mm.. ok.. so results are out..
sighhhh... s06 cannot promote as one..
sigh..
ape family may lose meiyi.
super animals may lose jun hong and joyce.
the no clique gp will lose chie hong.
and mei nu's gp will lose steffi...
sigh...
5 lose. left 2 guys..
sad case..
mm...
was veyr happy to get promoted..
i promise i will work doubly hard man..
sigh.. today had class gathering at study corner...
i felt the tensed situation in some pple..
but the joy in others..
sigh.. you know .. i really wanan cry.. just wanan shout..
but what can i do???
will miss s06 pple..
sigh..
i kidna talked to irritating gal today..like finally!!!
mm.. dint get into ogl.. sighhhhh...
i kidna wanan get into there badly..
cos i wanna experience the joy of being an ogl..
i've never been before..
sigh... but now i' deprived of that chance..
i just gotta say this confidently for once..
its just your lost for not taking me in..
cos you will lose out a potential counsellor wannabe..
aiyo.. so bui hiao bai..
hahz.... since i cant join...
then wad can i do??? sianx...
mm..ok odac was shiong today/...
nearly died.. dunno why..
mm.. ok.. played with the rugby ball...
wahhhh hurt my finger..
now cannot bend...
and its blue black....
wahhh.. think my bandage course comes into good use sia..
hahz
mm... ok... now my year will end shortly after chi and pw..
sigh.. wad have i done in the year??
played for more than 3 months???
gettting involved in a stoopid relationship...
not getting over it until now..
erm.. bia-ing for test and exams.. only after term 3.
ermm.. oh... being active in skol??? mm...
not getting a lot of chance by the skol to do alot of things???
sian..
looks like i have a boring life...
hahz..


mm.. i'm starting to like him more and more.. esp after readign our message history..
howhow???
wonder how he feels towards me..
hopefully this oversea trip will bring us closer tgt..
but i think i might distance from him as much as i can.. dun ask me why

but now... i know the answer le..
prob it was just one-sided love..
cos i knwo he only like j****.. where got spare for me??
sigh..

talked to aloy didi... wahhh.. long time since i last catched up with him..
hahz..
so fun ah??? listen to jiejie say fantasy stories..
azh.. ok la..
jsut dun learn me..
cos i'm not a good gal nor a good gf..
ahzh. .
and oh!!!
OUR NARUTO!!!!
wahhh.. since you wanan compete wiht me!!!
i will take up the challenge..
and see how finish watching it first!!! hahz..
and then after thsi will be death note anime..
hazh... aloyz.... i wun let you off..
but then rememebr to spare time for you gal sia.. hahz

read our messgae history...
wahhh.. .back then we seem to be so much closer..
but now???
sigh..
you're my pig.. but then..
aiya. i also dunno how to express..
sigh..
wad can i do now???
they knwo and prob you also know..
so gang ga.. liek wad yo usaid last time..
but whoever tell you mhk is you???
sigh..
its not only you..
but someone else too..
oh wells..
this si long overdue..
but when i helped meiyi read some stuffs.. trying to find some stuffs.. abt eyecandies..
i have to look at eveyrhting..
tears rolled..
but i cant do anyhting.. sigh..
not last time. .not now.. not inteh future..

talked to weijie just now..
mm.. wahhh.. kor so tired le.. still online..
wad he say abt himself quite true sia..
a lil soft..
hazh..
can tell when we went for th movie lei...
nachos and popcorn!!!
ahzh..
oh.. my tee too!!!
hahz..
korkor is a nice guy!!!
hazh
wheee!!!!! mm.. and oh... his ghostly face on webcam!!!
so funny la..
too bad i dun have.. if not you will see me laughing and rolling on teh floor..
azhh..
soooo funny!!!
i'm so glad i've this kor..
but yea... at times i'm sad.. cos he's wh's bro.
not that i really hate wh alot..
but he knows why la huh..
our misunderstanding is just so deep..
tiao jing huang he ye xi bu qing..
hahz

suddenly i long for a hug..
a warm hug..
dun ask me why.. and i dunno why.
i just wish i can write everything in jap.. then i wun have gossips le..
haz.. mm.. maybe i should..
4 か月、すぐにずっと5 時であるためにである。私は彼が行くことを許可しなかったが私が彼を好むが、非常に私が述べていた女の子は自分自身あることを彼が知っていた疑いことを誰かのようなi を種類の彼に暗示される今実際に考える。多分私は多くを私がLa をしていたもの彼が実際に私の言うことがわからないので長く私のお兄ちゃん. として彼のために、どちらもこの全日i. によって見られるanime を、知らないしないしかしながら頼むべきでない。
lately, i've been processing lots of thoughts..
i never voice any of them out.. and i dun really see the need..
those in my msn list who are online, kinda know i'm angry with wh..
sorry..
i dunno why i suddenly angry with him..
but yea.. i just wished i wun be and go back church..
mm..
pmsing quite lately ba..
not really pms though..
i just have extreme quick change of feelings and cravings..
mum said i'm just like a pregnant woman..
hazh..
am i??
but i'm not pregnant..
i just dun understand myself too..
mm... worried worried..
worried for tmr..
whether i can continue to be with 06s06 or a little change of 07s06, it will all depend on tmr..
i'm not too sure if i will have the mood for training tmr..
just wish someone can be my hero, and take me out of skol for a breather..
its really stuffy in there..
its stuffy at home..
不変の友達のためのI 長く、しかしそれは常に不快感になり、私は破壊に直面しなければならない私が私が欠けている実際に私に精神的支持を理解し、与えるナンセンスすべてを言う一種の愛に欠けているもの私がとても絶望的になぜ鳴るが、誰も実際に理解しないし、か全体にわたって再度彼らが私に尋ねるか。
私はちょうど孤独な女の子である

mm... just watched my grad night video..
it took me so many months b4 i finally wanna watch it..
not that i dun like sngs.. but i'm afraid after 10 years in there.. i may cry after watching teh video..
no matter how much i hated skol.. it was still my skol once.. and afterall, i had feelings in the skol..
now that i cant go back as frequent anymore..
i really miss the skol..
and of course.. my fellow clique..
whcih i've spent our last night togetehr at meritus..
after watching the video..
i cried..
really cried..
first time i shed tears for sngs..
back then i was really a naive gal..
compared to now.
now i'm living in a world of regrets..
thinking of "IF ONLY..."
sigh..

ok.. i dunno why i'm angry with wh..
maybe just by thinking that we dun click, neither do we have anythign to talk abt kinda piss me off..
his attitude really changed from the first day i know him..
back then as his sister..
i really had a great time with him..
esp during the sept holidays..
it was one of the joyous days with him..
talking to him at night and crapping..
when i was a sotong.. real sotong whose brains are like totally shut..
can even write my jap name..
now???
sian.. dun talk abt it..
guess we can barely talk to 5 sentence now man..
cos we'l argue? disagree with one another's opinion and ideas..
guess prob is cos both of us have similar character ba..
sigh..
i rather my onii-chan werent like that..
in the past wad i did was wrong..
one wrong step and it ended us both into this situation..
its not that i still like him..
sicne then.. i wun and i will never..
i once said.. if he chose to leave my life.. dun ever enter back in..
but he chose to enter again.
does he ever know how miserable it was?
does he ever spare a thought for me?

why guys in this world never spare a thought for gals..
any idea how much they can hurt a gal..
with just 1 action. 1 word..
even jsut by not responding the gal is enough to hurt her..
do you guys understand?
when gals love you guys..
they really mean it..
they really do..
but you jerky guys.
just never learnt to appreciate them..
why???
gals are very emotional..
they need you care and concern..
but all you guys know how to say is
" i'm sorry. but yea.. lets break.... i dun love you anymore"
"pls forgive me.. but i still love you."
you knwo how deceiving these words are?
one moment you said you love.. one moment you dun..
wth..
"i promise. i will wait for you... but too bad for me if you change of heart.. "
dammit..
promise??? guys only know how to break their promise..
arent promise meant to be kept??? y are you all breaking them?
gals change their heart???
more likely you guys man!!! argh!!!
wad guys will do in the end??
avoid the gal???
err..
y? y?
knwo how much a gal puts in for the relationship???
esp when her peers think that she will be the one who bring up the break up.. and keep warning her not to break with the guy..
but in the end???
who was the one who brought it up?
WHY???

ok.. sorry... emo gush.. but its something i wanted to say long long ago.. just that ...
i chose to believe those words said were false..
until a point where i know..
both of us can no longer be tgt,.
no matter how much tears i shed..
it aint enough to bring him back..
i tried walking to god for help..
tried walking towards god w/o thinking that if i do so i'll get to patch wiht him..
but i cant..
cos everytime i go church..
i will only think that i'm going church for him..
thus.. i've decided not to attend church until i sort my feelings..
i've bottled it for near 5 months..
i really cant take it anymore..
if i was the old me..
by now.. i'd have committed suicide..
but now... iv'e managed to put a mask in front of everyone..
hardly anyone saw me crying of this failure..
define failure..
thats me..
bet no one will fail as badly as me ba..

i just long for someone who will really treat me well..
someone whom i can be secured with..
someone who loves me for who i am.. and not for who i must be..
even if i'm not a 100% christian..
but believe that i've always love god and trust him..
someone who wun make me shed a tear for him.. but rather if i cry, he will wipe it for me..
and rather cry for me..
someoen different from al lthe guys i've known..

你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

你最近不说话
怎麽了 为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

hahz. .to marcus post....
yea.. i'm the kapo queen.. you first day know me meh??
ahzh.. eh.. i really dun believe you lei..
still smell something fishy..
hahz.. sorry ah.. for that " zi janing"
that my kind of chinese.. hee..
eh... worms infested wounds and arrow pierced bodies during first aid really suck.. i nearly puke everything out..
during lunch.. i dint really ahd appetite to eat.. azhh..
hahz.. mm... colleague yea???
but you gotta work at bishan first..
i'm just afraid you will be posted to pasir ris..
then i'll be sad.. =(
mm..
eh.. when you free???
you promise me to chiong de.. hahz.. remember remember???
ahhz.. oh man..
MARCUS is bringing me bad..
hazh.. where's mr police... quick arrest him for spoiling me at times... hahz..
jkjk..
anyway.. MR marcus.. yo ustill sad???
dun be yea???wadever the case is. i'll be behind you..
yong yuan zhi chi ni!!! (= smile smile..

mm.. ok.. my whole day lasted in skol.. for first aid..
today was a bad bad day..
it rained!!!
hazh.. in the afternoon..
but morning was bright and sunny..
alot of ruggers came to pjc for friendly match today..
hahz..
seeing all the ruggers, it somehow made me think of him..
i once remmeebred he told me he played rugby..
sigh..
now think of it.. i feel sad..
how long was it since i heard from him..
after first aid.. while waiting for the excos..
krist said that it is only possible for a couple to patch when both of them are still in contact and in good terms..
sigh..
we're no longer in contact..
let alone in good terms..
sigh..
does it mean we wun even get a 1% chance of patching?
i'm constantly thinking of him..
i really cant get him off.
sigh..
miss him alot alot.
but who knows if he already gotten himslef another gal..
sigh..
dun ask me why i'm suddenly so emo..
i cried..
but not as much..
i dreamt of us patching.. but everytime i wake up, i'll cry. cos it will never happen..
when the gals have someone by them, be with them and cheer them on..
i hardly have anyone..
besides my galfriends..
sometimes when i really need someone by me, i always find myself alone..
crying alone in my bed..
who knows? no one..
only me and god..
when i pray.. god do answer my prayer..
but i dunno why i cant heed his advice..
sigh..
i'm not a faithful follower..
sigh..
but i wanna be a faithful and cheerful follower and giver..
how?
contradicting..

Goong OST songs Live

isnt this cool???

mm... today sian.. no one jio me out.. sigh
mm... anywya.. now at ben's house.. hahz.. come to find some stuffs..
then later going to give tuition .
hahz.. mm...
so sad... mdm tan dun need pple at bishan le..
sigh.. marcus cant get the job.. unless he wan at pasir ris..
sigh..
mm... later might go find eve..
hahz..
m.. i'm missing him... whoohoo...

who who who???
its just a little him..
hahaz

mm.. today last day of skol...
whee!!!happy yet sad..
sigh...
mm.. anyway dint have the mood to study..
hahz..
wad made it worse was hte rain..
ok.. gsc was short today.. hahz.. we were let off at 430pm.. hten mr yeo treated us for a drink..
but i dint go..
ahhz..
mm... hte bash thingy!!! hahz..
really had fun..
play everyhting we cans think of..
i was made to do a dare actoin..
which was to go up to a rugby guy whom i dint know. to get his name and number..
shi bai though..
but yea.. i had the courage.. whee!!!
then play a lot fo kiddy games.. hahz..
really had fun with the odacians..
(= thanks guys..
thought the guys and gals are still not bonded..
but yea.. nevertheless.. we were present as an odac!!! (=

hate mon to come.. cos i realy dun wanan part with s06!! sigh..
but wad can we do..
it will still happen..
=(
mm.. anyway.. .tmr teaching tuition at bishan.. whee!!!
after that will loitter around there to wait for eve!! hahz..
so cool!!!!

today morning wasnt in a good mood..
was so tired.. but i cant pon skol..
cos MUM dun allow..
wad can i do???
since i'm mama's gal??
so iwent skol..
wahhh... had to run when we saw the gate's closing..
ahzh.. heng ah.. wasnt late..
mm.. abit legtagic also..
but my bad mood soon went away!!
ahzh..
cos the jap students were here !!! whee!!!
i really love them man..
esp their language... hahz.. really wanna master it.. but now my target is to type one sentence first!!hazh..
mm.. one of them intro mathematics as "MAZAMATITS"!!! isnt it funny??
but its so かわいい( kawaii = cute)
hahz..
oh man!!!
so funny..
i hope i can upload the clip of them singing soon.. ahz..
just the song, not their face!!! (=

i wan a bf like him?
so caring!!! hahz..
but fear not.. i dun desire him la..
hazh.. he's not mine!!!
whee!!!
he's justa kor..
i'm just meaning if i were to get a bf. .
i must get someone who can get along well with my friends.. who care for me.
hahz..
and one who can really crap wiht me..
hahz..
of course.. must be siao siao at times.. if not no life.. hahz..
whee!!!
but then again..
single might be a better choice for me..
cos i can concentrate on my studies and work.. w/o having the need o spend extra time wiht my bf..
hahz..
mm..aiya.. i'm just super high today!!! in a super duper good mood..
hazh..
wanna danc ehte fun and mass dance.. who wanna join me??? whee!!!

oh man!!! i simply love today!!!
ahzh..
met sheila and walter at arouund 10 this morning for breakfast
peiling and michelle meet us at np
hah..
n so.. we went to np..
then peiling came..
followed by michelle..
she's late!!!
ahzh..
then later lolenzo came..
borrowed his laptop..
cos walter wanna show us some disgusting thing
mm..
then we go orchard to buy deathnote ticks..
hazh.. bought sheila, michelle, walter, me and wei jie's share!!!
hazh.. he went to meet me!!
mm... ok.. then we go play house of the dead 2!!! only 2 lor... not 4!!!sigh
okok..then wei jie came to meet us!!!
so quiet!!!
then he bought us nachos and popcorn..
thnaks!!!
then went ot watch deathnote!!!
wahhhh.. the end.. a bit leng lei!!!
esp when michelle says must stay until the end.. got something appear..
then nothing.. but the sound fade off..
wahhh.. thats so cold man!!!
hahz.. mm... walter and michelle got their own move le.. hahz.. damn funny!!
mm.. wei jie gave me the shirt just before we left!!!
thanks kor!!!
whee!!! it fits it fits
lalala..
mm.. shy sia!!!!! my foot lor.... you lied!!! how can you?? hahz..
so fuun to be crapping with kor again!!! ahzh
i had los of fun!!!! esp in the neo shop.!!! we took neos.. wahhh.. damn funny lor..
esp the part when we were tryign to pull walter in!!!
ahzh..
even the guy cant do it..
sigh..
even gao gay lor.. hazh
hazh.. mm.. shant crap so much le.. look at pics ba

i never knew talking to you would be so damn hard..
torturous..
i wanna knw you, yet i hate knowing you..
wth.. so irony..
now if you dun mind..
if you're not gonna open yourself to me..
i dun wish to talk to you.. unless there's a need..damnnnnnnit

mood's still lousy..
i cant help but feeling bad.. and sad..
but i'm happy... wadever la..
pearly just shut up adn life your boring life..
now go and watch your goong again.. or finish up your naruto..
stop kicking a fuss over your relatiosnhips and friendships and stuffs..
like as if someone out there's gonna bother..
bloody..
crap la..
who says pple is bothered..
wad can i do when i'm alone..
sad and lonely..
cant i even blog my feelings..
is it a crime..
like wad dao ming si said b4..
if saying sorry is useful.. then wads hte point of having police around..
just like this.. if doing a crime is so simple, then why is it that no everyone's caught???
gimme a break will you?
you know how i really feel?
dun pretedn to knwo when you actually dun..
dun even think that you know me pretty well..
i may be a simple gal..
but i do have my own thoughts and feelins..
its not meant for anyone to manupliate..
damn you..
if you think you know me.. then pls shooooooooo..
cos no one ever know me well..
you dun even know wad exactly i like..
so you claim to knwo me huh?
err.. grrrr..
now leave me alone will you???
i thought now that afte promos.. it might be easier for us to talk..
but looks like its wrong..
sigh..
why on earth did yo uchoose to come back into my life again?
did you really mean to destroy me!!!???
you once gave me a life.. and i appreciate that..
but dun you think you've abused it???
i once like you.. even further as a bro.. though iwas already kimura reiko..
but sicne that day, you stopped treating me like we first met..
wads the prob man..
argh forget it..
its so long ago..
why should i even bother bringing it up..
not like its gonna change anything..
leave me alone..
and i'll be ok..
daijoubu

mm... gotten back my results..
but pls dun ask me for them..
its shitty plus wadever horrible words you can fit them in..
you name wad it is..
(=
i would say i did improve alot..
mm... econs.. improve by 13 marks..
maths 3 grades
chem 2 grades.
but i deprove for bothe gp and gsc..
sigh..
failed!!! sigh sigh..
now whether i will promote or not.. its gonna be a tough thing for teachers to decide..
cos i've always been consitent..
in failing..
it has never fell out of that range of marks b4
sigh... i gotta pull up my socks during the holidays..
probably those who intended to ask me out.. think again..
maybe you guys should just bring me out to mug..
i really dun wanan do badly..
i still have my dream ot fulfil..
i really wanan do the course i wan..
sigh..
maybe i'm just gonna stay at uncle law law's house to mug my econs..
at least i got a pro econs uncle who can guide me..
but but..
its not that i'm good at my otehr subjects..
mm..
i'm not working and i'm not improving much..
imagine now that i've a job... will i drop back to square 1?? i promise the tchrs who interviewed me that if i get into ogl/ slo.. despite knowing my results.. i promised them that i will strive even harder and i will work even harder..
knowing that i'm already reaching my limit..
why did i choose to got the hard way???
why shouldnt i just choose the easier route and be a normal gal???
isnt really cos i wanna be an active gal??? or is it just my nature to be so active..
if you ask me to be a facilitator, i will actively participate.. but why cant i be so enthu in studies???
why did i keep procastinatin and why did i sleep most of the time in lects..
if not cos of walter and peggy who are always waking me up.. will i do well?
if peggy wasnt there to study with me, to push me.. will i even improve???
i really cant imagine myself being in a different class from all my friends next year..
really saddens me..
is the chalet really gonna be the end for most s06???
is it gonna be my farewell? or is it not???
wad should i do??
i've got a week exactly to reflect on wad i really wan.. the jc route or the poly route.
most of us are already thinking of that ba..
i guess... i really should think hard on wad i wan now and the future.
i have been thinking of the poly route the whole entire year..
is this why i dint scold well???
i guess i gotta concentrate on my jc way since i'm already here..
sigh
like wad peggy said in her blog..
its just part and parcel in our life ba
we will have retainees in our class..
but i'm sure.. even if we're really gonna part..
we will still keep in contact..
i'm really glad that towards the end. i might just feel the closeness of our class afterall..
even though i'm always saying its not close and stuffs..
maybe we're close afterall.. jsut that i've got a higher expectations...
(=
thanks guys..
you gusy have left me with a deep impression..
just that i've never said it out before..
thanks guys..
SUPERSIXERS!!!!

okie. its sun..jus 1 more day for play time..
tmr wil determine my future..
whether i retain or promote.
god oh god..
i've put in alot of effort for this final eoy promos..
but will i ever get the results that strikes off teh efforts??
praying hard. but i've been slacking too..
by not going church.
wanna go but there seem to be nth to push me
nth thats gives me the zest anymore..
i dun feel the excitment on going church..
i just wanna have silence with god..
even when i'm not praying, but just sitting silently, i know god's there for me..
he has not forsaken me.. for i know i'm still in his arms.

but how can we not feel lonely even if we have goD???
lord our father dun appear b4 us as and when we wanna speak to him.
arhh..

anyway.. as usual.. dint go church again la..
christians out there.. i'm so sorry..
i'll make an effort in future..
mm.. ok.. going to meet ying to find lol later.
hahz..
hopefully we wun get lost..
ahz..
mm...

guess i should start my preparation..
to study even harder over the weekends..
and also.. to prepare for my students..
wonder how i can be a good tchr to them... i'm scared.. but its also my chance to help others..

teachers dancing

farewell assembly.. hope the seniors had a fun and unforgettable time..

PJC ACES DAY

one of pjc's dance

mm.. sat... boring sat.. with nothing to do.. so i'm blogging..
watching goong now.. oh my oh my... i'm so in love with yul!!!hahzh.
he's just sooooo cute!!!
okok.. mm.. should i go kor's house tonight?? or should i not???
wanna go out play..
mm... ok.. i'm missing him!!! bet he's on his way to malaysia le ba.. hahz.. marcus!!!
dun spend soo much on your specs again ah??? heex..
bleah.. hee..
notti me.. i'm just kinda happy today!!! but i wanan go kayaking right now..
hahz.. who wanan go with me???
i'm craving for ice-skating too!!!
where's fredric? my skating mates???
heex

today had open house... been busy for the preparation.. hahz.. not only for odac but also the class..
s06.. i'm really proud of you guys.. first time i really see the bond. the willingness to help out one another even though it wasnt your time slot..
thanks guys.. to those who helped out..
hazh.. odac booth.. was a success ba i guess..but classs wasnt that good..
break even ba..
(=
mm... saw him today... keep seein him..
hahz.. his smile gave me assurance.. everything time i see him, i feel that all troubles haved eased..
heex. maybe i should see him more often.. hahz..
jkjk..
mm.. he's going malaysia le.. AGAIN!!!
and AGAIN.. he did not bring me there to play!!!
but yea.. thanks for telling me so much..
mm..
went to bishan 246 at night to meet kor and my new job..
i've gotten he job..
will be quite tiring for me..
but for $$, i have to bear wiht it..
mm.. was afriad that i will see zc..
but phew.. i dint...
asked him ofr directions though..
(=.. thats abt it..
i love to dance...
but besides fun and mass dance, i have no more opportunities to dance the kidna dance i wanna dance le..
pple have not seen the real side of me..
no one has ever seen how i've danced like..
no one has ever recognised me as a dancer cos i dun like it..
but the fact is. i love dancing more than any other thing..
dance is the only thing i wun have stage fright..

it seems like yest we just broke..
but it has been 4 months le..
since i last saw you, i dint see you again..
since i last asked you that question,you dint talk ot me again..
i'm sad.. but wad can i do?
i wish you're there for me stil.
wish to share my joy and sadness with em..
but its all over..
i have been deceiving myself for the past few months, thinking that one day i might be able to get back wiht you.
but why i wanna lie that you will return when i know perfectly that you wun..
sorry for being super super super emo today,.
its the 4th month.. cant help it.. but besides on the 17th of every month, i wun be emo.. i promise..
(=
loving him? or not loving him? blurred and confused

am i beginning to like A?
i dunno..
but why did i say that to B???
sigh... i like C. really like.. but gotta tell A i dun like C le..
but how can i like when i still have jo in me
how? my heart's confused...
sigh... i cant tell C i like him..
cos C like D..
neither do i wanan hurt B again..
B has been with me, silently there for me always.
A is always open to me abt bgr. even asked stoopid ques at times..
sigh... but E likes A alot.. and i've promised myself to E.
story telling question.
fan sie ren le.. .

mm... dun feel quite well today!!!
mm... spent the whole night editing the ppt and stuffs,...
do chinese..
talk to walter over the phone and msn..
all the lame and crappy stuffs,,
dun ask..
its just some toot ques that only pple out of their minds already in the wee night will crap abt..
hazh..
but it was fun chatting wiht shui ge
ok..
ben's party..
hahzh..
saw hannah jie, jude kor, derrick kor, benson..
and alot of familiar faces of ben's friend..
hazh. .
but sad case..
fredric never come.. =(
mm... finally had a family gathernig man..
long long time le..
ahzh.. so happy to see alicia, nicholas, marcus
hazh
the rest of teh cousins.. .i alwasy see you all de. so no need to mention ba..
oh..
morning.. wad happened in the morn..
went to clementi to meet to do pw..
then realised amcs no plug..
so we went to ngee ann to do..
ahzh..
then we really had fun..
sang alot of song..
i mimic treenie..
hazh.
then sang the recycling song in adaptation of skol song..
hazh
hzad a nice time..

erm.. yest com hang. so cannot update..
mm.. first aid..
whee!!! love it..
its very fun..
learning how to save pple and get saved myself during the experiments..
hahz..
though we keep laughing...
but i must admit, i really learn alot...
hahz..
besides learning from the instructors. i've learnt quite a bit from mr yaw too..
about figure of 8 bandage..
hahahz..
mm..
butbut..
got pple misbehave la..
inappropriate behaviour..
sigh..
then we all kena scolded after the course..
all 3 tchrs veyr very angry..
mm... ok.. scoldings over.
we helped tchrs return thte stuffs..
i carried the laptop..
then mr yaw say bring to his office..
hahz..
then he said in chinese," you guys in exco hor.... "
then i heard exco.. i blurred..
then told him i'm not in exco..
hahz,..
he gave me that shocked look a while..
heex.. i look like in exco meh???
haz.. no la.. i'm just a happy member in odac..
(= ok.. then went to meet michelle..
sorry gal.. you came all the way back to skol just to return me my ezlink..
and yea.. you said thumbdrive no gpp??? omg.. we're so dead
okok..
mm... then we went to lot 1 for dinner..
i went to ben's house to put down my stuffs..
then went over..
hazh.. ate gong bao claypot.. damn nice..
then suddenly while eating..
shi hui appeared..
wahhhh. gall.. haven seen you in a while le la..
=( ok.. but i;'m happy.. hahz.
mm... nothing to say le..
so happy to be in the same class as in.. 2 hims though..
one is class and one is first aid..
but we hardly talk to each other..

now gotta rush to clementi to meet pw gp..

long since i blogged.
today's farewell assembly..
damn nice!!! really enjoyed it..
if i was in j2. i would have cried..
ahzh..
wonder wad will happen next year..
mm.. ok..
odac.. had photo taking today!!!
on rock climbing..
hazh
i was teh anchor man!!!
damn funny..
gals one gp and guys another..
mm.. yea.. the expression we had was damn toot!!!
and camera man.. kinda biased against our cca..
so short time lor.. =(
mm..
okok..
then went rock climbin a while..
the rest of odac time.. i played frisbee..
hahz.. learnt a new skill from jason..
hazh..
but not ver good though..
at the open space.. it always land in the middle..
heex...
then is it the wind? or my technique?
when its my turn..
somehow the frisbee keep flying to minghao when i was aiming someone else..
=(
sad case..
the frisbee loves minghao ah?
hazh..
mm.. today i think our cca slack most, compared to others who trained so hard..
hazh..
oh..
b4 that... had pw..
wahhh... did practically nothing lor..
only a few words for 10 slides each..
sianx..
me and ling` cant seem to agree on the same thing..
we have different opinions le..
=(
mm.. anwyay..
i'm tired..
mentally and physically..
sigh..
tmr got first aid..
sianx...
wanan go sajc open house..
but!!!
i cant go..
sigh..
my dream skol..
cant even go for the last time..
sigh..
this morn xin asked me wads the difference between like and love..
wahhh..
tough ques..
i dunno..
feeling???
hahz.
dun ask me.. i'm a newbie.
though i know a little..
hhaaz..
anwyay..
yest talked to my penpal.. hahz. .he transitted at singapore yest..
wahhh.. nice accent!!! i like..
but some words i cant hear him.. cant really make out wad he's saying
hahz

pissed.
cried.
wth!!! its not that i'm petty or anything
but think for yourselves..
how long have all htese been like that?
why are we never bonded at all?
bloody!!!!
you know how sad i was?
when my friends are like telling me how close their class is now..
when they go for mass assembly. they are always in class..
wad abt us..
think for yourselves..
i cant say we're veyr bonded..
wad i can say is cliquish..
bonded? are we? i never thought so..
are we always in class??? NO..
not assembly in LT. NOT SO EVEN DURING BREAKS.. though we are all in the canteen.. but all over hte place..
you guys cant make the decision/ we will make it..
but wad we get in the end???
complains..
JUST LIKE THE CLASS TEE!!!
DUN EVER COMPLAIN IF IN TEH FIRST PLACE YOU GUYS DU WANNA PUT AN EFFORT IN IT!!! DAMN THE CLASS LA
class tee was the first!!!
now its chalet..
hello??? chalet's meant for all of us to have fun.. and be tgt as a class one last time with mr kum..
if you gusy just dun wanna give opinions.. dun complain if its too small to accomodate all of us..
cos its not gonna be my prob anymore..
doing you guys a favour and no one appreciates it.. damn it..

sorry to those whom i scolded.. esp close friends from other class..
sry.. when i'm cool.. i'll get back to you guys..
skol's as boring as usual..
sigh..
got bak chinese.. like shit man... wth... but yea.. still pass.. heng ah
argh... gone with the unhappiness..
begone!!!

mm.. skol ended at 11 today.. but had to stay in skol until 1 b4 can leave..
sianx....
then me and jie ying went lot 1 to eat..
wanting to go walk walk de.. hahz.. after eating..
we saw marcus at kfc..
ahzh so we went in to chat a little..
then jackson came.. wahhh.. suan me and marcus..
sian..
how can he think that we're tgt???
weirdo..
marcus dun bother abt jackson.. heex..
mm... so we decided to go bugis walkwalk..
but.. dunno why we changed our mind and go causeway to watch movie..
sian... wasted 6.50..
sigh. its a love comedy..
but yea.. i dunno why i dint laugh at all..
then ending was veyr touching..
nearly cried.. its not somehting i should be doing..
but somehow.. i really wished i was the character at that point of time.
hoping for him to say that phrase..
sighhhhx..

wad is the taste of chocolate?
bitter.. thats the kind i eat..
hate sweet stuffs..

wad is the feeling of love now?
taste of chocolate.
though it can be sweet.. but mostly bitter

wanna cry. yet have to be strong.
wanan shout " just leave me alone."but who really understands
wanna scream to the sea asking"why give me love when you will take it away from me "
wanna see him just once more. yet i cant.
i cant cant cant do anything for him anymore.
why?why?
because the guy i love most is only in my heart now.
so wad if i see him? does it really make a diff now?
the feeling for him now is faded.
but wads so strong in me that make me tear.
is the love i received back then that left a lasting impression.

i dint blog yest.. was busy catching my naruto.. heex...
okok.. yest dint do much..
but spent my entire day at old sajc building taking BusinessChineseTest (BCT)
hahz..
morning met peiling then we went to eat. before waiting for porshin at control station.
then we took 963 down..
ahz..
heex... blurp blurp keep disturbing me lor..
=(
so in the end i sat wiht pors for a while..
hahz.. he so quiet as usual..
hahz..
but so funny..
every time we see each other..
we just smile at each other..
doenst matter how long..
he will still be smiling..
so cute!!!
hazh.. okok..
erm.. we reach there quite early..
then walk around the skol a while..
whhhh..
even though i'm not in sajc..
but somehow.. i felt someting towards tht skol..
its as confusing as the current skol..
hahz..
mm... ok... mm.. we saw on the wall the various open houses..
wanna go quite badly..
but!!!
got first aid course on that day.. and we cannot dun go..
sigh..
got home at near 7pm..
sigh.. ate, watch my naruto. then at 12 plus am.. i decided to do a video..
hahz.. but i'm pissed.. cos my com doesnt recognised some video files!!! sigh..

today is IHG!(interhouse game)
hahz.. this year as usual odac incharge of ultimate frisbee..
hazh..
hmm.. was involved in netball..
ahzh.. so pui pui..
only 3 came.. then had to pull somemore pple in..
hazhh.. but yea.. not bad la..
those who came are good players..
god team mates. .hahz..
whee!!!
thru this game i know more pple.
ahzh. .
mm.. thought we lost.. but its ok.. we still got third anyway..
(=
mm.... had a fun time..
but!!!
i dint go for my mini mock..
ahzhhz..
went to the zoo to enquire abt CIP!!!
and guess wad they say???
we gotta email first!!!
wahhhh!!! made a wasted trip..
sigh..
but its was still fun..
the fact that we saw so many stuffss..
and took pics..
ahzh. .
hahz..
really like tourist la..
hazh.. oh.. checked the admission fee..
so ex!!!
20 buck for us lor..
=(
ahzh..
mm... when delia got her dad's card.. we can all go in free.. hazh..
okok.. went ot cheers.. wahhh!!! there de drink is 3 times higher than normal..
ohhh.. not to forget, me and de bought teh same slippers..
whheee!!! fun fun..
anwyay...
they were suaning me thru out la..
me and my red indian tribe..
dun insult it hor... before i get angry..
ahzh..
hahz.. nahhh.. as if man..
heex...
i love the zoo..
its the first time i've ever been there, to wad i can rememebr..
heexxx.. i'm looking forward to going in.!!!! hazh
animal farm??? when shall we go???
whee!!!

exams finally over..
had odac meeting this morning..
ahzh..
ok.. phillipines..
24-29 nov isit???
hazh..
whee!!!
cant wait cant wait..
peeped at him alittle..
but we both dun really bother abt each other le ba..
not like he ever bothred..
ahzh. .
but yea..
i'm pissed..
wad i've studied for gsc dint come out..
instead.. a similiar question for gp came out.. wahhh!!!
translated eveyrhting in chinese..
bet it sounds weird..
plus me forcing some chim words in, even though they wun fit int..
ahzh.. okok.. tmr is ihg..
hope after netball.. i can go over ultimate frissbee to help the odac pple. .
azhaz..
whee!!!
and tmr i'm going to teh zoo????
ahzh
whee!!!anyway
so not fair lor..
our promos start eariler.. but we end same time as other skol.. cos we had to wait a few days for the last paper..
sigh sigh
anyway
i had a nice dream yest.. wished i dint have to wake up from that dream..
in there.. though all my family members objected..
and i was cold to you, thinking that you dint bother anymore..
we were back tgt despite their objection..
and it all happened at this enclosed place of tournaments. frisbee, quash and i think badminton..
cousins were there too..
jo.. if that was real, i will be happy. but its my fantasy land. to allow me to get free of myself..
talk to meiling darling..
hazh.. she keep *pats*
hazh.. felt so blessed to know her..
at least she taught me some stuffs today..
thanks gal..
hazh
ok.. thats its for today..
watching naruto

STILL SEARCHING FOR PPLE WHO WANNA WORK!!
HAHAZ!!! FRIENDS!! LETS ALL WORK TGT!!! DURING HOLIDAYS AND HAVE EXTRA MONEY TO BUY WAD WE WANT!!!
FOR PPLE WHO ARE LIKE ME, I MEAN POOR, THIS IS A GOOD TIME TO SAVE!!! HEEX... (=(=
erm... ok.. went ben's house this afternoon.. then.. taught cedric a little..studied my gsc also..
hazh.. then 3 plus pm.. went with cedric for mr eio's lesson.
hazh.. long time since i lastr saw him
hazh.. ok.. his lesson from 330 to 630..
sian... 3 hrs..
hazh.. i spent some time walking around.. to see the all the pple i missed..
hazh.. then after that.. went to macs to study..
hazh.. studied until 625 when ah jiong came to look for em.. hahz. .
saw marcus too.. wahhh since when my cousins all so tall ah???
looks like i'm super super short.. hahz..
heex.. okok.. then after cedric finished. we went to ah man's office to pick ah ma..
then went ot imm to eat!!
there changed alot.. hazh.. now got extension somemore..
hazh..
whhhoooooo..
yea.. and esprit got discount.. jajz..
then cedric went rolling into a corner.. to be a model.. hazh.. damn damn funny..
anyway.. i've spent my time having fun for the past 2 days..
hopefully i wun fumble tmr.. heex..
okok..
shant write too much.. still at ah ma's house though.. heex..

anywya... damn the security.. chased me outta skol just caused i was wearing sliipers.. like hello..
i was there to get my file.. not to go into the skol..
principle will scold???
hazh.. mrs tan is too nice.. more likely cbt will catch..
but yea.. its my fault from wearing slippers.. but i was like planning to go locker straight and then come out.. sigh.. human's nature not to trust anyone..
sigh..
why that man chased pple out.. but the lady is so nice to us?
they are both securities..
and wad will they gain???
argh.. damn it..
ok.. dun wanna talk abt it le..
thansk gab for helping me anyway
(=

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WHO WANNA WORK AT SETTLERS?
venue: katong
pay: $4.5/hour
do what?: hazh.. learn to teach pple how to play games, cook some food, serve drinks
ITS AN EASY JOB!! VERY SLACK
NEED ALOT OF FEMALES.MALES ALSO CAN!
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thanks

dreamt that my group of gfs were sitting in a shade opp mh's gang..
we were talking abt them and they were looking at us while studying
they were studying but we were chatting..
then suddenly i received news that my dad's gonna die..
then i rushed upstairs..
then he talked to me a little.. before dying..
i was so scared i quickly ran towards mum and aunty..
then a while later when i calmed myself down..
i asked them to bring me to dad's body again..
at there i kowtow 3 times..
and suddenly i saw the past of kowtowing 36 and 48 times to get different results..
and suddenly i saw dad's eyes opening a little..
ahhhh!!!!!!! i screamed and ran down the stairs to where jun hong and his friends were..
and i cried again..
gfs all came and consoled me..
but aunty and mum took a very long time to come down..
was quite worried..
then wanted to go up but was afraid..
then when i was thinking.. they came down..
but charged towards me..
then they seemed to have so much strength, they used they right hand to hit against my head and somehow they transferred powers to me..
aunty gave me 50% of her powers and mum 80%
and an additional soul gave all his powers to me..
so weird..
and i suddenly gained a upper hand and went onto hte next level.
level 11..
fighting the heaven god..

wads this all about???
is it a bad omen..
i hate to dream of someone dying..
eps dying.
cos my dreams al always true..
last time i dream of grandma died, grandpa really died..
now its dad..
will mum be okay???
really worried..
sigh.. or am i thinking too much of my naruto?
but wad abt the pple in my dreams?
the guy i hope to dream of,i never dreamt of him again since that incident..
sigh..

oik... wanted to blog yest.. but i was too indulged in my naruto..
hahz..
okok..
yest went orchard with peggy after our econs..
hazh..
eye opening for her sia..
mm... wanna know wad made her " WOW"
ask her la..
mm.. we went to this place esp for tourist..
ahzh.. so we decided to be a tourist in our skol uni,,
hazh. thats place sia..
like heaven..
mainly for jap pple..
wahhhhhh
my fav!!!
but yea.. i couldnt make friend with any young kid la..
mm... then that place.. super big and tall!!!
alot of chocolates too!!!
me and peggy saw this super super nice shirt..
hazh..
but its super super ex..
1 piece $22.9? ex right?
saw a lot of others also..
damn damn damn ex..
and i saw a bag i like!!!
but its a figure i can never afford..
hahz..
sigh.
but still i'm just glad to be in that heaven for a while..
ook...
mum brought me out for dinner!!!
finally we''re eating tgt outside..
long time sicne we last went out tgt..
mm.. went to ivans to eat!!!
heex..
very happy..
saw philip, lory, and all my other collegues..
but sigh..
never see sheila and aunty iris..
and the kitchen aunty whom i always disturb..
but nevertheless..
i'm still happy..
going back there duringthe holidays.
hazh..
gonna hold a few jobs ba..
i'm sure it wun affect my studies..
hahz.. i'm gonna prove to them..

hahz.. ok.. studied at home today.. for the very first time in j1!!!
praise the lord..
hazh..
who would have thought i'm able to study at home sicne i'm always pestering pple to study with me outside..
made a slight improvement huh?
mm.. okok..
anw..
was out with peggy yest..
to relax outselves a little..
whee!!!
love it man..
next week's gonna be even more fun..
hahz. .
anwyay
met frank yest..
whee!!!
buddy!!!
nice one sia..
anwyay...
watched a little of naruto..
yea man!!!
ermm.. went to peggy's house..
on the way.. i somehow had a song in mind.. hazh

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