win liao lor.
to think i really trusted you.... but in the end. still got betrayed..
wth.
is shunning the best way?
and not confronting???
i'm frank with you and you arent.
i tell you wad i feel but you dun.
i never lied to you. but i felt you lied to me..
you said i'm always your friend, but i dun feel so now.
a friend will never betray, insult and talk behind or etc her friend's back.
if any of the above is fulfilled..
then gotta reconsider.
i told myself that among all those who will turn their backs on me, you wun....
if you're in my shoes, how will you feel???
think i feel sad just to hold you by me???
think i cry for the sake of crying?
think i lost sleep for fun? and torture myself?
if you think its so, then you truly dun understand me at all..
not at all.
to think i'm so protective towards you...listen to wad you say...
striving for wad you hope..
nvm... i dun see a need for prove to garner your friends... at least i'm being myself now... and i dun need to show a face to the rest..
at least those whom i hang out with knows me for who i am..
and understand how i feel....
i behave who i am..
i'm violent to wad its applied on me but untrue.
at least i dun let my principles down.

ohwells... at least now i know i'm not facing depression..
i thought i was initially..
but definition of depression arent wad i'm experiencing..
but ya... i've never felt so depressed to such an extent..
hmm.... at least i've pulled my courage to ask mr kum a ques..
which might allow him to ring my mummy up.. i wouldnt know.(=
but ya... will look it up soon.
and ya..
been starting a new routine...
so these few days i may feel like a zombie.. like i did today..
hahz... (= and ya... rotted in skol to do math and chem until 6+7.. then rotted while waiting for pam.
hmph... long long time never blog...

AMIRUL....
wait for my surprise...
not now... but after my As....
heex.... anw... long long time never see you guys le..
realli gotta make some plans...
no more east coast..
hazh...
hmph... al-ameen....
miss that gatehring..
hahz..
oh... my friend was saying after my As... we try go jo's house and play.
but ya... give me ideas... cos it may not be nice for me...
you know la hur???
i'm scared of his mama...
and!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss cyrus5...

KARKOON!!!
dun be surprised if i realli poof of for a while....
hardly going online..
not mapling le...
so no need for online..
unless i feel like checking my email.
and ya...
my swim.
hahz... i still remmeber that time when you got a shock ... muahahz..

CLOSE FRIENDS WHOM THEY KNOW THEY ARE..
even though i may assume not wanting to talk to you...
and always telling you i dun wanna talk to you...
you're still my lovely friend...
i supposed another rationale one in skol.
hahz...
and of course to them...
thick and thin... my dearest moments....
seeya on prom with lovely dress and suits..
surprises awaits...
the nosey pear loves photo taking...
hopefully i'll look pretty...hahz... enough to have the mood to snap shots..
hahz...
36,37,38,39,40...
we all know those 5 numbers... (=

FAMILY07
i cant wait for our gathering...
ahzh... da jie... try bring k???
and er jie... you haven replied...
wondering if should we ask gan die and gandi...
(=
whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmph...results...
dun ask...
Ultimate 4

hey friends of mine..
i've got a joyous occasion to share..
whee!!!! i've gotten notice that my applicatoin for bursary is approved...
whee!!!!!
of course having this will have a burden..
burden to stduy hard...
heex.. thats wad i;m aware of...
anw... updates of prelims...
i've gone through half of it le..
bad is bad...
but ok is rather ok..
surprisingly papers other claimed to be killer was ok to me..
hazh.. i'm just weird..
anw... went ot find mr kum at it today..
then he asked me abt prelims..
die liao..
hazh.. (=
anw.... i'm still in my play mode..
but at least, i did study...
hmph...
throughout the papers... dint talk much to laopo..
sadded=(...
she also wun be able to see the post cos her com hang..
maybe after prelims... shoudl help her ask dar's daddy help her fix...
(=
i'm just trying to help as much as i can..
anw.... hopefully when skol starts, i wun be distant from her cos haven been contacting her for more than 2 weeks...
hahz..(=
ciaox.... gonna sleep..
misss my beauty sleep after 2 hectic papers..

hmm... ok... saw wad he wrote??? i emotional blackmailed dar to write something here..
hahz... not realli la... since my dar so teng me..
(=
heex..
he wrote lots of crap initially..
like "for fun la" etc etc..
(=
hmm... chem was a killer...
was super demoralised by it..
but i will not let other subs own me..
i must not tio own... but own them...
(=
hmph...
these days... never been blogging much... dun see the need to..
hmph... but i'm guilty of playing alot alot..
ya... the rule was to study for 45min then play 15 min..
but we study more than that and of course play more than that..
hazh..
(=
who ask dar to study wiht me...
so naturally he play along wiht me lor...
(=
anw..
so sweet..
i wanst in the mood to discuss chem just now..
so walked in the rain... since i've long to walk..
then dar accompanied me walk...
when he got an umbrella..
hahz.. remmebered the times when he tried running after me with the umbrella... cos he dint wan me to get sick..
(=
hahz.. just like daddy..
oh yas...
supposed to meet online daddy last thurs..
but not feeling well... so went home..
then sat wanted to meet him...
but he meet AHEM!!!!!
ahzh... so funny..
fancy a young gal suaning her older by 10 yr daddy!!!!
muaahz..
hmph....chatted with henz that day..
wah.. he so heng... first day see ben liao..
lucky not ben's sergent..
if not.... he sure laugh at ben de...
hahz...
wonder if he and junqin same group ma...
hahz... (=

ganbatte XO TEAM!!!!! and to all my loved ones...
(=

i still owe pegz her thumbdrive and tee...
always uknowingly take her tee and wear..
ahxh..
then gotta rewash it..
(=
psps.... (=

haha.. tooty is here again... boo hoo... not fair i kena emotional blackmail to write something here...
haiz... ok lo... mm... these few days are all exams... studying is a chore... but we've got no choice..
mm..
but once in a while.. we get to discover new and interesting things in the things we studied..
ya.. the passed sept hols... studied with pear throughout... studied... and play la of course... heexx..
but hav to cont working hard.. coz prelims are minor.. but As are nearing... *panic*
sianzz... gtg back to studies le... buaiz..
u all may see mi again next time... lolx...

ghmm.... sick again..
sian.. feeling super sian...
dint do much work these few days...
a few ques???
sigh...
anw...
sudden emo-ness...
this came in mind...
few regrets in life...
hahz...
it all started back in the olden days..
hazh..
1)sec 3???
harbin trip.... not that i dun enjoy..
but the after effect want good..
2)sec 4????
regret giving erge the red light..
thats when we stopped talking totally.
but i'm glad... you had me in mind thru these while then... (=
and thru you... i know angel jie...
though she knows abt us... and wad happened...
but she was sad abt our probs..
who ask us to be so similar???
3)sec4???
knowing zz...
and ya... zz you know all those stuffs...
until know you're still hte same as i know back in sec4..
(=
but nevertheless... thanks for helping me then lor..
and of course in jc too..
vjc paper rox la..
4)sec 4???
knowing lg kor...
heex..
the musical and pool then rox..
hahz...
pasir ris too...
i had the most memories at pasir ris...
(=
dance chalet... when you showed me the magic stunts..
the castle making and the puzzle making...
wld lib too... when you tricked me when your magic cards..
orchard nania....
but.. sad that we're like that now....
sigh...
if i know such will happened..
i wun ever do it...
sigh....
5) j1???
coming to the wrong skol..
suay to get his aunty as my p...
should have gone to sa...
though i dun wanna see zc..
but at least we're friends...
pj sux???
hahz... dance rox...
chingay rox..
horizon rox... but regretted quitting..
odac??? prob not..
but if i can choose again..
i'll still choose odac... but also wan bowling...
cos friends in bowling rox..
6) j2???
oh man...
sux big hell..
my fav senior is no longer in skol...
but big surprises often happened...
(=
common test, mids sux..
friendship downturn.. is that called the dunno wad lan tao hua???
bet it to be..
studies sux... how can anyone not feel stress now??? except me???
but there's something i love abt j2..
knowing xo team...
daddy, mummy, kor... but this kor is forever so cold....
and study kakia...
my ganjie too!!!
hm.... glad that i can always find alex at stagmont camp...
hahaz... esp when i had a hard time finding him.. cos he blends in to the bg..
and of course.... knowing my childhood friend again... inthe same skol...
(=
keeping in touch wiht henz... another childhood church friend...

wahsey...
life bibliography sia..
hahz... i'm just bored... and these came into mind randomly...
(=

hmm.... ok..... 2 bdae boys today...
whee!!!!
HENSLEY
&
LG KOR...
(=
happy 18 & 19 yr old..
whee!!!!
so fast....
i know them for more than 2 years...
esp henz....
hahz.... remmebering the times when church made fun of us...
hazh...
HP tech sia..
hahz..
hmm... ok.... tmr you oging to new camp le..
hopefully ben wun bully you... hahaz.... i cant imagine you 2 in the same unit and platoon....
hm....
lg kor...
i'm glad to know you're getting along fine and happy
(=
hmm.... your korkor tell me de...
cos i thought you change number...
hmm....
dun angry le k???? (=
btw.... jyjy for your As...
(= i still believe my korkor will do well... like before.... (=
wells... no more promise made to you.... but i will do my best stilll
(=

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