i felt relieve of a friendship...
finally after 4 years... i managed to have a nice chat with him...
thought i keep getting suaned... but at least it felt like we were in china back then...
hmm... its true that we were guin na...
hahz..
oh wells...
i just felt relieved..
the day you really composed your own song and lyrics, will be the day i will go to your cafe to hear you play... otehrwise... i wun go...
(= this is to that someone...

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球,太阳还是会绕
没有理由,我也能自己走
你要离开,我知道很简单
你说依赖,是我们的阻碍
就算放开,但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是否说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白 看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是否说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

this song is a really nice song.. i really wish i can put up the song... but sad to say. i dun have the song.. maybe when i get hold of it.. i'll post it up..
when i first heard. tears flowed down..
as you all know.. i'm veyr sensitive to love stuffs..
songs also applicable to me.. and this song is one of the song which i felt like a sad love song..
i dint know there was this song.. until kor wanted to play this on the guitar for jie angela..
then i realised how sweet the song is..
somehow it applies to me for a particular person..
but i sall not say who..
anw..
my heart shattered by uni...
do universities know how much i hate them...
hahz.. any sensible person would have inferred i got rejected..
ya. you dint see wrongly... neither did you hear wrongly..
its just my misfortune..
anw... i've thought of a few routes.. but the final decision is not in my hands..
but my mum..
hmph.. hopefully i'll get into bach of biomed next year..

mummy still dun allow me go poly... sigh...
crumpler.. i'm one day nearer to you..

another sad news...
dar kena guard duty again..
sigh...
sometimes i wonder is it i really push him too hard???
or is it jst he really ditn feel well that day?
maybe cos he was not in the ideal place i wanted him to go.
i think i'm pushing him too hard..
sorry...

hmm... nick gave me a shock...
wah lau.... 3,7,9 / 3,7,10 pin he also can convert...
damn zai la...
hmm... (= anw.. my arm's aching...old liao..
hazh...
hmm... today dar go life firing..
whole day after my meeting he couldnt sms...
miss miss..
hmm... i made somethign nice...
rememebr the wooden blocks i bought?? with mine and your instrument???
i made it liao...
hope you will like it..
perfect match... just like me and you..
go tune your instru... then we can play tgt.. (=
muackz.
cant wait for sat to see you...
absence makes the heart fonder???
wei han.. i finally understood wad you meant..
arigato shun-kun.. (=

yest i had a dream...
dreamt of lg kor...
hmm... oh wells...
this made me ponder something for alomst the whole day..
how can a broken friendship be mended???
oh wells... only when someone really treat the friendship so importantly, then only will he/she try so hard to mend it...
but then again..
when a broken friendship is mended, will it be as strong as the initial stage? i suposed not.. its just like a broken jar.. no matter how much you can stick it back to one jar... it will never be the same old jar again..
its similar to friendship.
often we only cherish something only after we lost it..
i've lost this same kind twice.. but with different kinds of friendship.
i felt the pinch.. cos both kind meant alot to me..
although it has happened for approx 4 years and 2 years respectively, i never thought of giving up any hopes that we'll never be ok anymore..
i've spent quite a while blaming of wad i've done last time... but by doing that it arent gonna solve anything..
and this 2 friendship i lost is related indirectly..
if not cos i know B, A wouldnt wanna stop contacting me..
sometimes i really wonder was it wrong for me to know B?
me and A was so close... like good buddies, good mentor, good bro....
wei han asked me this ques last time
" you think you will call your so called siblings kor, jie, mei or di 10 years down the road?"
"Ya i will."
but my this sentence was wrong..
its not even 10 years.. and many things changed.
but at least i should be glad that once in my life, i had a few bros who really loved me as a sis.
and esp one who really took great care of me.. always lending me a shoulder
hmm... nvm... was just being emo yest...

hahz.. i'm crapping alot with alex recently..
hmph... never knew this senior of mine is so crappy...
or rather cos i talk nonsencical stuffs
hahz... hmph.. ok work's not that hectic today...
i'm like slacking since dunno when after making my calls..
hmph... checking mails.. but very little reply. maybe i should not only call but email the schools..
hmph.. (=
i'm having fun.. with friends...
hmm.. yest was really veyr tired...
dunno why...
hmph..
and i had the creeps yest...
just unknown... but it sure felt ghostly yest night.
hmph..
ok and ya...
zz was telling me abt his that comrade.. hopefully not dead ba...
its like so unknown...
hmm....
ok.. good news to everyone...
i've achieved an outstanding award from IRAS for my volunteering during the income tax period...
very happy..
cos its something that me and dar did together..
but cos dar went in army... thats why he never kena... but i'm sure to mdm teo's eyes. we're both outstanding..
(=
hmm... hopefully dar on that day can come out early... then pei me go..
if not i have to pull someone with me..
hmph...
ok... that eamil i actually just received...
and ya.. now alex told me he's going on a date!!
ahahz... hopefully after that date, he will tell me he's no longer single..
hahz...
am i sane or insane??
hahz...

sanity vs insanity.

i saw this email... thought should just post it here for everyone to see... (=
enjoy

This is a wonderful inspirational email
that we wanted to share with you.
We hope you enjoy it as much as we did.

I believe...That we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.

I believe...That no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.

I believe...That true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe...That you can do something in an
instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe...That it is taking me a long, long,
LONG time to become the person I want to be.

I believe...That you should always
leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I believe...That you can keep going long
after you think you can't.

I believe...That we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I believe...That either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I believe...That heroes are the people who do
what has to be done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe...That my best friend and I can do
anything or nothing and have the best time.

I believe...That sometimes the people you expect
to kick you when you are down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe...That sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe...That just because someone doesn't
love you the way you want them to doesn't mean
they don't love you with all they have.

I believe...That maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had and
what you've learned from them and less to do
with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe...That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe...That no matter how bad your heart is
broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe...That our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe...That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.

I believe...That two people can look at the
exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe...That your life can be changed in a
matter of hours by people you don't even know.

I believe...That even when you think
you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I believe...That credentials on the wall do not
make you a decent human being.

I believe...That the people you care about
most in life are taken from you too soon.

I believe...That you should send this to all
of the people that you believe in....I just did.

rah... had gastric last night... terrible...
vomitted...
sian...
hmph... ok la... i'm feeling better le...
and zz is bugging me... cos i'm not listening...
hmph.... i'm still a good gal de lo..
and a good W*** de lo...
rah!!!
how dare you say i'm not...
hmph..
ok...
today's tue??? means 4 more days!!!
whee.... cant wait to hear from dar ,.. (=
whee... ok la...
lunch time now...

i wan my crumpler bag!!!!!
crumpler crumpler...
why???
ahzh... cos my bags are all gonna spoil soon...
and i need it to store my laptop...
rah!!!!
i just messed something up yest...
some personal issues...
sigh...
anw... yest took half day leave... cos i'm sick...
went back to work in hte afternoon...
ate lunch with pammie and kk...
then had a little meeting with carl...
and then we set off st8 to suntec...
it was an introductory lesson to me...
for me to familiarise myself with the dimensions...
hazh... and ya... carl was introducing the various rooms...
then he brought me up to 6th floor to see the event that they were preparing for today...
damn grand la...
very nice also...
and ya... i asked a stupid question...
" is that a PA system?"
well its not exactly a PA system...
too shallow to be one...
it has audio, lights, sounds.. and everyhting needed to control the whole event tonight....
ya.. then he was teaching me abt the lightings...
and staging..
from a bare piece of land to a crowded place...
then met a few of the in-charges...
was introduced to them..
like WOW!!!
all so capable...
then something actually came to me...
i also wanna be as capable as them.
but wad can i do?

suddenly i pity myself... dun ask why....
i'm not in the mood for anything now...
just wish that dar's out faster... then i can lean on his shoulders and know he'll be there for me...
life's hell..
i'm just being pessimistic again...
but its really unfair for me...
it not happened only once...
but twice...
twice in a row..
its tiring...
torturous...
and i'm tired...
give me a break.....
i thought everything would turn for the better...
but its the same situation..
just that all were nice this time.

hmm..... haven been blogging as usual...
ok...i finished that job... supposed to going "overseas"
but something cropped up half way...
so prob will fly tmr...
anw...
had a gathering with XO team not long ago...
at sentosa...
hmm...
was fun man...
we played frisbee, beach ball... but i ditn knwo how to play...
so kena hit and got orhhhh-chey..
so stopped playing..
the rest went to play water...
but dar dint wanna go... so pei him..
we walked to the twin tower...
see the senery... so sweet and nice...
we're like so newly wed kinda thing... hahz..
hm... until time for jon to go back... then we went back...
yea...
we took pics... and the funny part was when they wanted to do a xo word.. with marcus jumping..
we tried taking a few times but failed... finally when i snapped the correct one wiht him jumping in mid air... i was so excited that i stepped on bel's feet...
sorry ah... (=
hmm... soon, me jon and dar left... cos jon needs to book in... and we need to meet up with my mum for dinner...
so dint stay with the gang for dinner...
met mummy at woodlands...
super miscommunications man...
we were supposed to find the axs in causeway...
but we found our way to civics...
then stand there for a long long time...
until mummy called and say she's already at axs...
then we looked at the queue... no mummy.... =( so asked where exactly is she...
finally found her behind the big citybank word...
O.o
ok... then went to crystal jade for dinner...
since dar will only book out on sat next week... and the following week... he got no time to celebrate for my mum... so celebrated that day...
(=
and ya... mum ordered some fried rice...
dar also...
then i ate my spicy jia jiang...
first mouth is tomato... 2nd mouth is chilli... 3rd mouth is sambal...
geting hotter and hotter...
hazh..
hm.... whole meal cost 40 buck... heex... within my limits... so treated them eat... (=
then i think i ate too full... until i kena gastric...
so had to walk slowly..
hazh... (=
hmm... that day was really......... tiring...
morning fetch dar from camp... go dar's house put everything down..go sentosa... then go woodlands eat...
by the time dar reached my house... he KOed...
hahx... (=
so now... dar's back in camp le...
miss miss..

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