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DELIA SAID SHE CAN WALK BACKWARDS!!!
hahz.. lover's so funny!!!
hahz.. anyway..
she ah... pro in maths le lor..
hahz..
publisize for her.. any maths probs, look for her!!!
hazh.. no la..
mm.. ok.. had mock today..
mm.. was hesitating whether i should go or not..
but i'm glad i went!!
heex..
paper wasnt very tough..
but just that i did a lot of mistakes..
and i took alot of shortcuts..
heex..
so it tells me that i have to be more long-winded..
heex..
mm.. dint do really well cos of careless mistakes..
only scored 39/70
but nvm..
ganbatte!!!
i will be better!!!
heex..
mm. friday blues..
so yea.. dint really study!!!
SO GONNA STUDY TMR MAN!!
no more sat & sun blues..
mon is the start of promos..
i'm getting more and more nervous.. hazh
anyway.. had ultimate frisbee today!!
whee!!!
grouped with him!! and peggy and peiling..
hahz..
veyr happy!!
met mr yaw..
hahz.. he said when we received the masstin from the pe room.. we gotta give them a good wash again.. before using..
if not!!!
hahz..
so since he called me to tell me all these..
i asked him where we going and helped those going to china ask abt odac trip
hahz.. we're most likely to go phillipines.. flying to clark airbase.
and going to one of the volcano... extinct one i supposed..
he said above there there's a lake.. and its damn happening.. hahz..
looking forward to there..
whee!!! no thailand, no nepal.. but phillipines!!!
for those who are going china.. you guys will not be going for odac trip..
hahz..
admire the china trip pple.. cos it will benefit them in testimonial..
but not us..
=(

promos nearing.. yet. i dun feel prepared.. but then again..
i prepared for them very hard.. hopefully this time i will do well..
mm... got GSC ca marks.. very very badly done..
guess to pass GSC end of the year.. i need 56%...
whcih is damn high.. cos i've never hit 45 and above.. sigh..
mm..

was it ever wrong for me to become 06S06's CM?
i did give you my advice before..
but you choose not to listen..
now that so many problems arrived.. its all my fault?
why is it that you all can be angry with me? yet when i'm really angry, i'm not allowed to show it to you?
in class i'm of higher authority than you.. but i never abused it..
out of class i'm older than you..
yet you never show me respect..
and wad made matter worse is that I DID NOTHING TO PROVOKE YOU!!!
get the hell outta me..
now shooo..
OLD clique is always making me upset.
why are they affecting my mood so badly?
prepare now.. heex.. at least got lao po, shuai ge, chie hong.. occasional jun hong.. hazh..
and i dun feel restricted to one clique only now..
hahz..

okok.. good news!!!
06S06
we're so gonna have class outing..
and i'm glad that you guys responded this time!!!
after promos.. probably that week or the next, we'll be going to sentosa..
for wad i'm not sure la.. hazh..
mm..
AND!!!
we're gonna open a chalet!!!
this will be a treat from MR KUM!!!
BUT.. this is a condition..
1. do well for MATH
2. clear promos
this chalet will be held end of the year..
probably we wanna make it near christmas..
so S06 will be celebrating christmas together..
isnt it wonderful???
then we will have to prepared 27 presents each.. hahz..
26 plus mr kum!!!
hazh..
cos we all studied hard..
muggers hard at work..
GANBATTE!!!( all the way!!!)

had internal struggles..
for him:

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Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear

but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

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Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

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just realised thatmy blog is just black and white.. and its like EEEEWWWWW
DULL!!! just like my life... oh wells..
have been sick.. down with high fever + sorethroat+ headache
but yea.. thanks to those who really showed concern for me..
i'm really really thankful to your guys..
hahz..
mainly
MARCUS
JOYCE
PEILING
PEGGY
DELIA
my 5 dominant friends.. hahz.. the rest also got la.. but too many to name.. heex..
OH.. my MI friends.. hahz
STINGRAY
JACKSON
DREA
LOLENZO
did i miss anyone out? i bet i did.. but i cant remember..
azh.. okok.. i'm gonna try decorate this post alittle.. hazh.. its just too plain!!!

LOLENZO: my mummy allow me to learn piano from your tchr!!!help me go find out the day and time yea??? hahz.. will tell you in details..WHEE!!!

PEILING: you veyr mean lor!!! how can tickle brownie the whole night.. eeeewwww... thankfully i dint felt tickled the whole night.. it'd be terrible if you tickled brownie and i felt it.. hazh

PEGGY: laopo.. dun angry le.. me sick.. qian jiu alittle la.. heex.. i got practise piano lor.. next time play for you.. but i dunno how to play your jay songs.. heex..

ok you guys must be wondering what am i doing in the early morning.. since i slept pretty late last night.. hahz.. oh wells.. i slep from 6pm-10pm. thus i couldnt sleep at 12am.. hahz.. was trying to get pple to call me to talk to me at 135am.. but i supposed all of them slept??? hahz..
yea.. and now i'm awake.. hopefully i wun go back to sleep after taking my medicine.. mm.. preparing for my chem test later.. mum insisted me to go take the test.. so since i'm guai and mummy's gal.. i shall go.. bu tthey all said its freaking difficult.. and it scares me out.. hahz..

oh.. and i just played the piano.. hahz.. maybe i shall play it for lao po to hear.. since she always complain that i never play for her b4.. hee... but i'm not good at it yea..

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just woke up from my sleep..
hahz..
sickly pple tend to sleep more..
right?
mm. oko.. i had a dream..
a dream i dint wan it to happen..
was very saddened by it..
ok here it goes..

i was drunk on a sun night..
and jo so happened to see me..
cos its family day, he have to go home.. so he brought me home.. without his parents knowing..
then when i woke up.. i was in his formal room..
then room where he used to sleep..
and he had his level renovated.. such that he's sleepin in his bro reoom le.
so i woke up quite late..
then was wondering why i was in his house..
so i walked around hoping not to see anyone..
then i went into his bro room, finding him sleeping..
i guessed i wokr him up..
i got a shocked and hid in a corner.. hoping not to see him..
then i wanted to leave..
but he said all his relatives are below.. so he asked me not to leave first.. until all of them left..
suddenly his mum came in with some stuffs..
and i moved aside.. then she questioned jo "what is she doing here? you 2 tgt still?"
jo crudely put across" break already la." and i saw the smile on her..
so i went up.. before she closed the door trying to explain.. and she said.. " its ok, i know already"
then jo asked me to take a shower first.. after showering.. i asked him where to put the tower.. and he told me this very far place..
hten while walking.. saw 2 of his uncles. trying to avoid being seen though..
then when i was back in his room. i asked for pen and paper..
mm.. wanted to write his mum this lette rto explain everything..
meanwhile we talked..

argh!!! suddenly my fone rang.. and i woke up..
argh..
so sad..
i wanna know wads the end..
but i know its not something good..
sigh.. i finally dreamt of him with seeing his face...
after 3 months..
really wanna see him..
hoping one day we could have a happy ending.
how to say. i cant live w/o this guy..
but i trust that the lord will guide me..

mm.. i've been thinking through..
maybe i'm sick not cos of sick..
but more towards emotional..
even though its really physical, i feel it more towards emotional..
dun ask why..
i really wish for someone to comfort me..
wish that person will be by me again..
wishful thinking.. most of you will say..
he's gone. and he will never return..
sigh..
why?
me and kor jie's the same..
sigh..
single but not available..
only to wait for our particular guy/ gal..
hope she will return to kor jie.. and of course i hope baby will return to me..
mm..
i really wish the past can return..
but i dun wan him to be here physically..
also wan his love..
sigh..
for him, everything is possible..
ever since we break.. and skol started, i've been missing skol at least once a week..
sigh..
why am i so weak..
why can i overcome this bgr thingy?
why must it affect me so much??
am i not a good gf?
can you like tell me?
why are you avoiding me?
are we still friends?
sigh.. i'm sad sad sad.
still loving you.. but.. its all too late
we wun have a second chance tgt le .. sigh.. why am i so sadden suddenly???
dammit

ok.. shall do peiling the favour by posting more post to cover the entry.. hahz.. but i'll post more pics up too!!!
mm.. ok.. yest went to harbourfront wiht lingg` to study while she give peiling tuition..
then went ot woodlands to meet marcus they all to study!!
wasnt feeling well le..
lingg` ask me go home rest..
but obviously i dint wan la.. cos today got chem test. so wanna study! make full use of the time..
but then!!! at woodlands.. i dint know why.. was feeling damn weak..
very cold also..
had bad chest pain also..
m... marcus treat me and siew ting to swensens side dish..
ahzh..
then went home..
reached home at 9 plus..
but i wash up and went to sleep..
was feeling damn terrible..
have fever of 38.4 degree..
and the whole night i couldnt sleep..
dunno why.. was in a dream of chem and orgainc chem..
argh..
felt as if i was stuck in the story telling organic..
with KMnO4 and H2O and H2SO4.
damn it,..
ok.. woke up this morning at 545am.. checked my temp.. still 38.4 degree..
i've never gotten sdo high b4..
azh..
for a moment i really thoght i was having a tumour in my right brain..
so my head was splittin apart..
mm..
oko.. never go skol duh..
slept until 12 plus..
then followed mum to have lunch wiht aunty rebecca and ah ma.
then went to see doctor//
ahzh..
got throat infection.. apprently.. hahz..
throat's red. nose's also red.
doctor said having chest pain is normal.. and headach too..
and he assured mum that i dint have migrain..
thank god..

ok.. shall do some postings.. hahz..

back then when lingg` managed to persuade the lady to sell me this pig! (=

peggy.. lingg` wanted me to sabotage you.. heex.so here goes

see this mooomo??? hahz.. cute cute

this is the front..

the back of the moomoo... (=

see lingg`??? hahz.. why is she flying away>???

lingg` and her new brownie.
she haven bought cookie yet.. hazh

peiling full of emotions!!! eating her brownie!!! eeeeew...

brownie so guai.. still sit on lingg` even though its being bitten off by her.. hahz..

dun you all think brownie is co cute, innocent and pure!!! unlike her owner..hazh (refering to lingg`)

ok.. thats all i have for now.. (=
guys.. i'm so sorry for missing skol so many times.. must have brought trouble to you all..
esp peiling and peggy!!!
thanks alot.. hahz..
(=

oh reflection for yest..
broke 3 months le.. official 3 months..
cant really let it down.. but i'm managing it well by pushing myself to study real hard..
he's avoiding me.. why?? mm.. i knwo he likes someone le.. if i'm not wrong.. but oh wells..
jiayou baby!!!

mm.. went o meet peiling at woodlands lib this afternnon at 12..
heex..
then we study until dunno wad time..
hazh..
then we ate at kfc..
late lunch..
then went to yishun to meet aloy to continue study!!
woodlands was raining..
we were all in the sian mood.
but no choice..
exams comng.. pushed ourselves to study..
giving little time to slack/ rest.
hahz..
studied until 8pm.. then we go take neos.. then go eat..
heex..
quite happy today..
hee..
dun ask why















us in our neos.. (me, aloy kor and peiling)

see peiling? trying to be anglic

wonder wad blurp blurp is doing,...

dun aloy kor look pretty? gorgous? hahz...

what is peiling doin??? omg

me and darling blurp blurp
close friendS!!!=)

mm... haven been bloggin for a day?
miss blogging..
hmph.. okok.. nth much actually..
just that i'm getting more stressed each day..
worrying abt too many things le..
hazh..
i was guai..
dint go skol yest. but i did my homework.. i still went back in the afternoon for chem and GSC.
then stayed back for night study..
chie hong is so nice!!!
he bought me ice milo..
ahzh..
yay!!!
hmmm... should i be happy or sad?
i dunno!!! gotta study hard for chem, econs and maths!!! not enough time
argh!!!
mm...ok .. when i'm really free.. i will go upload all the photos..

hmm... today had a short day.
hmph.. slept in econs tut..
so sorry..
really veyr boring..
hazh..
hmph..
after skol.. went home to bathe before going to causeway to meet aloysius and peiling to study..
hazh..
mm... felt so happy!!!
heex.. dun ask why..
just a sudden mood change..
tok alot of photos..
but all the zilian photos, not veyr nice..
dunno why..
hazh.. i like fiddling with peiling and aloy's fone
hazh..
hm... got alot of pics to show you all.. but my damn com got prob.. hahz..
hmph..
did alot of work today.. veyr happy!!!
hm...
in skol.. he made me veyr upset today..
dint wanna talk to him..
why of all things, he must lie to me???
i can tolerate everything except for those who lie!!!
i really really hate pple who lie..
dun lie can???
mm.. he teased me during econs lect..
very mean of you to say me and jun hong malay couple lor..
know how sad i am???
mm... after skol you walk so fast also..
dunno for wad.. hmph..
nvm. shant say le..
afterall.. you dun dominate my feelings. so its ok..
dun really bother..
ahz
oh.. met aloy's friend.. called guang wei.
hazh
cool!!!!!

hmph.. skol's kidna boring today..
nearly slept in alot of lessons..
hahz..
veyr tired la..
hmph..
ok..
but when it was chinese..
i was kinda awake..
mm.. cos i was sitting beside lao po and WALTER!!!
hazh..
damn funny la..
like everything can happen if yo usit wiht shui ge..
hahz..
NEVER BORROW HIGHLIGHTER FOM WALTER!!!
hahz..
hmph..
anyway.. walter blabbered stuffs abt me mistaking sheila for him as my secret admirer..
so malu..
hmph..
mm... pe was boring..
had to do orienteering again..
hahz..
mr hiap!!! instructions were not correct de..
ahzh..
made us go wrong place..
ahzh..
okok..
after pe.. i had to take my pe test..
qutie hard.. hahz.. alot of mistakes..hahz..
hopefully i did well..
ahzh..
hmph.. then at night, brought peggy ot ben's house for dinner..
hazh..
first time i cook for my lao po..
hazh.. and she saw la..
wahhh!!! so shy lei..
i cant cut as good as ben la..
but still.. hmph.. i can be the assis chef.. jhahz..
cool cool
but so funny..
cook too much .. and too much rice too!!!
thats wad happens when he always ask me how much rich needed..
hazh..
peggy mixed well with ben and esp elsie..
hahz..
so cute..
hmph./. oko.. i'm tired.. nite bloggie..

took some pics over the past few days..
came across some modelling too!!! (=

scandals. peiling and walter

peggy dunno smiling at who..

oh no!!! can only upload 2??? pathetic... nvm.. upload somemore.. when the damn thing can work

mm.
today is the second day of the youth dialogue session..
mm... went to NLB..
but never attend the thing.. hhahz
kinda boring though..
ahz..
mm... peggy me and peiling met at NLB in the afternoon then went to bras basah to study..
hmph.. simin went ot the basement to study alone..
=(
hmph.. okok.. at around 4 plus.. we went back..
peiling went to meet hewr cousin..
so she left..
so left me, peggy and simin..
hazh..
then at hte end of the whole thing..
they printed some notes for us..
jhahz..
so the 3 of us wanna be nice ot our class..
took for those who signed up but dint come..
got your name personalised on de..
hazh
better thank us helping you guys take
hahz..
hmph..
after today canot see my pretty boy le..
hahz..
he's sooooo pretty la..
cute too!!!
hahz
when he went up to speak his views again..
i was mesmerised again..
hazh..
hmmm..
ok.. anyway..
went to bugis foodcourt to eat roti prata!!!
guess who i saw???
hazh..
YUAN FENG!! wahhhh!!! the world damn de small..
after first 3 months.. never see any of them le..
kidna happy ot see him..
even though he couldnt recognise me..
yuan feng said i look prettier w/o skol uni..
ahzh.. thanks ah.. buddy!!!
after seeing you today..
i remembered the times we used to sms each other to wake each other up in lect in MI
hahz
damn funny..
even chop seats also sms each other..
mm..
ok..after the thing... me and peggy went straight to bpp to study!!!
hazh until 8 plus..
i accomplished quite a few task today..
did alkenes and arenes mind map..
copied peggy's chinese stuffs.
did 4 exercise of find the meaning of words on dictionary..
hahz.. and tryoing to memorise "i miss you so much" in jap.
dunno why i suddenly wanna learn my jap again..
hahz.. if i can.. my wish is to blog in jap one day,,. at least one post..
hazh
(=

anyway today is minghao's and maio sia's bdae!!!
wahh .. 2 odacian's bdae same day sia..
happy bdae!!!!
sweet. seven.teen.

mm.. this morn wen tof rthe youth dialogue session thingy..
quite sian..
mm.. so after one.. we went off le..
hmph.. met ben!!!
hazh..
hmph..
then me and peggy went to walk around bras for a while..
befor egoing to bishan..
hazh..
go bishan to meet languan..
hazh..
i was really thrilled to see him..
dun ask why..
really miss him alot alot..
mm.
but when i finally saw him..
wad i wanted to do, i forgot to do and of course even if i did, i couldnt remmeber..
hmph..
gaev him the present..
then a while later after talking a bit..
we left..
my tears nearly dropped..
mm... i told him the truth la..
but i dint tell him my belated bdae wish..
anywya.. knwo that he has someone in his heart now..
feel glad..
hope kor's happy!! =)
mm. promos coming. .
why always when exams coming..
sure got this kinda thing happen de?
is this the main reason why i'm affected and cant concentrate in my studies??
gimme a break la..
mm..
can i generalise for once???
only once..
guys..
all not worth gals loving them so much..
mm.
all guys are horny bastards..
hahz..
i'm sry to the guys who read my blog..
esp the hg pple..
argh!!!
mm.. okok..
evening.. went to bpp to study with peggy!!
but i was too tired le..
went there to sleep for an hour...
kenasai..
waste my time sleeping..
so i dint wanna continue sleeping there..
so i left..
think she's still htere ba..
hope she can study!!

mm. he told me his answer le..
sigh.. very sad sad sad..
i cried myself to sleep you knoe?
but i promise myself.. it will be the last night i cry for him.
since your answer was no..
why even bother waiting?
since the feeling will never return anymore..
mm..dint sleep until like 3 plus 4 plus 5.
mm... wad can i do??? cry lor..
i've survived te past 3 months thinking i will still have a chance..
but my 3 months is totally whecked..
hjph..
oko..
mm.. dint really concentrate in chem today..
cried in the lt when told pl mummy.
sry..
mm.. after chem lect..
me peiling went to meet peggy at bus stop .. then we go lot one to eat..
hmph..
then went to teck whye buy bubble tea..
at the same time went to change my narito shirt..
heex..
i like my new shirt..
heex..
love it alot alot..
mm.. wann aget more jap shirt..
mm.. okok.. dun talk abt all these le..
abt tha went bsack to skol for chem tut..
then go to admiralty wiht blurp blurp..
so tutored her other peiling..
haszh.. then after that went to meet korkor roy..
hazh..
hmph..yay!!! tmr is gp thingy!!!
not that i'm looking forward to it..
but i'm looking forward to after the whole day..
heex..
gonna meet languan !!! hahz.. mm.. really cant wait..
wonder wad we will say to each other tmr..
hahz..
hkmph..
anyway hope tmr we can at least talk ot each other ba..
(=

mm.. jackson spoilt my mood totally!!!
not monkey jackson.. but MI de..
wth!!! must you be so crude in wadyou say?
ass you la..
so wad if you're busy?
you htink you're the only one busy?
jc students are more busy than you are lor..
go reflect on yourself la..
ya.. bestfriends know wad each otehr is doing adn jo knows exactly wad you're doing huh?
adn you still say he's not your bestfriend?
wad crap la..
bloddy hell..
a bestfriend dun have to know wad exactly you're doing unless you tell him..
he/she will naturally know wad you're thinking..
and knows when you're upset..even without telling them..
ya..
this is the way we're gonna stop contacting each otehr huh?
not gonna talk for 3-4 yrs? or even 10?
as you wish..
not like its gonna be my prob..
bleah!!!
you spoilt my mood totally la..
crap!!!
hmph..
anyway... today wasnt in stduying mood..
went to bugis at 2 plus wiht peggy!!!
she bought her bag..
i bought my necklace strap for $3.5
a pig hp strap for $1
ate jap ice cream for $4.5
otah$2
bubble teas $3.4
chicken wings $1
dinner $3
a pig keychain $1
total spent $19.4
wahhhh!!! so sad..
mm... but nvm.. mostly on food..
hahz..
i saw a nice zinc crampler..
hee..
wanted to buy..
but dint wanna spend the money..
cos my bag is still in good condition..
mm..
ok.. met peiling..
studied alittle..
den dint have mood to study le..
so we went around shopping alittle..
mm.. played house of the dead..
wahhh!!!! so scary!!! never play b4..
=(
mm.. then we went to see hp..
hazh.. she saw the fone she want..
hahz..
hmph..
i wanna change too.. but then i'm not veyr interested in the fones!!!
heex..
still like my fone!!!
mm.. i'm happy!!!
someone won jackpot for the arcade game..
then we went ot ask if she can sell us a little pig keychain..
since she wasnt into the pig.. she happily sold us for $1
heex..
so happy!!!
thanks to that xiao jie
heex..
hmph..
chat with online daddy!!!
hahz..
abt that things i want and the place i wanna go!!!
wanna go japan, london..
but i need to save money..
and!!!
i can only go after my A level
so now.. i have to concentrate on my studies..
damn.. i need ot refocus..
losing track again..
cos of all the bad moods..
anyway.. this morning i very happy!! before going out..
finally talked to languan..
wahhh!!! he's not avoiding me anymore!!!
my quote of the day!!! again!!!
" happy is the gal named pearly"
hazh.. sooo happy.. that he's finally talking to me again.. after a long dunno how many months..
whee!!!
i'm so glad i can meet up wiht him on sat..
after the gp thingy!!
really hope to call you kor again.
mm.. i wonder wad i will say to you when i meet you..
but i wanna do something..
the one that you did to me at pasir ris coastal sands outside..
heex..
mm.. its only between us.. no one else knows..
whee!!!
anywya.. really miss my kor alot!!!
=)
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mm...woke up super late..
hazh..
hmph..
yest awas in a super super bad mood.
dao jackson's sms after i signed out..
sorry..
hmph..
anyway..
today is a new day..
i'm gonna strive all over again..
i wanna be an alive pig!!!
hmph..
soudns wrong.. but yea..
okok..
gonna go bugis soon.
gonna get the lovely black necklace strap.. heex.. whee!!!! okok..
meeting peggy at our house busstop in half an hours..
mm... gonna blog quick and go play piano!!!
heex..
miss my darling piano so much..
its been 2 days since i last touched it..
hmph..
i feel my talent comin back..
cos i'm having hte music flow again..
whoohoo..
okok..
online daddy smsed me!!!whee!!!
he's gonna ge tme the nice shirt!!!
the grey army shirt!!!
whee!!!
ohoh..
forgot.. kor jie's gonna get me the air force tee..
hahaz..
and maybe yjc's tee!!!
i guess. even life wasnt as beautiful as before..
i've met new nice people..
erm.. jie's not new..
but yea..
my counsellor's just as nice as before!!!
ahzh..
cant help but keep praising him..
anyway..
since marathon, i haven met up with him le..
gonna meet him up soon..
so cool.
he's studying in air force skol..
ahz..
i wanna CRASH!!! hahz..
but cannot =(
hahz... kok.. i'm gonna be GUAI and study extra hard today!! heex/./.
oh.. woke up in the morning to make lg's present.. the box i mean.. heex..
hope you can remmeber the past!!! =)
29 days to freedom..
4 days to his bdae.
20 days to lg's bdae

whee!! this morning had nice breakfast with blurp blurp and lao po..
damn funny la..
lao po bought her big breakfast le..
then realsied that she dint have her cutlery and pepper and salt..
hazh..
she walked back and forth twice lor..
hmph..
other than that..
nothing much..
except stduying in bpp macs and woodlands..
mm.. saw walter and simin..
scandal sia..
ahzh
aiya.. dunno wad to blog..
i suddenly dun like using com le..
sigh..
veyr saddenning..
mm..
someone influence me can..
today whil walking.. suddenly recalled someone saying this..
" woman.. take your time la.. walk so fast for wad?"
sigh..
that person really influenced me alot..
haixx..
dunno if tis good or not.
better be.
hmph..
anyway.. i fixed my necklace!!! heex..
yay!!
but i'm still gonna buy that nice nice necklace i saw at bugis..
hee..
cos its so nice..
mm.. counting down!!!
30 more days to freedom..
20 days to start of terror..
21 days to my dearest! kor
5 more days to him.
and -3 days to hensley's birthday!!!
OMG!!! i just realised... hensley.. so sry..
this is the first time i totally forgot abt your bdae..
first time in 8 years..
argh!!!
soooo sry!!!
hmph..
anyway.. veyr long never see henz le...
miss the hamster of shalom!!!
hazh..

oh!!! i've got something to announce..
heex.
i'm not going to chc le.. until promos over and i'll consider again..
see jo.. i said before..
i might give up sooner..
and i did..
BUT!!! not going churhc doesnt mean i'm giving up christ..
hmph..
i'm just not ready like you la..
understandable why you chose not to reply me that msg le..
thanks anyway.

i'm no difference from a mummy..
somehow i'm like half dead.
though i'm still alive
sigh..
my mood's drained..
my mind's dried.
but i'm forcing and squeezing juice out.. tyring to keep myself alive..
i seriously need to take cre of my health..
doubt i can afford my medical expense le..
shoudl i even go watch show tmr?
i feel like swimming..
but i dun feel like going hometeam.
cos i dun wana recall abt the past.
but!!! thats my club..
dun go.. then be member for waD?
argh!!!
i think i need to have a balanced life..
maybe when skol starts..
i should allocate days to go there swim.
slowly get my mind off all the stressful stuffs..
i need to revisit all the past.
to put them down.
places i've revisited:
-east coast.
-west mall
-poly clinic
-MI
-skol bus stop
-bpp
-lot 1

places haven revisit:
-hsi house
-cine
- t&S
-mos
-sngs
-bukit timah plaza
-ivans
-imm
-creative
-pasir ris park
-sbs buses
-fountain of wealth
-suntec toy r'us
-etc.. (cant remember)

alot alot!!i'm coping well..
soon 3 months..
i cant believe it..
its been so long yet i'm not open enough..
hmph..
its long.. compared to the past.
argh!!!
taking up too much brain capacity..
shoooo..
hahz..
ok..
i'm super bored now..
so im' crapping..
trying to pass time! sian..
why am i feeling troubled all of a sudden?
why am i feeling moody all of a sudden?
mood swimg?
but i'm not pmsing..
argh!!!
someone pls help me?
i wanna be a guy!!! cos i will be a good bf..
hahz.. i know i will..
hmp..
i told lao po. i'm turning les..
heex..
cos i'm liking gals and guys now..
but i hope i wun turn les la..
if not it will be super sad..
turning les in a mix skol..
meaning the guys.. cmi thats why..
hahzh..
oops.. woots. dun mean it..
sorry guys..

i'm more of a happy gal.. though i'm still feeling upset..
hmm...
i think i need lots and lots of vitamins le..
sick agian!!! argh!!
i broke my record for sneezing..
more than 6 times at one go..
whee!!! peggy had a hard time saying "god bless you"
in the end she said.. "god bless god bless... bless god bless god.."
hahaz..
diao diao..
ohoho!!!
shall say wad happened!!!
i dint managed to sleep until 545am this morning..
wahhh!!! at 730am.. i'm still in bed!! until i received peiling's sms!!!
kena shocked!! then chiong all the way to skol..
had like super duper quick wash up..
thankfully i still made it for skol..
but my nose is damn bad..
hmph..
after skol..
we rot in skol a while..
thinking we had econs..
but then cos they dun wan lesson..
so ms teo cancelled..
mm.. so me, peiling,peggy and walter went to ps to eat and shop..
hahz
we eat from the same stall..
but its meaningful to me.. cos i'm deprived of that food that i wanted to eat since last week!!!
heex..
deprived kid..
mm.. made a nmistake rtowalk into yamaha.. if not i wun spend 30 plus near 40 buck on my grade 8 book...so far.. the ampunt spent for my grade 8 pieces is like near 100 bucks..
i better make sure i do well man.. if not i really can go kill myself le...
then went shopping..
wanted to look for earings, skirt and my wallet..
but sigh..
only managed to get my earings..
mickey mouse earing!!! so cute!!!
heex..
i saw nice skirt..
but i dare not buy..
scared mum scold me.. cos its like mini skirt..
hmph.. not like i dun have la..
but oh wells.. i hardly wear them ma..
wanna make over..
hazh..
i tink i'm gonna start putting make up when i go out next time..
heex..
must be more femanine.. hazh..
okok..
i've decided..
after my promos.. i'm gonna get a job..
so funny..
toaday kor suddenly smsed me saying he wanna intro me jobs if i wan!!!
of course wan la..
can earn money lei..
then i'm gonna save up money for 3 different purposes..
1. rebond my hair again.(this time i wan either ice rebonding or just a normal straightening)
2. save money for either a malaysia trip or even more money for japan trip at the end of J2.
3. save money for my own expenses..
during the holidays..
i'm gonna work 9/6/4
heex..
to those who dunno wad the numbers mean..
it basically means.. 9 hours, 6 days a week, 4 weeks
yea!!!
wonder how much i can earn like that..
heex..
this promos is veyr veyr impt to me..
it decides mea dn zhiwei's fate..
hee..
oh wells..
but its not like anything will happen.
cos we agreed to strive..
mm..
okok.. bu yao yue che yue yuan..
at ps.. i went ot engrave a ring!!!
finally engrave it correctly..
hopefully languan will like it..
kor!!! the msg on the ring is wad i really wanna say to you!!!
zhiwei can be my witness!!! heex..
and hope i engraved your bdae correctly this year..
so sorry abt lasyt year..
heex..
the only reason why i wanted to give you a ring again.. was cos you touched me with the ring you gave me back then..
its still with me!!
i never forgotten you as my kor..
really hope you will change your mind and come back..
ok... after ps.. we went home to get our jackets..
cos i'm not feeling well..
then me and peggy went ot woodlands lib to study!!
my fav place!!! heex..
* i had beautiful memories of that place ma..* wah!!! one group of marsiling sec students so noisy lor..
thankfully i still managed to do my work/...
heex.
mm.. then met peiling..
ate dinner and stayed at foodcourt to study!!!
hmph..
saw siew ting and MARCUS!!!
my marcus..
heex..
still find him as cute as ever..
hazh
soudns wrong yea? but i'm normal hor..
not guy crazy!!!
i dun like mhk le.. neither do i like ahem shui le
dun ask me why..
i'm disappointed yet happy!!!
happy that i no longer like any of them..
but sad cos walter made me sad.. by wad he smsed..
besides that.. peiling and peggy kept suaning me..
sigh..
why they like to bully me???
my good friends like ot joke with me lor..
cos i super blur right?
wad ever you all say..my blur blur brain take like thousand years to process...
heex..
so slow..
and peiling always say i got young senile brain..
heex..
days are fun with pple like peggy adn peiling!!!
yea!!! is this like the fist time S06's p^3 orbital gather together to study???
wheee!!! thanks buddies..

was disgussing with peggy wad will happened after next year..
when the guys go army and the gals go on their seperate ways to different uni..
sad.. we wun have much time ot gether again..
but thankfully 50%(2 out of 4) of our class guys dun need to serve NS
cos linan form china, chie hong from malaysia..
hazh..
as for jun hong and walter..
during their break out.. i guess.. we, being quite close to them, will always jio them out for tea ba.. hahz..
sounds fun planning for future..
but no one can tell wad will happen.. until after O..
hope S06 will all get promoted together as a class..
even though there are some pple who dun wanna be in the same class as us..
cos SHE IS SO SELF_CENTRED!!!
heex..
ok.. dint mean for personal attack..
heex..

ok.. last post fer the day?
hmph..
evening went to bpp to meet jackson..
on behalf of jie ying..
mm..
so i reached at 641pm..
wah!!! thought i was late le..
who knows jackson even later..
725pm still haven come..
but cant blame him..
he came all the way from malaysia..
mm... but anyway.. besides meeting me late..
he was also late for his gathering.
okkok..
back to the time iw as waiting..
while waiting.. i spent money on fries..
ahzh
mm.. thankfully i brought my maths over.. even not i will be rotting..
hmph.. ok.. after meeting him.. i went to buy bubble tea!!!
so long queue..
wahhhhh!!!!
when reaching home.. met peggy to lend her econs notes..
heex..
hope my notes are useful lao po..
hahz..
mm... yea!!! cant wait for tmr..
can go shopping..
but should i buy the wallet i wan???
or should i just save up the money for rainy days???
i wanan get a few things..
but i cant anymore..
unless i have unlimited amount of cash..
if in the past.. i would have been able to get wad ever i want..
cos i got an atm at home..
but now i dun..
i'm depending on myself.. and mum..
back then when i was working.. i can still spend extra cash on mocha..
now i gotta think twice..
dun wanan spend mum's hard earn money..
nvm... i shall perservere,.. after exams which is like in 22 days time.. i can start working again..
whee!!! should i go back to ivans? or join ben's company part time? hahz or should i go back gleneagles to shadow dr chow again? whee!!! miss seeing all the little babies
hahaz.. i'm thinking too far le..
better concentrate..
someone pls knock my head when you see me..
=)

its time to stop...
to stop loving him..
jo..
i'm gonna forget you as much as i do..
cos we will still be apart..
someone said before that no love is present to couple who dun quarrel..
so yea..
bet you know wad i means..
i've let this bloody thing dragged for 3 months, foolishly think that god will create miracles.
but god will never create miracles for a couple who are not in the same church.
forget it yea?
if something is yours, no matter wad you've done to it, god will still let you have it at teh end of the day! amen
yea man..
anyway..
read some pple's blog, looks like i've been blacklisted some where since dunno when..
oh wells..
i'm not sure if its me..
but if i were to think deeply like how i used to be, i will infer it to be me..
mm..
am i influenced by wh then? to think deeply?
or is it literature? hahz..

yay!!!!
had lunch with mum!!! nice food..
and i discussed with her whether i should get money from HIM!!!
to make myself a pair of new specs..
heex..
i wanna white specs..
benson and hannah jie saw me with the white spec..
and benson said i look quite nice in it..
heex..
yay!!!
wonder how was the negociation between the gangsters and gary..
hmph... aiyo.. cant imagine benson actually brought us to see show!!! ahzh..
cool!!! too bad jun jie kor not here..
if not really got show to see le

my break now.. so shall post something.. sent by ming yi..

KIDS IN GRADE SCHOOL THINK FAST>
>TEACHER: Why are you late?
>WEBSTER: Because of the sign.
>TEACHER: What sign
>WEBSTER: The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
>_____________>
>TEACHER: Cindy, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?>CINDY: You told me to do it without using tables!
>_____________>
>TEACHER: John, how do you spell "crocodile?"
>JOHN: K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L">TEACHER: No, that's wrong>JOHN: Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it!
>_____________>
>TEACHER: What is the chemical formula for water?
>SARAH: H I J K L M N O!!
>TEACHER: What are you talking about?>SARAH: Yesterday you said it's H to O!
>______________>
>TEACHER: George, go to the map and find North America.
>GEORGE: Here it is!
>TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
>CLASS: George!
>______________>
>TEACHER: Willie, name one important thing we have>today that we didn't have ten years ago.
>WILLIE: Me!
>______________>
>TEACHER: Tommy, why do you always get so dirty?
>TOMMY: Well, I\'m a lot closer to the ground than you are.
>______________>
>TEACHER: Ellen, give me a sentence starting with "I."
>ELLEN: I is...
>TEACHER: No, Ellen..... Always say, "I am."
>ELLEN: All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
>_____________>
>TEACHER: "Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?"
>JOHNNY: "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the>same day, same time."
>_____________>
>TEACHER: "George Washington not only chopped down
>his father\'s cherry tree, but also admitted doing>it. Now do you know why his father didn\'t punish him?"
>JOHNNY: "Because George still had the ax in his hand."
>______________>
>TEACHER: Now, Sam, tell me frankly, do you say>prayers before eating?>SAM: No sir, I don\'t have to, my Mom is a good cook.
>_______________>
>TEACHER: Desmond, your composition on "My Dog" is
>exactly the same as your brother\'s. Did you copy his?
>DESMOND: No, teacher, it\'s the same dog!
>______________>
>TEACHER: What do you call a person who keeps on>talking when people are no longer interested?
>PUPIL: A teacher.>

hahz.. i'm back like sooooooooooooooo early in the morning..
so sian..
should i go out today?
peggy's aunt's sick.. so she have to baby sit her cousin..
so she cant go out with us..
then jie ying is studying wiht her friends...
peiling is going out..
lef tme and aloy kor..
hmph..
but ask kor come all the way to woodlands..
like very bad to him lei..
jsut to study with me alone..
hmph..
maybe we shall gather on tue ba..
tmr after skol we're going out..
me, peiling and cindy..
hazh.. shall get jie ying too!!!
then after that.. we'll go study
wah lau..
so muggish..
can someone knock my brains..
and stop me from mugging..
its like i've mugged for so long..
constructive yet not..
haven exactly start revising for exams..
wad i' doing now is just holiday homework..
tchrs jsut cant stop giving us holiday assignments..
then we have no time to revise our work..
at the end of the day when we dun do well, they blame us for not studying..
wth..
i was blamed..
but guess wad?
i studied till i nearly drop dead..
but who cares abt that since i dint perform?
argh!!!! this time i'm gonna achieve my best man..
besides econ..
i better pass my maths, chem and gp!!!
if not hell will be awaiting me.. hazh

wad craps man.. i'm going crazy!!!
okok.. gonna go back to my desk to mug..
anyone wanna mug with me? lets go out to study!!!
hahz

i just knwo a terrible truth..
but i'm not sure if its correct or not..
their ip is the same.. cy, mh and dg
omg!!! must you all do this to me??? damn you la..

i withdraw from wad i said..
sorry ming hao and chao yi!!! =)

hey.. does this guy look like aloy???

side view

mm.. i got blog disgusting entries ah?
i only blog wad i thought..
hmph..
anw.. thanks ming hao, chao yi and da niao!!!
hazh..
thanks for defending me..
but seriously its ok.. these kinda spam wun happen for long.. hazh.. okok.

today.. this morning..
had split headach again..
dint wake up until my fone started ringing..
siew ting called..
initially said i will go church otday..
but it was super duper painful..
mm.. then i smsed esther that i wun be going.
argh..
chc ah.. when you dun go. the people will really start troubling you..
no peace..
mm.. but i have chosen my studies oevr church now..
esp when i know i'm only left with 20 days before promos..
i wanna make full use of all the time i have to study..
cos i can afford to fail and retain..
but then again.. its not like i dun worship god anymore..
mm.. went to meet jieying to study!!
think i ahd slight fever again..
felt super duper cold la..
luckily i had my jacket with me..
ahhz..
but was still damn cold al..
dunno wads the prob with my health lately..
esp my headache..
sigh..
maybe too stress from the studies le..
ok.. today zilian again.. wah!!!
i dint know wad i did.!!! look like a monster again!!!
argh!!!!! why isit that i still cant overcome that stoopid fear in me???
mm.. erm.. ok.. nvm forget abt that..
i guess i really cant get over it unless someone change my mind abt it!!!!
yay!!! i finished my multiplier reflections..
whee!!! i think i can understand macroeconomic better than microeconomic!!!whee.. ok.. i'm gonna pull up my socks for maths..
not gonna ruin my maths genes.. heex..
ermm.. a bit bui ba hor??? but yea.. to those who know me veyr well.. you guys should know my stand for maths
mm..
ok.. anyway..
this morning damn malu la..
smsed walter the wrong sms..
omg!!!so sry!!! i dint mean to call you that!!!
thankfully i cleared our doubts!!! whee!!!
mm.. think there's nothing else ba..
life arent really interesting for me..

ok.. as request from jie ying.. i will post the funny pics i took..

this was wad happened at mos@ woodlands . it just came off suddenly

thats the ceiling!!

repair man!!! hahz.. where's his head? why is he up there???

oh there is his body!!! where's his head???

see his head??? muahaha... why is jackson the repair man??? hahz

see the scandalous pair??? muahaha
look at where jackson is pointing.. hahz..

i'm home!!! heex... finally bought lg's present
mm.. ok.. went to marsiling to study..
reached at 3pm..
then study until530pm.
me, jackson, jie ying and peiling walked to causeway
heex.. to meet cindy..
then eat dinner..
mm.. after left the macs.. we werent constructive le..
sigh..
but after dinner.. me and peiling decided to study again.. so we studied until the pple chased us out.. ahzh..
mm.. was like 1005pm le..
jackson send jie ying home.. like got more than 1/2 hour le..
bluff us lor..
mm.. wanted to just leave without him..
so me and peiling went with cindy to macs to buy her bro's macchicken..
ahzh.. just nice he smsed...
hahz..
so yea.. went home tgt..
mm..
thats my day..
mm.. finished alittle maths. and left 3 ques of chem hol homework..
sigh.. tmr i'm gonna mug again..
mm..
called walter abt pw..
wah!!! his voice sound so sweet on the phone la..
really can melt pple's heart..
hazh..
mm.. shui ge.. you die le..
hahz.. i'm starting to fall dfor you deeper.. muahaha..
mm..

i'm gonna be constructive today.. heex.. things to do today..
- do chem holiday homework (half done)
- do maths holiday homework
- do econs reflection (mulitplier)

its teacher's day!!! whee!!! mm.. felt bad about not going back to sngs..
mm.. but yea.. anyway..
i'll find some day to go back yea?
hahz..
jiamin!!! jie miss you alot..
hahz..
ok.. today... gonna be a sian day for me ba..
cos i'm in my muggish mood today..
besides the fact that i'm gonna go bugis to buy teh ring i saw.. and mm..
maybe get myself a wallet..
the rest of the day i'm gonna be guai and go woodlands lib to stduy... wah..
i so guai hor..
better get good results lor..
if not i really sian diao..
these few days haven really been myself..
having lots of hallucination..
sigh.. who can help me but myself..
i still see a monster in me..
i just cant beat it.. why?
mm.. ok.. i'm already so depressed.. shant make those who read this get scared and start avoiding me..
ohoh.. did i write wad lee xuan man said?
hazh.. cos i went back MI to see her right??
she was so happy la..
hee..
then she asked abt me and jo..
so i told her that we broke long ago lor..
she said in chinese
"nvm la.. you will have more opportunities of better guys in future de.
dont worry so much..
you will be someone great in future de.. cos you think so much for otehrs.
even a simple card you also do on behalf of your formal class.. so thoughtful"
hahz.. ok.. its not exact translation la..
but around there..
mm.. hopfully i will get a better guy ba.. hopefully its someone who loves me alot alot.. and one who is veyr gentleman.. and if best hit my criteria.. heex..
mm.. i just felt a need to do on behalf of our class la.. since we had so much fun tgt in the 1st 3 months.. esp my gang of pple who always pon lessons tgt to go lib and play cards.. hahz..
mm..
i'm missing 1st 3 months soooo much.. dunno why..
but yea.. really enjoyed myself so much then..
esp cyrus 5.. but also not forgetting 06S03
mm.. i wish to go back to the past..
then i wun be who i am now..
i can then still be the carefree me..
and if i can choose again.. knowing this is the outcome..
i wouldnt have agreed that we hooked up that night.. even though you held my hands on that cold and freezing night..
i really cant imagine myself on my next bdae.. sobbing and weeping.. cos it was the night where we started tgt..
haix..
aiya.. dun wanna think abt it le.. just not my fate to have you by me forever ba..

today skol was short..
cos it rained in teh morn.. so we cant do the aces day dance.. hahz..
okok.. then rot awhile..
before going back to MI..
sounds weird right? why i chose to go back MI instead.. even though no one accompany me..
mm.. reason is actually quite simple..
cos i wanna be alone.. and i prefer MI to sngs..
i mean the skol.. i dint knwo my friends will all go back..
sigh.. anyway..
went back..
saw amina, salleh, selene and jie..
heex..
then went to jie's house to wait for her to change..
before we go eat..
hazh.
then she go yew tee to meet benson..
i went to bishan to meet zhiwei ..
was damn tired la..
but yea..
the medicine's effect lei..
sigh..
went to look for languan's bdae present..
wah.. buy a guy's gift is worse than choosing for a gal..
mm..
then jie called me.. she was at bugis and benson wanted to see me..
so ok lor.. since i'm so free..
had to kill time..
cos it was only 1 plus i think..
sian..
was kidna indecisive in the morn too... hahz..
mm.. so met jie, benson, derick. and a few otehr friends..
mm. then went walking around bugis to find languan's present..
mm... so hard to find..
but yea.. finally found something i really like alot..
hopefully he will like it..
but THEN!!!!!! forgot to bring money out..
sian..
so never buy,... damn sad la..
but anyway..
i really wish to call him kor again..
dun ask me why..
today jie they all ask me things abt languan..
then i realised that actually i dun really know him well...
but somehow.. he is veyr special to me..
maybe long ago i felt something for him..
but i never actually express myself to him..
and before i can knwo anythign.. we are no longer siblings..
i really miss him alot..
ok..dint go for bible study..
cos mum wanted me home.. cos i'm not feeling well la..
then was raining..
since i'm not well.. she's worried.. hahz..
then went back to cck..
mm.. after which..
cos i haven eaten dinner..
so jie and benson, together with a guy and a gal.. we went to teck whye, near my skol to eat..
then i'm home!!!
my day is so sian man..
i think i really become mugger liao..
sigh..
mm.. anwyay
saw myself on the image of the bus..
OMG!!!
i still look like a freaking monster!!!
why? why cant i just overcome my psychological barrier..
i just feel that i'm a monster forever..
no matter how much my eye's healed..
i really feel very terrible..
esp when i think back of wad happened on tue morning!!!
i really wanan cry,.
why must such thing happen to me???
why make me feel that i'm no longer a normal person.. but an ugly monster..
why make me feel that i'm no longer person..
its hard for me to accept..
and cos of that.. i really cant accept anyone's advice to overcome it..
not even scoldings..
i know pple like walter "scolded" me.. pple like zhiwei consoled me..
but i really cant accept it..
i see a monster in me.. in my very own eyes!!!
WHY!!!