bad bad bad!!!!
i cant seem to remember wads my user ID and my pw for my ibanking..
how??
gosh.... pear needs time to think wad her ID and pw is..
looking for ward to the evening...
2 reasons..
1st. dear's coming out
2nd. going dancing tonight with salsa friends..
hazh... (=
anw.. was telling pam some stuffs yest... and she was like " awwww so sweet"
wahhhh.... awkward lo...
mm...
hpe the rats' caught today...
praying hard...

mm...
yest had event... was tiring la... to have to wake up so early in the morning.
woke up at 6... then took a nice shower...
left house to withdraw money then took a cab at 7am...
reached mercedes benz showroom at 720... it was really really fast...
the uncle so nice...
mm...
ok...
shant go into details...
but the whole event was ok on overal...
but really ran alot...
mm...
as me and sudhir were in charge of manpower...
we had to take care of the 12 manpower...
so sudhir, being the busy man... couldnt really help me when i needed help la...
but it was ok la...
thankfully nothing tedious...
(=
so as usual, jaywalked to shell to get a carton of water...
cos we forgot to consider abt water for the manpower...
mm...
but manpower were rather sloppish..
haix..
mm.... except for a few.... really very enthu...
hmm.... just so extreme...
then we were chit-chattin...
then realised... melvin knows peishan..and peishan know ouyang lao shi...
hahz...
like the world so round lo...
(=
mm...
ok night event was interesting cos of the F1 live race...
but .... MASSA Lost... =(
and first goes to F.Alonso... then N.Rosberg. and lastly L.Hamilton...

ok...
interesting thing happened today...
we caught a rat and let it off into the main street...
cos we dint know wad to do with it...
mm.... then let pest control know.... they came and found a 2nd rat... but it was like alonso... run so fast... and they lost sight of it...
so no choice lo... they put traps at the rats area... (=

sat...
today met dear early in the morning at lot one...
to buy the folder...
(=
then went home to change bag and get the petty cash... cos i forgot to bring...
hahaz...
(=
then cab down... uncle lost his way on the way to mercedes benz showroom...
haix... ok la... in the end finally reach. thankfully...
ok... so we rotted there initially...
haix... talked to carl that i had to leave early to see dear's and my grandma...
then initially we had a heated talk...
and so happened it hit the nail... so i teared lo...
natural reaction wad...
if your grandma is on the verge of dying yet you cant visit her as much as you can during the weekends. when you always make time during fri -sun to visit, how will you feel???
i cant visit her tmr... so i was hoping today can spend mor time... =(
ok la... thankfully daddily carl was nice...
thanks!!! (=
ok... our part we cant do much today...
so must go tmr morning to do... hmm.... in the end supposed to meet at 12...
but me and sudhir were the only ones there...
the rest only came after 1pm...
so damn sian la...
then when nat and joycelyn needed help for the ribbon checker runner table, offered help lo...
since got nothing to do..
i dun wanna waste my time there doing nothing...
and i got a pic of me in a f1 car!!! (=
so happy...
but the car very cramp... thankfully i can go in... small ma... (=
muahahz...
ok... now still at ahma's house...
ahma's condition still not good... haix...
now she's very very thin le... =(

pls dun always think when i meet my bf, means we go out and play...
whenever i meet him, i meet him to visit ah ma...
rahhhh!!!!

hahaz... i have a new counsellor...
thats brian tan!!!!!
hahz... pig la...
mm... (= anw.. really thanks for the talk yest... i was feeling really down...
thanks alot alot...
mm.. must thank alvin also... i was touched. that if i were to be really really sad one day, he will try to get our of camp to find me and console me face to face...
thanks alot... but wad i typed to you was just purely random... it dint apply to my mood yest...
thanks anw...
mm...
ya... you guys saw my msn nick right??? pearly's bi!!!
hahz...
jking la...
but i think i might be bi lei...
considering i love my bf and yet i like to see chio gals... hahz...
and i even examined myself if i had once fallen for a gal...
hahz...
oh wells...
mm... anw... pear's a sad gal now..
today cannot meet nick.. cos expecting the day to be busy..
haix..
tired... i need a break.. how i wish my heart can be really free, no burdens and everything...

whee!!!
the mp3 is here!!! and its so pretty...
hahz... i see le i also like....
feel like buying one for myself...
mm... ok...
today's not a bad day...
i've learnt something new from photoshop...
hahz.. was doing some watermug... and changing colours... (=
mm....
today slack but nt slack...
driving lesson is cancelled...
cos uncle ang too busy...
mm... tmr cannot meet nick early cos tmr will be a super super busy day...
haix....
dar's sad... cos i cant spend alot of time during the weekends with him...
cannot go bowling too!!!
sorry darren...
next week!!! lets go bowling...
ok... miss dear alot...
even though i dn sms you as often these 2 days... i still miss you lotsa k?
yest did i blog?
i think not... mm.. was having super super bad headach.. so rest/slept in office...
when i woke up, i practically couldnt see anything... blinded!!!!
haix... i'm not myself these few days la...
emo-ness!!!!!

kk... besides wad i've done during hte weekends and the post to belle...
i shall update abt today. its really funny how you can be considered under 18 in an area with offices around....
was buying cigrettes for pats and leslie...
then next door coffeeshop ran out of stock... so walked until everton park... then tell the uncle i wan menthol light and lights...
guess wad the uncle ask me???
he said in chinese...
" are you 18??"
then one aunty say " she working le la"
wahh.... i look younger than 18 ah.... so happy...
hahz... (=
yea... anw... at work... today learnt how to do cd labels...
whoots... leant somehting new

suddenly i felt i let someone down...
bet she must be damn disappointed with me...
i've completely clean forgotten abt her bdae...
gosh...
someone pls whack me in the face...
oh wells...
i'm soooo sorry....
you can blame me for forgetting it, say cos i'm spending too much time wiht my bf and not friends...
but i cant deny the fact i really forgotten and its the 2nd time...
sorry belle...
i know wadever i say will be an excuse... so i shant say...
its my fault...
sorry... finally when i talked to you today... i sense something wasnt right...
but think i shouldnt be asking too much ba...
thanks anw for giving me your new blog/ livejournal...
forgive me plssss????
mm...
ok this week isnt really my weeks...
sat stayed over at brian's grandma's house... they were all chanting like i mentioned in my previous post...
and yea... i really cant describe wad i saw when they tried putting her teeths for her...
i was really horrified...
i dunno why.... but yea... its like after so long, those fears came back... yea... and apprently, after the whole night of chanting... means i couldnt really get to sleep properly...
though to ah di, i really slept well...
\but according to dear's family members... they were saying latest ah ma can live is one week.. if not a few weeks.... earliest, a few days...
mm.... had super super bad headach...
so mummy ask me eat the extra strong panadol...
but today its still aching...
mmm.... this week's gonna be a nightmare
today piano, wed and thur driving...
fri sat standby for event...
sun whole day cannot rest... cos of the F1 lunch party..

god bless dear's ah ma...

mm... ok... today's sun right???
yest spend the afternoon with dear until dance lesson...
then after that dear sadden me cos he has to go ah ma's house...
so i went to find mummy for dinner...
mm... after that, i went to find him... and stay over at his ah ma's house...
they were " supposedly " supposed to send her on her last journey.
but somehow thank goodness her will power is strong...
(= may god bless her...
today went for piano in the morning...
then after piano.. went home to refreshen myself.... and here i am... back at his ah ma's house...
later going for driving lesson le...
then sending dear back to camp...
(= sad weekend...
but nice too...
happy 1year 5 month 1 day to my dearest dear...

today when i was passing by Orchard, i was looking at trees randomly...
guess wad i saw???
A SQUIRREL!!!
i was like excited... cos i dint know Singapore has tat... then for a moment i was wondering is it really one??? or is it just a chameleon.
mm... ok...
yest went to see dear's ah ma...
she's in a very critical condition...
haix...
but since it was like that. the family got her discharge cos ahma wants to go home...
mm... on her bed and in her clothes... she cant open her eyes nor talk..
her mouth was so dry until it peeled...
so they took turns looking after her and constantly using cotton bud to dip on her lips and her tongue... but cos of the pain... she cant do anything but move her feet. thats the only communication...
her breathing was heavy.. she had problems with that... she was having slight fever...
her hands are still swollen...
when i arrived...
dear's cousins and aunties were tearing...
even his sister nearly teared when she stayed in the room watchin her ah ma...
i dint know wad i can do... but when i saw her like that.. i was very sad too...
reminded me of my gong gong..
haix..
and then the promised i made to him...
but i dint fulfil the promise...
now that i'm not studying.... i cant fulfil it...
but then on the other hand... i also realised something...
life is like a cycle...
when there's a new life... care is needed... the infant will get alot of care and attention..
similar to one who is old and sick...
alot of care and concern is need... it may not be a positive thinking to most people...
but life still goes on.
hope everyone's mood will get better...
tmr's a special occasion for me... but guess we cant really spend it happily..
anw... i'm still really happy to see dear wed, thur and today!!! plus sat and sun...
then next week will be the sad week cos i cannot see dear..
made up for you this week... sorry...
i still love you and miss you k?? will rush to see you if i have the time... even if cannot see, at least if i have the time i will give you a call... (=

whoots.... i've changed place... cozier... but busier... (=
love loves... now helping to do hte layout for TP...
hahz... mon was the dateline for RP...
and i was entertaining heidi and sudhir with my english...
oh wells... sad la... but at least was a nice learning experience...
doing the concept and theme wiht sudhir...
and of course nice ah ma helped...
mm... was veyr scared initially when presenting...
but when i say the same thing over again.... not so scared le...
heex... (=
thanks ah ma..
anw... i'm just glad they like the idea...
but now its TP's theme and concept..
hope to have inspirations soon...
mm.. yest visited dear's ah ma... the min he booked out...
her condition seems worse than b4...
she no longer has the strength to open her eyes...
neither does she have much energy to response.. her fingers are swollen...
somehow.. when i see le.. i was very sad... esp when i think myself as her when i'm in my 80s..
haix... but its the first time i see dear cry for his ahma... not like i never see him cry b4... but this time is he wanna cry yet cannot drop the tear cos cannot let his family members see he cry...
then it struck me of wad mummy told me when gong gong was in her state...
mummy said when gong gong also like that... they all wanna cry...
but sam sook po( my 3rd gand aunty) say dun cry... if its mean for him to go. at least be glad that he's no longer suffering...
so i told dear the same thing...
at least make him feel better...
cos see his ahma so xin ku... everyone also very very sad...
haix...
god... pls make her better... either that or pls take her wiht you to heaven... stop her suffering.. dun let her family members so upset.... it realli hurts to see them like that

sometimes i dunno if signing the contract is a good thing...
i liek thte company... like the pple...
but i dun like where i'm being placed...
i dun like to be "divided" from the rest...
sigh...
and i dun wan to be treated as some receptionist...
thats not my job..
i wanna do something useful and meaningful...
i wanna do somehting that matches my ability...
haix...
anw.. i cant wait for tmr...
dear got nights out...
(= thats somehting that really makes me smile from my heart...
ok... arranged with uncle ang for my driving lessons.. this sat will be my first lesson...
i'm excited... i cant wait to drive... (=
hopefully i can pack my schedule in so that i can take exams asap (=
whee!!!!!

was upset wiht dear yest...
cos it really felt like it matter alot to him... esp when he tell me the little kid has the same skin prob as me.....
i really hated that when he told me...
why are you so concerned with that??? it bothers you???
but his reply was that he wanna find a cure for me... he wanna find a specialist...
haix...
nothing i can say lo...
but something really bothers me since last week... when dear gave me his maple pw...
its a private server and we only played this year... but why the pw has to be another gal's name??
if it was back then, i can accept... but its so long le... yet you still use her name... it only tells me that you cant forget her....
haix... so he explained that cos in real maple that was the pw...
haix.... but knowing that i was so upset with that, he changed the pw away...
but it's still a big stone...
i'm just being very sensitive ba.... but afterall... i'm a gal...
a gal doesnt like her bf to be shared...
maybe others can accept but i will never tolerate that...

haix....just being superly emo...
still sad la...
dear faster come out!!!!!
wed you come out.. but u most prob cant meet me...
fri faster come... then can pei me le...

there are times when i really hate myself...
every sun when i send him off, i really hate it cos i will be sad/ tear.
i just wish the time during the weekend will stop... and let me spend more time with him..
but weekends always pass by fast while during the weekdays its alwasy the slowest.
it used to be him leeaching to me... back in school. but now... more like me sticking to him..
just wants to hear from him every night..
i really cant imagine wad will happen to me one day if he's no longer by my side.
you've promised me. but i still dun feel assured..
but wad really touched me is that you never fail to look after me when i'm sick..
and you always give in to me.. spoiling me..
esp so when i teh you... snuggle to you... like some small kid...
i used to think and used to tell you, if one day he returns, i may go back to him...
but now i realised... that even though i loved him...
i have unknowingly love you and its always growing..
i promised you and i will not break that promised.
pear <3 boon
thats my pet's name... and thats wad i wanna tell you...
i really miss you... now everyweek.. i look forwards to wed and fri... but dread sun...
=(

mm.... yest was very angry.. posted a very nasty post... but since it was for anger... i took it off... mm.... today's fri!!!
dear's coming out!!! wheee!!! i never express myself how much i love fri right???
hahz... (= mm..
not feeling very well...
but thanks dear... for all the concern... (=
much better le... dudu not so pain le... (=
faster come out!!! (=

today is wed le...
time pass fast yet slow...
sigh... was chatting with weijie today...
and wad shocked me most is that he's LEAVING SINGAPORE today...
haix...
leaving to switzerland...
mmm.... that was where mummy wanted to send me back then...
but too ex le...
haix...
so there goes my counsellor...
he's leaving... a lil sad la...
mm.... ya... and my sms is exceeding liao...
even though its only 1 weeks...
haix...
dear say we should get unlimited sms plan...
mm... but must change number... dun like...
haix... now must source for new plan lo...
cos we smsed each other too much...
wonder if me and dear is alr like that... wad abt weijie and his gf??? they're gonna be seperated for 3 year.... but the good thing is he will come back regularly...
thats good... (=
if it ever happens to me... i think i will cry.... prob even drop hte idea of going overseas...
haix... unless dear comes wiht me...

today is another slacking day... but somehow it felt weird... cos everyone like so busy... except me..... dun feel comfortable...
so was asking them if they needed help... but no one seem to need help..
haix...
ok.. my only job now is the pump...
yest ask the uncle... the uncle say got alot of diff size... dependin on the hole attaching the pump and the tube, the strength will also differ...
mm..
so pats ask me buy 2 diff one...
in case...
hmm.... think i should disect the bank and see the pump... take photo.. (=
whee...
miss my dearest dear...

mm...i totally forgot today is teacher's day if cedric dint tell me elsie's home cos its a holiday..
hee..
wanted to wish mr kum... hmm... but i kinda lost his contact...
so i shall sms him when i found his contact... (=

mm... my weekends were great!!!
sat... morning go meet dear to buy snacks and drinks...
then chill at dear's house...
on our way, saw joseph...
was really unexpected... like after so long since i wanted to see him, i finally saw him...
mm.. ok... then after chilling... we went for salsa lessons.... (=
dance was really fun!!!
heex.. then bought starbucks...
i tried this new flavour that pam keep buying for the past weeks....
classic hazenut ice chocolate
ahz... (=
mm.. then we cab all hte way to pammie's house...
(=
cos we had a gathering on sat!!! to celebrate marcus's birthday... (=
and kari baked a yummy choco cheeze cake...
but no cheeze taste... so it was ok to me!!! (=
mm... then played twister, mahjong.. truth and dare with alcohol... (=

sun!! cos no piano...
met dear at 11plus.. then eat roti prata.. then chiong to cwp...
watched money not enough 2..
wah... sad yet stupid...
heex..
then we went to bugis to collect my specs. and buy ah di's bdae present...
bought him a water bottle...
heex..
mm... then went back to dear's house to play private server with ah di...
he damn suay...
he acc kena roll back...
hahz...
and got prob..
mm... oh well.... he's starting a new acc..
heex...
then at night send dear to cck mrt...
cos cannot send him all hte way... =(
on our way, dear met his bmt friends...
then we saw yan ming...
poor yan ming... he was telling us how pathetic he is cos of his bunk mates...
him and 3 rj...
all the rj guys dun play com games...
so cannot link...
hahz... (= so i gave a stupid suggestion.... hahz..
oh wells... after seeing him... thne it reminds me of somehting...
long long time since we played bball...

haix
today's back to monday blues..
tired... but the good thing is.... pay day!!! (=

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