whee.... one torture day is over...
but torture links to happiness.... (=
whee!!! thanks dear..
anw... tuition was dead boring today..
stuck in that bomb shelter since 1 and came out for sinner at 4... and only left that bomb shelter at 830pm.
fianlly after leavin that bomb shelter, i felt so sian..
cos thought cannot see him... then one whole day never see him.. at bomb shelter no reception, so cant sms or call him also...
haix..
so yea... wanted to go for "dinner cum supper" with karen and jj..
but jj's vegetarian closed.... so we go home lor..
at cck, i saw jean shorts that i wanted to buy..
so yea..
was smsing him thru out... until i reached home..
when i went down thae stairs, i felt that gush of wind...
scary la..
then suddenly i saw a white figure, i screamed!!!!!!
after screaming, then i realised that figure is dear...
AHHHHHHH.... he really surprised me... cos i was kinda disappointed cos was expecting a surprise from him at either bishan or cck mrt/... but not at home.. (=
was shocked.... cried... hugged him so tightly till he nearly couldnt breathe liao... (=
he was so nice... he knew i wanted to eat his mummy's curry chicken, he brought some over.. (=
whee!!!!! but meanie.... tell his mummy he bring food for the pig..
=(
sigh... anw... did i mention b4 his family pple damn nice??? esp the elderlys...
whee!!!!!!! had some fun pigging at his house that day..
ahzh.. (=
ok... back to today.
i was really shocked to see him..
really really happy too!!!
his mummy cooked curry chicken!!!!
and its really really yummy!!
heex..
i love the potato..
first time i really enjoyed eating the kan dang..(=
thanks dear... thanks aunty (=
whee!!!!!!!!!!
3 followed by 8!!! (=
remmeebr that goal yea???
surprisingly they dint object when they finally saw me at their house watching mr bean holiday(=

ok.. i'm finally updating abt the navay open house work.
(=
really had a great time though the sun was terrible and ya... most of us got sun burnt!!!
haz.. esp pam!!!!!
go see ehr colour contrast... really alot diff man...
haz(=
okok..
first day we worked until 5...
that day got me, brian, pam, edwin, alina, rebecca, her ex, andy.. and of course nicholas and boss..
tehn alina was quite sian that day..
whenever there's breaks, she will be on the phone wiht lk..
haz(=
yupyup..
saw the bananna boat... wanna sit on it badly..
but sad to say.... i dint get to sit on it...
haix..
oh!!!!!! i forgot ... others i forgot to mention... the navy guys..
know lobster, good fortune, wind, gerard.
haz...
saw a new eyecandy!!!!!!! met him... gosh!!!! he's damn fun to play wiht....
his hair!!!
ahzh...
ncienice..
hmm.... ok... apparent that day at our booth, there's a whole damn long queue of divers queuing to play the puzzle..
hazh... (= dunno they wanna win puzzles or cos only that station has gals.
hahz (=
but ya.... still damn happy to know alot of them..
at teh end of 1st day... our legs were damn sore....
really really sore..
ahzh (=
PIAN!!!!!!!!
oh ya.... when we go home... wind took the same mrt as us.... then at city hall, he came over and hit my head before leaving/..... hahz.. meanie...
but i was sleeping la... pam told me wind hit me... (=
haZ... OK... 2nd day.... tiring day...
i totally seh diao...
no more smiles... but more of frowns...
keep taking breaks..
cos i really cannot tahan..
hmph... btu ya....
thankfully the day passed quickly..
hazh... (=
3rd day... even faster..... cos we left earlier...
hmph... last day... took alot of pics.... (=
miss those pple man... (=
awwwww... miss lobster... him and his red red face...
ahzh(=

ok.. ask requested form pam. i shall update!!!
interesting week.
starting from mon..
they all gave me a surprise/... cos they said they wanna bring me to soemwhere fun... in boon lay... but i dint know where... cos not familiar with that area..
so yea... happily walked and followed... until we came to a lift... then they say we're reaching..
wah!!! pam's house... mahjong and movie..
cool la...
really enjoyed
hazh... (=
at night some stuff happened... cried...
made a wrong choice by wanting to break.
cried till i sleep... bad bad night...
made him sad, and i was sad too!!!
tue... chose to go bowling alley see them bowl at a super late time... when i went.. they were on their last game... then yea... bought bandung... he knew i was here when darren gave him the drink..
hmm... after the game.. cried... moment i see him at bowling alley, i teared... chose to avoid... until their game over... pam accompanied me and allowe dme to cry all out, while talking to me..
thanks dear...
then after the game... we went ot darren's house
then gave jon his bdae present..
while he was playing com.
and ya... as usual... the open couple (=
hikari was ust on the bed watching free show..
while me and him cried on teh floor..
but i'm glad we made up...
(= life was miserable teh past 12 hrs..
then i was hungry... so i ate my crackers... while pam and darren somehow chased each otehr until hte door b4 they on the lights and all of them saw both me and him eating while watching..
like some movie screening..
was hilarious..
hahz..
ok.. wed... morning studies with him.... until 2 plus..
damn dumb la...
forgot my wallet again..
hmph..
so 2 plus we went home to get the wallet... then go back causeway...
window shopped while waiting for pam and darren..
cos we were going to ride on uncle ringo.
wahlau..
damn ex la..
i feel hte pinch man..
ok... we took the challenger..
darren spent 40 bucks...
so he helped us pay..
haix..... the ride was OMG!!!!!!
i was damn scared can.... 1st is the height..2nd the breathing. 3rd the 180 plus 360 degrees spin.... i shut my eyes thruout....
regulated my breathing... the moment i'm ok.. i open my eyes to try see... adn i'm scared again.
scratched and grabbed the bars.,... when teh thing ends... i was the first to ran out.... cried... cos i was super scared.... ARGH!!!!!!!
tehn walked around...
then eat the food at pasak malam..
nice n yummy..
then went home le..
today..
woke up damn super early...
managed to go mac to eat hushbrown..
whoots... got myself high cos i finally got to eat..
SATISFACTION!!!!!
hazhh .... got high.... and thank god cj gals not there..
so we owned.. and i screamed like hell..
drank 2 bottles of water
bandung cupcakes rawk....
ahzh(=
and yea.... i kept shouting " fun game fun game" at brain..
than uncle jason tot i said first game..
so funny la...
esp when i shout "go jason" uncle jason replied " i'm here... why?"
hazh... damn funny la...
though i'm not from bowling... but i feel a sense of belonging here... cos all my close friends are here.... and yea... know all the pple... also know the coach...
(=
damn fun... after which we go darren's house again... cos nearest..
then slept....
then did a little work..
then!!!!!! we danced!!!!!
gosh... had a lot of fun dancing...
YMCA! macarena, tarzen and jane etc etc..
hazh... (=
ok... home and i'm blogging.... upon request... cos i haven been online for long time....
spending too much time with him....
we made long term plans so that we can use them to achieve short term goal...
(=
thanks dear...

today's such a suay day..
suayness man..
went to skol at 9am.. thinking that econs is at 12pm-2pm.
so meet brain to study lor..
went to skol late cos i woke up late..
so yea.... then 12 pm... i reluctantly dragger my feet to LT3.
only to find my classmates coming out from the LT
wahlau... how suay is that man..
missed out on alot..
and wad made me angry was that i couldnt do much of my maths too!!!
forgotten alot... haix... its really time to buck up..
hmm.... ok ... many of them saw us tgt..
gave us the weird looks and yea.. alot of *ahem hem* sound..
but yea... i used to mind alot... cos it protrays me and his image in skol..
oh wells..
now... i dun care le..
friends are still friends..
teasing is allowed... but dun go overboard and i wun come find your tea.. (=
so happy... now at his house... waiting for him b4 we go meet pam jon and darren..
hazh.. i wonder where they are going.. brain never tell me so yea... he just say somewhere nice and fun to play de..
heex.. ok... just tried tuning his guitar..
managed to tune 2 strings..
left 1 more... i cant seem to pitch the tune out..
can anyone tell me the 2nd thickest string is wad key????

ok.... went out with dear and mum today
hahz... first time mum saw him... and yea, its on our 1 month anni..
hazh..
morning woke up at 9 plus, smsed him and stuffs... like always, i'll go back to sleep.
and GOSH!!! i overslept when i was supposed to meet him at 1030am.. but i woke up at that time instead,then received his sms saying he will be late.
phew.. i haven reach.
ahzh. rushed... but remembered to bring the present.was quite excited to see him esp afterwhich i was angry with him last night.
upset too over my lost fav keychain.
ok. went walk walk and ate something then mum called to say she's ready.
then we took a bus towards home to meet up with mum..
wanted to let mummy sit... but she couldnt come all the way to the back.
sigh..
but yea... we walked... shopped.. and ate!!!
ahzh..
today i got veyr pampered by both mum and him..
hazh.. totally love them so much man... feels as if today is yet my bdae again.
azhh ..
ok... we went to see hp models.. then tooty was telling us abt the different hp with the screen..
hahz... (=
kinda hit off well with mum.. thankful for that.
then after which we got lost while trying to find the bus stop, cos apparently they were following me... and i couldnt tell my directions well.
ahzh... he knew the route but wanna let me walk... then mum and him kept laughing at me for not knwoing my route well..
hmm...
sad sad.. ok.. then we go abck lot one..
wanted to go watch 200pound movie..
but lot one dun have... then dear have to go home b4 9pm... so no movie..
besides we're on a budget..
(= so went window shopping... b4 that we went to ake neos and neocards..
hazh.. (= i'm sooooo in love wiht dear
my probation of 1.5 months... can officially be called off...
cos i found the key..
(= bought dessert home for mum then went opp house with dear to walk walk..
then walked the park and home..
sat outside house to talk... first time in 1 month (or is it longer cos i knew him longer than 1 month b4 getting tgt) i felt the saddness when he's leaving.
just wish he's there always...
ahzh..
3 years more!!! and another 5 years!!! (=
whee!!!!!
miss you dear!!!!
happy 1 month!!
(=
i dun wish it to end. not now. not forever.

mm..
i'm back from tuition..
sian... woke super early int eh morning for tuition..
argh!!!! gotta perserveve...
i must do well for econs..
if not really let my mama down..
ok... anw.. i've learnt alot...
now its just how big my brain capacity is to absorb.. (=
hmm... bowling comp yest..
damn exciting...
first time i go see and support..
(=
whee!!!!! i was dead at the beginning but hyped towards the end..
whee!!! shouted from the centre of the alley to the last lane..
hazh..
screamed, cheered and encouraged!!!!
azh... (=
when cjc cheered.... we were taken aback... cos its really loud...
but yea.... pjc not bad also la... (=
3 person can cheer so loudly...
applause for effort at least??
hazh.. (=
he was upset after bowling... plus the bowl hit his ankle when his turn to bowl..
felt the pain for him when i rubbed his ankle...
xin tong sia... careless toot..
hazh.. (=
mm.... hmm.... went northpoint with some other bowlers for dinner..
they ate delifrance, and i went to eat mac.. cos i got craving for mac.. (=
now that i've recovered... its time t pamper myself with fried food.. (=
heex..
he pei me eat.. cos he also wanna eat after recovery..
funny hor... cos we both sick and recover at the same time..
ahzh
then we took neos after they finished eating..
azh..
the gals were so funny... we add lotsa weird stuffs for the guys..(=
but yea... hte process was also damn funny..
the fact that we were all ready to climb when the curtains suddenly came down and cover us.
ahzh..
damn funny la...
i just love going out with friends... having a nice dinner tgt and of course crap and stuffs..
esp on the last day of skol... a gathering is a cozy little thing to me..
but!!!!!! when we were initally supposed to meet guo zhen, kel and marcus.. we dint meet in the end... i feel so bad..
cos i wanna take neos with my daddy too!!!!
hazh...
hmm... i'm a little playful gal...
esp yest...
veyr veyr hyped up during the bowling... but cos i had to turn my head to almost all the lanes respectively to cheer, i had a headach!!!!
hazh...
wadeva the case is... i'm still happy to be close to a few gp of friends, mainly the bowlers, the badmintoners ( cos of delia), and of course my study kakias( though we hardly meet up now),
and of course not forgetting this new gp i'm alwasy with now... ( the family)... its veyr interesting esp with the daddy adn mummy around... cos interesting things always happen..
though they alwasy talk abt maple.

life's been a hazzle for me..
lotsa things to think of...
troubled... yet not exactly troubled..
had 2.5 hrs of chinese today..
and after which i shagged..
dint go for maths and econs.... head span...
pain... ouch..
dint do much.... walk a while then go home sleep until now..
gosh... realli pig..
i'm not exactly stressed... but i'm really very very tired...
holidays coming... finally... i can have a longer break..
dun have to wake up at a awkward timing..
waking up at 6 is a torture to me...
cos my body alarm is 7 plus 8..
and i sleep late.... haix...
shant rattle le..
tired... going abck to sleep...
ciao my bella.

finally com's back..
hmm...
i've sorted my feelings...
sorry dear for being emo..
zz.. thanks for listenign to me too..
i guess i whined too much to you le??
hazh..
ok... lotsa things happened..
i also dunno hwo to describe..
nvm...
chat with jason..
finally...
long time since i last contacted him..
hm... holi coming le ba..
but when he comes out... the promise will be broken le..
dun wory... immune le..

i read the pdf format..
wad i should do, i did..
but wad i should do for dear... i cant do...
he knows why and i know why..
sorry..

ok. i'm back blogging..
today's really a perfect day for me..
to think i slept at 2am this morning only(=
but i dint sleep in lects or tut... (=
whee... thus as a reward to myself... i'm gonna treat myself to ice cream later..
cos i've been craving for that since dunno when.. but cos i'm sick... so i cant eat..
(=
thisi s a great incentive tomyself..
bet dear will be damn happy when i tell him this good news..
at least its one step closer(=
today was damn super hyper..
maybe cos of wad happened last night..
ahzh...
really unforgettable..
esp those funny scenes at civics rooftop..
ahzh.. (=
we wanted to view sunset after studying and eating
but we did not see any sun set..
instead there were few passer by saw us..
abit weird..
and we were crapping abt the speakers instaled at the rooftop..
imagine suddenly someone made an announcement,"those two pple pls get down.."
we were damn creative and imaginative.
once again i was touched by wad he said to me...
this time criedin front of him..
at night when he told me the story..
i was disappointed and upset.
but at least it wasnt like i expected...
or else.. it will no longer be goodbye but goodnight..
haix..
had a happy day yet sad and disappointing day....
but peeps...
in case youw ere wondering why am i not online or never blog everyday..
my modern puffed and is gone..
so i'mwaiting for the internet at home to come home..
(=
but i am glad it died at this point of time..
cosi'm no longer tempted by the com..
only on it to hear musics (=
hmph... or at least i wun die w/o a com everynight now.. (=

ifiluvfuvufusofo, butfutplsflsdunfunmakefakemefeupfpsetfetafagainfain,=(
decode if you wanna know wad i write,

hmph.. ok... back in skol...
missed agm on fri cos i was sick..
then when i returned today..
received alot of presents and letters..
(=
thanks gals. and tchrs and juniors..
i will never forget the past experience i endured with you all..
life will be empty without you all..
quarrels we had, disagreements, hazzle, fun joy and laughter.. (=
of course not forgetting my fmaily members...
my 2 mothers (=
my lao po.
the intitial lessi(=
hahz... and of course not forgetting the guys..
though we hardly interact, but you guys have been silently helping us when we really need help..
even by just asking you guys somethings and you guys reply..
its a form of communications.. (=
hahz... and not forgetting that mu tou ren..
rememebr the times in last year and this year when i ehlp you for maths and you teach me chem.. (=
if you dint teach me... prob now i will be hating chem intead of liking it..
nd ya... thanks for giving me much advice abt odac during the times when i had alot of trouble and nearly give up odac..
(= it was cos of your one sentence i stayed in odac... (=
thanks... (=
you may think you arent that great... but it made a diff to me, being a member of odac and not anywhere... (=

why i sound as if i'm leaving this very instance finish blogging???
hmm... no la..
cos no more odac...
i wish to finish odac asap... but now that it officially ended, i miss it..
miss everyone.. now i know how the seniors felt after their agm..
i bet if on fri i was well and went for agm..
no matter how boring the agm is, ultinately during the " finale" i will still cry...
prob this day will come on the last day of skol... cos thats when everyone really leaves each other for our future..
thinking abt it... it so near yet so far...
haix..
we're graduatin in less that 7 months???
haix...
am i stressing you guys out???
minus holidays and weekends, we only have about 109 days if we start exams on mid nov..
means we are only left with 3 months and 19 days if we decided to slack until holiday's are over..
know the intensity???
its stress plus more stress...
increasing burdens are being add on each day with the expectations that we ought to know all our stuffs by now.. those that have already been covered...
gosh!!!!!

hi everybody!!!! i'm finally back after not blogging fopr one week!!!
whee!!!! ok... alot of things happened... i myself dunno where to start and where to end..
hmph... major event... i fell sick... not the normal kind... but yea... apparently i had an ulcer on my tongue and throat... sian... so hard to talk la..
hahz.. okok...
thurs.. went to see doct.. then dint go skol on fri. he sent me home as usual.... but today he helped in cooking a drink for mum's mother's day present..
ahzh...
when mum knew abt it... she thanked us for the drink... but wasnt happy cos he came/..
so he cant come le lor..
unless!!!! i marry him... hahz..
funny!!!!!
so weird..
anw...
smsed zz today!!!! wah.... long time since i heard form him man...
hahz.. he too busy with his gf le la..
hazh..
okok...
grand news...
sngs jubilate 4 was yest..
damn good la..
ahzh... really enjoyed myself,...
at least i get to see all my old friends...
saw er jie chanaline, aunty marissa, shi hui, philina. and many otherfriends..
whee!!!! saw juniors... really glad to see them... (=
apparently, choir, strings got gold with honours, the rest got gold except band got silver.
saddening...
but we achieveed gold with honours sia..
damn good !!!!!
and the strings are really damn good!!!! (=
ok la... i'm at cousin's house. cos house com no internet..
tooty!!! i got blog ah.. dun say i never blog k??? (=

long time since i last blogged...
kinda miss blogging..
so here i am blogging in skol.
(=
its 255pm...
and i have to go find mr A soon..
cos i'll be doing my chem test... so i dun think i can go for remedial.
hmph...
then looking forward later is odac session..
dunno which resevoir we're going later..
hazh... (=
and wonder wad we're gonna do later too..
hahz..
okok...
i've got a prob...
and damn shitty prob..
2 of my friends cant make it for jubilate and thus i gotta help them pay jie..
but now i cant find 2 person to go too..
damn..
plus my own share its 45 bucks..
where do i go get the money in such a short time when i'm 1 pewrson's paying for 3 shares???
damn damn damn..
jie pissed too...
haix..
moe ah!!!!
suddenly tell jiang ming and fu jing that they gotta go for meeting..
haix..
hmph...
okok,... life has been too boring for me..
at least he's always there for me.
hmm.... not saying that i'm too sticky to him or vice versa..
but yea...
and yest he gave me a shock when i saw the sms..
thought he left something at my doorstep and forgot to take it after sending me home..
ahzh...
but it came out to be a surprise..
hazh.. (=
hahhz... and yea...
tooty... i dun get angry easily k??? so dun be too worried i'm angrey with you yea???
finally had a nice nice chat with marcus today during chinese lesson..
cos we finished early..
so we decided to stay on a little to chat..
hmph..
somehow.. we still have strong strong telepathy..
ahzh...
heex... daddy1!!!!!!!
anywway..
it has been a long time since kakias go out tgt..
and tmr's the big grand day..
but i feel so sad... cos i cant go... .haix..
oh wells...
guess it much due to the reason i readjusted my priorities...
god, family, friends & studies & him...
notice the &??
i'm trying to juddle all 3 at once..
cos i cantr put him before my friends... neither should i neglect my studies...
and also he's impt to me??? not last right??/
i dunno...
currently this status above is unstable and is still prone to changes..
ahzh... (=
hopefully i cant quickly settle my mindset and start chionging...
i've been slacking a long long time..
time to get back on my feet for the last lap..
haix...
TO ALL MY BUDS!!!!
JIA YOU AND STOP MAPLING!!! ITS TIME TO CHIONG....
AND ALL THE BEST!!!
KAKIAS!!!
LETS ALL GO OUT TO STUDY!!! AND THEN MAHJONG LIKE NONODY"S BUSINESS AFTER As...
hahz...

i've let her down...
i've made her sad..
i've made her angry and pissed..
but i was pissed and mad too..
so wad can i do?

i tried to give in..
as much as i could.
but her rattlings just keeps going..
on and on again.

till one day when i no long takes.
i shoot her back in the mouth..
that instance i was taken aback
as she looked at me in awe.

quarrelled as we alwasy do
but patched things up quickly.
i just hope that there's no more such
miscommunications breakdowns.

now here i am feeling down and frown.
with him trying to console.
but how come i cant feel that much
or just i wan to avoid.

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