Sunday, June 29, 2008 Y 5:28 PM
what kind of mood should i say of myself today??
rather sad...
i waited for someone's sms the whole day yest... but there was no reply...
until like 3am this morning... then that person replied with a ques "are you asleep?"
sigh... ok.. accompanied mummy to cck cc today to pass them their plague and mummy wanted to ask them things lo...
saw that person and gang playing bball... had to urge to go up and say hi to them...
but was with mum...
sigh..
then went to imm..
bought alot of stuffs from giant...
hmm.... but still not enough to make me happy...
reply me la...
did i make you angry or anything??? tell me lei.... you like that dao me... i veyr sad de lei.
haix..
anw.. was on the way home in cab just now...
talking about my further education..
then the taxi driver was boosting abt his son and daughter..
one his manager and one his legal advisor...
cos NUS AND NTU rejected them last time..
so was telling mummy... i go study UOL now... next time go london study my master...
then i will come back with 6-7k also wad
ahz...
then my neighbour was laughing and saying " if there's a will, there's a way"
sigh.... can i make it?
Saturday, June 28, 2008 Y 4:33 PM
today carl called in the morning for me to check the billboard....
been doing it since 11 plus... 12 left for pam's house... and i'm doing it still... sigh...
wanna cry le... so many to check...
haix...
life doesnt seem to be the same as b4... am i true or not???
SOMEONE seem to be ignoring me cos i just refuse to say the story...
hahz... haix...
quite sad but gonna live with it lo...
sigh...
hmm.... today was supposed to go bowling... but cancelled...
sian also...
RAGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, June 27, 2008 Y 7:49 PM
hmm.... today was quite fustrating in the morning...
cos dear smsed me saying he withdraw from teh interview to pilot...
was veyr very disappointed...
its not like he never try then never get in... but he dint even botehr trying..
haix...
hmm... ok... wanted to tell alvin a story...
but since he refuses to answer my quest... then i cant tell him the story...
haix..
somehow i wanna knwo the answer yet dun wanna hear it...
irony la...
sian...
your fault la...
if i sad also your fault...
hazh...
Thursday, June 26, 2008 Y 2:48 PM
these few days have been really stressful...
finally i couldnt take it le... cos of super super tight deadlines...
i cried..
Was arguing with carl over a particular school cos i needed to text joel abt it...
but ya... it came to a conclusion that i was too kanchiong.. ITS A DEADLINE FOR A REASON..
but oh wells... now that i'm feeling better, i should get back to work..
I just felt that suddenly my life is being twirled like a hurricane swept it..
why am i so easily swayed?
I always wanted to ask someone some question. But when i finally saw him yest.. I dint know wad to ask.. Its like something choked me up.. so i cant and dunno how to ask.
but deep down... i'm touched... its like i kinda know the answer yet i want to hear it from him personally.
just like how he wanted me to say something personally.
felt as though God is playing a trick on me again. By making me swayed...
ARGH!!!!!
zz cant take it too... the fact i told him i was swayed..
But we all know wad the outcome is gonna be like...
its very very similar to me, jo and zz back then.. I hope i dint make the wrong decision.. cos i'm making the same one again.
Pls dun lead me on.. you have a gf and i have a bf. dun break my heart a 2nd time cos you broke it once.
Thursday, June 19, 2008 Y 6:48 PM
ok... Work's end for today.. waiting for pam...
hmm... today's rather easy, as compared to yest or the day before.
hmph... supposed to have dinner with alvin.. BUT SOMEONE GOT STUCK IN CAMP!!!!!
haz...
hmph.. IPOH... i cant wait for it.. a deserving treat to myself.. hahz.. after this hectic event... but now waiting for senior's confirmation.. and mummy's approval..
hmph... i cant wait for it... waterfall abseiling... like how much we can ever do it in singapore.
hahz... (=
dar's been nice this week.. everyday coming to pick me up from work..
hzha.. (= but next wekk onwards, i wun get to see him le.... until 3 weeks later...
sigh... gonna miss him much much much... faster confinement over k????
and he will be going to OCS ba... while waiting for his compass and medical test report...
PRAYS HARD!!!!! (=
Monday, June 16, 2008 Y 5:46 PM
want to share with you all a nice song..
loved it since i was a child.. but couldnt find it..
when i have the time i will upload the song here..
(=
When you were born into this world
Your mom and dad saw a dream fulfilled
Dream come true
The answer to their prayers
You were to them a special child
Gave 'em joy every time you smiled
Each time you cried
They're at your side to care
Child, you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here
How many seasons came and went
So many years have now been spent
For time ran fast
And now at last you're strong
Now what has gotten over you
You seem to hate your parents too
Do speak out your mind
Why do you find them wrong
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you near
And now your path has gone astray
Child you ain't sure what to do or say
You're so alone
No friends are on your side
And child you now break down in tears
Let them drive away your fears
Where must you go
Their arms stay open wide
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through And God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here
Child you don't know
You'll never know how far they'd go
To give you all their love can give
To see you through and God it's true
They'd die for you, if they must, to see you here
Friday, June 13, 2008 Y 3:03 PM
many things happened over the past week... happy and sad moments.
i made some mistakes again. sacrificing some impt friends over someone impt. though i dint wanna regret over that someone impt, i have made another person disappointed in me...
wads the point of that someone impt over that friend i had??
now i kinda lost both.. though that friend is still a friend.. but the bond between us is gone.
i've hurt him enough. and really enough.. i myself feels guilty.. but i cant do things which pleases him.. cos that would hurt someone else..
life's complicated.. esp when you complicate things further..
sigh.. wads life gonna be for the next few months/ years/ decades between us?
sigh...
ok... the happy part is that life is not always down.. i had my up moments... esp when i see dar pop... seeing him so happy and jumpy... that really made me happy..
hmph... though we had arguements on that very night..
but still we're happy... (=
i love prawning and fishing with dear...
they taste super good too... hahz..
dear so nice... wanna come find me for lunch and dinner.. but then after lunch dunno where he can go... so ask him come find us for dinner...
hmph... but now.. i got that stupid meeting... sigh...wanna meet up wiht him like SOON...
i'm sticky la...
just hope to see him asap...
accompanied him to air force school yest.. hope his check up and compess test will go smoothly next weeks...
miss miss.sorry. forgive me if i hurt you yet again.
