian came over to pass me ginger tea...
thanks thanks..
i'm weak weak weak...
ARGH!!!!
i did the most stupid ever today... shant go into it....
why on earth did i have to mix all my feelings into everything..

ohhh... i had a nice nice weekend!!!
hazh.. fri night went prawning at jurong west... whoots...
first time in my liofe i caught so many...
dear damn lucky.. his first catch, he won 10 bucks liao... hahz... (=
subsequently we caught lotsa lotsa prawns.. i was so damn happy!!! (= heex...
somehow it became an addiction...
sat went prawning for an hour again but this time at diff location...
this time si bei sian... only caught 3 prawn home... =(
mm... sun was a nice day...
i wasnt feeling well in the morning.. so sleep thru until 3plus... when dear came to my house with my lunch... (= ok... then felt better in the evening...
went to bugis to do some shopping.. went to shop the new shopping centre... hahz..
spent a bomb on accessories and lingerie... (= whee!!!
i love the star i bought... gonna make it into a necklace.. .(=

whoo... yest after work went down to bukit batok to meet dardar...
ahhaz... was freaking tired... but still wanted to pool... cos i miss pooling... (=
so ya... went bukit batok to get some food... then bought caramel frappe.. before taking bus to bukit timah... showed dear where jo stay... hazh.. (= so near yet so far...
mm.. ok... we got ourselves a table at century pool...
TABLE NO.4
whoots... near the door.. hazh.. (=
ok.. apparently i was the only gal in the whole pool area... but who cares... we continue playing...
freaking sad la... dint win dar at all... but i managed to score quite a number of nice balls... (= so we played 9 ball for the final game... hazh... nearly win that game twice lei... but sad... still lost...
nvm.. pear shall try harder next time... will go there to play next time... (= its so damn cheap!!! (=
had been chatting with meiling the whole afternoon yest... mm... i ought to let go huh... i will de...
anw... did i say how much i envy darling??? she just came back from japan.. but she's flying off to aussie again soon...
take me along!! ~~ hahz..

i had one of the loveliest anniversary this year...
2 year anni yest...
but cos by right yest was supposed to be a busy day since i had work... so dear pushed the activities to sun...
activities consist of duck tour and singapore flyer...
but he kinda made me angry on sun mon cos of his lil stupidity and waking me up in the wee night with all his talk nonsense...
in teh end i couldnt sleep the whole night...
haix... mm... ok... so sun i wasnt in the mood for anything... but dear had already bought tix...
after my piano i found him outside of my class waiting for me... then he passed me the ticket asking me to go with someone i wan... clearly telling me to find pork la...
but since he already bought then go lo...
mm...
but was dam tempted for some pool... but forgotten where exactly had the pool... so asked zhiwei... but he refuse to tell me... so asked pork... wahlau... erm... i dint know if i irritated him over the fone or vice versa... i totally couldnt hear him la... and he was like asleep lo... =(
ok.. so in the end he texted me the directions.. haz.. so went to find the place to play...
hahz... had 1 hour of game.. was enjoying myself with dear... he took a lame video of me la...
mm... then after that went for lunch... and back home...
whoo... when i reached home... i just dropped to my bed... and zzzzzzzz from 2+pm all the way to 6+pm... hahz... then woke up for dinner... mum cooked for me and dear...
then mum was soooo nice... sponsored us cab fare down to flyer...
ahzh... (= totally enjoyed myself at flyer... camwhored the whole 30mins... hahz... uploaded some on fb already...
heex... afterthat munched at popeyes... OMG!!! i so totally luv the fries...
cajun fries... damn nice la... jsut couldnt stop eating... hahahz
dear and i came to this concludion of popeyes...
pizza hut's drumlet, KFC chicken and long john's fries...
after eating the yummy yummy food... we went home liao... hahz... wanted to go pool...but was too lazy to walk over to marina square.
hehexx...
ok... so i kinda had tummyache on the way home...
and finally when we reached home... had to rush to the toilet..
so tummy ached over the night... and next morning was worse... it was soooo painful until i had to take mc....
tried to sleep to rid the pain... but the min i woke up... the pain came back... haix... so rest a while... b4 i slowly walked to the doctor...
i couldnt walked fast... was slower than the green man at the traffic light... damn damn..
ok.. so DR loh saw me.. and told him wad happened lo..
haha.. apparently 1 week ago had food poisoning already.. jsut that it was mild... and i dint know... thought was some normal upset...
haix... so now i'm on medication... with antibiotics...
but dear was so sweet yest...
he said if i eat my medicine on time after meals... he will bring me for ice cream buffet...
heex.. i was so looking forward to it...
so i dint have appeitite for lunch... so ate a burger... then pop in my medicine... (=
hahz... then went to sleep... until 3+4pm... my tummy felt much better...
heex... so dear cabbed down to pick me up.. .
woah!!! i love the ice cream buffet....
ate like a total of 23 scoopes tgt... of which had 20 different flavours... (=
whee!!! all in 1 HR! even the pple working there just pop their eyes on us... (=
we tried taking pics of the ice cream.. but forgot to take th first round... (=
basically all the natural new zealand's ice cream.. we've already tried except for the kiwi sorb and green tea... (=
i so love it...
heex... thanks dear for this wonderful 2nd anni celebration... (=
thanks for planning it... so fast we've spent 700 days tgt.... there were happy, sad and angry moments... but i'm really glad those there were much disappointments too, you were always there by me...
thanks dear... (=

ok... just msned uncle david...
was talking to him abt the tioman trip...
hey darren, jon, pam, kari and dear...
lets cont with this trip as planned b4...
darren and his mum said we really should go...
realx ourselves and at the same time bond tgt...
its been really long since we last met...
hazh.. (=
darren was saying b4 before he left for brunei.. that the guy will fork out for the gals... cos the gals have no $$..
so now gotta see wad you all gotta say...
jon's thinking abt it... but most prob will fight for the leave...
dear's gonna make his passport, get leave and ask his parent..
i'm gonna ask my mum... but have told her abt it b4...
left with darren, pam and kari.. think darren shouldnt be a prob..
(=
i'm really looking forward to the trip.. (= get to stay away from sg 3D2N.. (=
sounds really fun to go overseas with good friends.. (=

woah!!!
i'm damn shag!!!
darn.. hahz.. ok...
so i had work to do.. .
had to find door gifts for food career fair... interesting ideas... hahaz...
foudn some nice ones... but not sure if those are the ones that heidi wans...
nevertheless... i still emailed them to ask for quotation...
deadline is TMR!!! ARGH!!!
so no choice right??? emailed all my premium suppliers if they have any to recommend at the same time browse their website and ask for more quotations...
i asked until i myself forgot wad i've asked...
hazh.. .(=
these few days damn shag ah...
tired... i'm just so glad.. weekends coming...
maybe too tired from last week... hahz.. basically the whole entire 2 weeks... i slept veyr late and woke up veyr early... even for weekends..
weekends i slept later cos of the prawning, fishing, cycling.. hahz.. (=
are we going for more this week??? i wan lei... but i'm damn darn tired..
ahzh..
thes few days more or less rls is better... but we're still trying hard...
at least i know he's trying really hard... i need to put in more effort...
differentiate the right from wrong...
sorry dear...

i had an enjoyable day yest...
work was as usual sian.. nothing to do...
mm... but the afternoon was a joyous moment...
cos i received sms from ms helena that i've passed my grade 8...
whoots...
ok.. though not very high... but it doesnt matter... (=
109... whee!!! thats a pass.. after 2 failed attempts... and after a whole long wait of 6 years...
whee!!!
i was really happy... so immediately i shared the news with the office...
smsed mummy, dear, pork and nick...
hahz.. (= they were all happy for me..
whee!!!!! so now my next hurdle is my grade 8 theory... (=
i was sooooooo happy... so dear wanted to celebrate for me...
so since i wanted to eat seoul garden so much... suggested that to dear...
mm... but on my way home... dear's sms made me really mad...
i was like really angry with him...
haix... ok... so after we settle things... went to causeway point to eat seoul garden... while eating pork called... then dear's face totally changed... =( haix... things are seriously getting out of hand...
f***.
mm... ok.. so i dint really bother... just continued eating... i was like so ever ready for the buffet... ate quite a lot... almost everything i ate... except for clams and mutton... and rice...
ahzh... (= but yea... was really happy... so i dint really bother abt my tummy... since it has been hurting for like 4 days... dint really bother... (=
its stomach flu... i know but i jsut wanna be happy atm... (=
whee!!! after we ate finish, it was like 10+ liao... so wanted to go home... then so bossini got this sesame street kids clothes... so cute... so tried it... it fits me... i just love the orange tee...
so dear got it for me... (= heex... now i got a cute tee!!! (=

so i'm in office again... blogging...
heard that yuan feng got into NTU business... feels happy for him... but envy too... where's my NIE letter??? =(
brrr.... i'm freezing... thankfully my flu dint come back... had like super bad flu yest...
i'm bored in office.. wanna find something meaningful to do...
ahzh...
tonight going home to maple liao...
hahz...

so the weekends passed really quickly.. i truthfully enjoyed myself...
even though there were lotsa of unhappy stuffs happening..
lets start off with fri..

thurs wanted to watch movie... with cedric and dear...
but in the end... we changed our mind and xiao ping cancelled her fast and furious 4 date with kor also... so all of us ended up prawning...
but was quite sian... cos she say use catfish then easier to catch...
in the end no catfish. cos all the fish shop close liao
boohoo!!!
mm.. ok.. so we went to somewhere in jurong west to prawn..
mm... rented the rod from 1030pm to 130am..
so long time since i prawned... i'm so excited!!!!
but damn sian... after the 3rd hour... i still gotten no prawns!! =(
sad sia... kor caught like ALOT!!! dear caught 2.. and cedric caught quite a few also..
even xiao ping jie also caught 1...
haix...
wad to say??? i'm lousy lo...
was so sad... so was telling pork that i couldnt catch any fish... and he laughed at me!!
rah!!!! but yea... we dint chat for long cos that pork going batam the next morning...
mm... so the night ended off with us going home with 9 prawns... out of which 1 was a commando prawn... DAMN BIG!!!
ok... dear stayed at my house that night.. cos by the time we left the prawning area... was already like 2am?

fri.
ok woke up super early... with a tummy ache.. .so went to the toilet...
then when i came back.. i saw him looking at my smses...
was really angry... snatched my fone back...
so he looked at my sent smses... and started questioning me...
well... since dear wanted to know the answer so much.. i told him everyhting,...
also wanted to break up... but he refuse to let me go...
so we made a promise each..
he promised to change to the him whcih i know b4... or else i dun wanna see him again
i've promised him to let the other person go... but with time.
sorry dear...
so i told him exactly wads up wiht me and pork...
mm... so we tried settling things... but i'm really touched... no matter how much my heart changed... dear's still there for me...waiting for me and still loving me...
no matter how ice-hearted i am... the ice will melt...
seriously i've never met such a guy b4... everytime i read his smses... i jsut cant help myself but to cry...
ok... not talk about that le...
mm...went to cedric's house in the morning after parting with him... movied till ah ma they all ocme back le.. still movied... hahz.. sleepy... mm... dear came over, cos he's going for the BBQ also... and at the same time... we going to sheng siong to help xiao ping jie and kor get the food for BBQ.
so we bought quite "ALOT" of food...
mm... i bought my fishing rod too!!! its pink-red (=
whee!!! ok.. so evening around 730pm... we went to changi village, next to SAF ferry terminal... dear and i set up the BBQ pit.. cos xiao ping dun wanna get her hands dirty and she also dunno anw... while kor set up the fishing rod...
mm... so i made the BBQ pit... whee!!! the fire was really pretty.. we post it on FB soon...
ahzh.. then finally its good enough to start the BBQ!! (=
hahz.. not long later ben came... the great chef... ahhz... first thing he said when he came over was he smelt something besides the charcoal...
no one would have though that the wood we used to put the pit is on slight fire??
hahz... lucky they shift it in time... (=
so we bbq on the concrete floor... (= while bbq... me and dear when to try fishing... i dint fish any... but dear fished a plastic-seaweed out... and we BBQ the 9 prawns we caught the night b4...
ahhz... (= whee!!! was delicious... really can describe how nice the prawns are... (=
mm....
that night... there were quite alot of pple...
ben, cedric, kor roy, vivien, dear, me, xiao ping jie, kor adrian, ah ma, ah jiong, the 2 notti kids.
hahz...

sat...
as usual woke up early in the morn... dear went home to bathe first then came find me at 10+.. had to go SIM to do my acceptance... so met up with uncle law... i'm really thankfully to uncle for loaning me the money... with harsh conditions... but yea... i have to accept it cos its altered according to my needs.. mm..
so after making payment to SIM, went down to ah ma's house to continue my movie... was happy that pork smsed saying he's back from batam... hahz..
hahz... mm... then fell asleep... and then woke up and walked to ben's house to continue sleeping...
hahz.. (= evening we all went down to pasir ris to meet at aunty reb's house... then after dinner rest a while... before we set off to elias park for night cycling...
aiyo... the 2 hours... we only cycle near the start point... so sian.. mm... but was fun la... took pics of uncle in edwin's bike... hahz..(=
and xiao ping rode on the bike back to the shop
hahz.. (= mm... had a small chat with nick abt how to sms the gal he like.. haz.. (=
after cycling.. went to down town for supper... hahz... mum let me drive to down town... was pretty scared cos long time since i drived and i still dunno how to park... hahz...
mm.. but i managed to do it... parked it within one try.. (= whee!!! dear's proud of me...
aunty and uncles were all looking at me when i was parking... felt the stress... ahzh... (= but thankfully there was a double lot for me.. just in case... (=
had supper until midnight... received pork's call when i just finished buying mac...
hazh.. had a short chat with him... hmmm but couldnt hear him.. so yea.. the call lasted like less than a min...
mm... on the way back home... slept on dear's lap... my heart turned soft... cos i felt him weeping...
sorry dear... really nothing else i can say but sorry..

sun.
had theory lesson in the morning... but after that.. received sms from dear that he's on his way down le.. ask me to wait for him..
cos i had tummy ache again... had been having that for 3 days le... today's the 4th...
apparently.. it hurts alot... plus i had signs of vomitting... and then ls.. then for the rest of the day.. i'm fine... but yea... sun was the worse... usually it only lasted a while... when i woke up... but on sun... had that feeling until my piano lesson's over... i still had tummy ache... super bad one...
so dear rushed down with medicine...
after that we went to pek shan ting for qing ming...
mm... had a smoky morning...
after that... went home to get clothes then go to cck cc, wanted to play bball... but the cc was so packed... so in the end... went opp blk 7 to play...
wanted to ask pork to join us... cos he said he was in camp... but when i called... he was at home liao... so sian...
hahz.. nick wanted ot ask her to come too... but she said later.... in the end never lo... (=
i love my shoot!!! was one of the best days of shooting... (=
learnt how to bounce from left to right hand too... gonna pract more often so i can do stun... (=
heex.... when dear and cousin played match.. i just sit down and help nick with his econ essay and study my theory... (=
hahz... tired... then went to mac after bball ended... ate then go dear's house to bath then go home zzz.... tired tired tired... (=

my weekends was damn fulfilling...
love everybit of it...
mum say i should be resting... but i just told mum... weekends is the time for me to spend with my cousins... not to sleep de... (=
think its so damn me... cos i rather spend the time with my family then in my bed.. though i love sleeping... (= now that i'm at office... its near zzz time... (=

princess pear is going for her nap.

mm... ok... so dear told me this funny thing today...
he wanna treat my buddy= kenneth and my cousins.
for helping so much in the chalet...
hazh... the chalet is meant as a surprise... of course i cant handle it alone...
but of course at the same time i dun really wish you to give them a treat just cos they have helped me... (=
but then again... i dun really mind...
afterall they really helped alot...(=
and yea... as for kenneth...
he said he dun wanna have the dinner.. but he said thanks to that offer.. (=
hahz...
mm... so dear's busy with parade rehearsal, while i was busy with paper work...
need to find out if tmr SIM got open.. if got.. prob go down with uncle tmr instead of sat...
hazh.. (=
uncle... i dint read clause 1 properly... why 3 months after exam not grad???
shit shit...
haix...

many things have happened... mm...
i mentioned before that i dreamt of someone passing away huh??
so yea... true enough it happened...
cousin's grnadma passed away last wed.. yea... and our whole family get the news through kor roy..
i know it since i was at ah ma's house trying to bake a cake for dear's bdae, which falls on thurs...
hahz...

mm... ok.. yea.. wed... stay overnight at ben's house... cos i was trying to bake a cake for dear.. but the whipping cream had probs... cos we did the manual one.. but it dint puff up..
so yea... like 12 plus midnight... we were still trying to do the cream...
damn sian...
in the end failed... so yea.. went to sleep...
next day.. .was scared that the cake cannot be finished on time..
thankfully ben was free to help me...
so in the end... the cream was done..
so told ben wad pattern i wanted... (= was so pleased.. the outcome was wad i wanted.. (=
hahz... mm...then bought the cake out... but forgot about the candles and knife... so in the end meet dear and go back to ben's house to get the candles... hahz, (=
then left for dear's house after getting the candles and knife..
yea.. dear's was happy and surprised that i baked a cake for him.. (=

mm... remaining of the days i kinda daoed him... and shun him.. was preparing for another event...
ahzh.. that weekend... was preparing a surprise chalet for dear...
so had to make a few trips down to pasir ris...
first time down to book the chalet... haven lost my wallet then...
then the 2nd time down was to make my nebo card... cos i lost my wallet..
3rd time down was on the chalet day itself in the morning.. down to receive the bbq food from BBQ wholesale.
after collecting the food.. then went back to pasri ris..
the whole week was tiring...
but i'm glad.. i was never alone... (=
must thank my buddy man...

next thing that happened was i received my SIM application on mon.. but the deadline set was sooooo near... on 13th april... sian
very tired... need to settle my application too.. and had to source for the loan...
all not really suitable for me... so yea... uncle law agreed to be my guarantor since uncle derek is not in town...
hahz... plucked out lotsa courage to ask uncle if he can lend me direct loan...
cool... uncle was agreeable to it... with 5 conditions... mm... i'll prob be taking up his offer since it is almost interest free..
hope uncle's not so jue to me.. (=
heex
mm..
Where's my NIE status??? =(

pear is feeling numb...
wells... everything has come to an end... hopefully will feel better..
anw... i had a terrible night mare a couple of weeks ago.. and that damn nightmare came true...
kor's grandma passed away...
its just too coincidental le...
so today maybe going down to sg casket...

anw... yest was dear's bdae...
baked him a cake.. with ben's help of course...
hahz... everything is handmade.. except for the fruits..
wahhh... whipping cream we dunno failed how many time... =( but yea... ben managed to make it in the end... (=
(= happy birthday dear... hope you liked the cake...

tmr i got another surprise... really hope everyone will come man... (=
if not will be damn sian...

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